Today...

Written By Esra Chebli

what an awful day..right now imma write anything and make

no sense to what I say,because nomatter how much I pray

everyday is the same..

I hate it..hate every minute Im awake..

I rather luy still and sleep

runaway from the pain

have a couple of dreams

maybe they'll go away someday

theres so much of the same game

I can close my eyes

I got the hole fucking thing memorized

what a shame..

screw everything

screw it all

already fucked over

I dont wanna continue with anything

and everything in my life

I dont give a shit

I just wanna hide

it dont seem Imma be goin anywhere

I've been patient but Im sittin in the same place

desperatley waitin

someone must be mistaken

is it just me

but Im wide awake and..

is this a nightmare

I dont even wanna think of this..

so Imma go sleep

thinkin bout noone

Im cut so deep

I dont care

it's useless to smile

I cant even explain how I feel

it's sad how I got just these words I spit on the screen

to just me myself and I

it's sickening

lost so many people

and all were the ones I really loved

we ain't togather

our hands aint physically joined

but man our hands will always be cuffed
found out a couple of people ain't bein true to me
prooved their true colors and simply fooled me
others took me the wrong way
listenin to the words but blinded like they cant see
blamin the shit they be doin wrong and make me feel like its me whos guilty
askin me if Im mad
nah...Im actually fucked
everyone screwed me over
I aint afraid to admit Im a jelouse
I kinda learned it the hard way..
like they say
keep ur enemies close and ur friends far..
all ya'll played me like a guitar..