Happy Birthday

Mamma!!

I Love You...

April 20, today is mamma's Birthday..
I wrote something..but had a hard time..
the worst things to write about
is about the person you love
who is so special to you
who has an impact on you in everyway
no words can really explain..
because words say nothing but flow with the wind
I can say I love you..
but to write it.
where to begin..?
I have to scan my heart bit by bit
cuz really you a person I can't not be with
you held me in ur tummy for 9 months straight
I was born as a 6 pound baby
but you gave birth to 6
the pain you went through makes pregnency a little creepy
helped me walk
helped me talk
always had my back
told me to appreciate what I got
gave me advice
bathed me all night
stayed up as I cried
put up with it til the morning shine
you are everything to me mamma
I love you
wait I forgot..
happy Birthday is what I wanted to tell you
I hope you live til infinity!!!
 Esra Chebli

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uY2_25qAc1k&feature=related

your Innocence is what I keep falling into..
while I'm blinded by ur life full of issues..
but ur heart is hard to get to..
I feel like a statue..
doin nothin..so I'm left to stare at you..
thought maybe a getaway place for two..
but you keep running away from the truth..
you know you don't love me like I do..
so why bother continue..?
you can care less either..
because u know neither..
will last together..so I don't believe her..
that little voice inside of me thats telling me to never leave you
Im tryin to convince myself..
but you keep burnin my heart and turning it into ashes bit by bit
and causing it to melt..
didn't care for the way I felt..
so why should I care when I tried to break you away from ur cell.
never opened up..
there was somethin you held..
so I'm about to give up..
can't handle bein led..
causin my emotions to shred..
is it about time I left..?
I'm still askin that even though I know I'm in a mess..
I just wanna..wanna be alone..and getaway from the stress
cuz you know it's hard even bein at home..
I need this pain to go atleast one percent less
I cried for you..infront of your two eyes and you haven't changed yet...
after her to get...
why me..?
because you knew I was weak and tangled up in a net..
my confidence was kinda low..so you knew I would fall you got everything set
look at me now..
well it's even hard to reach a simple goal..
I can't take it at all..
it's kinda pushin me away from what I love doin most..
I shrunk..when I use to stand tall..
threw me off a cliff...never caught me and left me to fall..
I can't believe all this you did..
I don't even know who I am nomore..
I feel like I wanna go back to being a kid..
and take away everything in my life that caused me to spin..
make myself understand...and stand up for what I deserve..
but never chose to live that way..
so that's why I'm here today
learned on my own..
so fell inlove with pain..
came out..nearly insane..

Written By Esra Chebli

My Life...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=33PQdqKpcYY

When their ain't a problem you can solve on your own..
their ain't no maury..
what would you do if it ain't ur fault an u felt sorry
like when the rain can't stop paurin..
turn the lights on to remember the sun..
but the light bring back flash memmories from the shot of the gun..
when I first realized..man my life is actually tuff
when it took just one..one to make it all fucked up
gotten older..felt so sucked up..
drivin on the road of my life with a rusted truck.
couldn't aford them fancy ones..
so it stopped me a couple of times
caused me to bust a pile of rhymes...
forgettin nearly half my lines..
there to much goin on in my mind...
so yeah..this an issue hard to find..
planted in me..from the seed planted in my mammas belly
this is livin crime...
when you in jail for nothin...
all I'm hidin is a lie...
so I'm afraid to cry..
cover my face just incase my tears expose the truth about my life
I keep holdin on a knife..
noone protect me but I...
haven't been like them others stressed to relieve there pain by gettin high..
tried holdin on to pride..
but slipped from the palms of my hands..now left with nothin
but the ashes from this burned up guide..

This is the life...or should I say never had one..
no child hood..and the crap ain't even done..
it's the wild hood...
a wild hood story..would change everythin if I could
blamed it on myself..I was to sorry..
when I found out bout the bolshit..and their was no Maury
tried to toss it..but the rain didn't stop paurin..
never happy with myself..
I know that bad for my health
so Im left with a felt..
I write up my regrets..
and leave me on to melt..

Written By Ersa Chebli

Those Feelings..I can't Seem To Get Over

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rZfGeWa5R1E

can't believe how slowely the days have gone by..
how much my heart has cried for you to come next to my side
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seein you again
can't be nothin else more then a friend
ever since then.................................
nothin but pain in my life...
lets make a new begining

but when it's hard to forget the past...
we officially gave our hopes up and thought nothin will ever last
confused maybe takin things to fast
but that's not an issue..
maybe startin all over again..
because...you..know..I miss you..
I feel like a little girl who lost her favorate teddy bear
the one she use to sleep next to
cuz you were the one I even thought about while combing my hair
and now all I'm thinkin bout is all the things you do
hard to mention..
I mean a couple of things..
don't wanna make things to oviouse and cause a little tension..
I'm hoping to reach for you after I'm finished detention..
it's all because I wanted to try a little chemestry reaction..
but caused an explosion..
this isen't how we both wanted things to be
so this is my dedication to the person whos loving me..
the only one I see grabbing my hand in my dreams..
taking me away..and setting me free..
what I've noticed..
nothins been goin well..
wakin up happy..
but your not next to me
these feelings are hard to believe but still there
their hard to see...but trust me I care
I know that's even hard to believe cuz I left it to tare
when I told you I felt like you deserved a better one
how I tried explaining we can't be together..
but never made it clear because your the only one in my heart
but told me you'd stay loving me forever..
don't mean to confuse you with another thing..
but I'm just letting you know..
the oviouse answer to your question..
is I still love you..and I haven't gotten over you yet..

Written By Esra Chebli

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Rl2NORv3P0

walk right past you..
while you keep in place like a statue..
keep yo feelins sucked in like a vacume,
cuz boy I'm about to wack you..
...ak47...
if I could I would blast you..
wreckin my seconds in my minutes of the hours of my day,
keep up with your laughter..
this love is a disaster...
to dem bitches known as the master..
but to me known as a bastard...
trynna haunt me..but you like casper..
racin to me like nascar..
but you know I'm faster,
can't even keep up with yo own games,
in this train you leading me in so many different ways..
get yo directions straight,
keep me happy as long as you stay outta my face,
here let me tie yo shoe lace..
because you ain't gonna be able to walk as long as yo feet tied together
this ain't no bag race..
but make sure yo mouth taped..
cuz you never get yo facts straight..
think you got fame..but you haven't even made it on mtv's made
pissin me off...
like you think I give a fuck
I ain't willin to step in yo house of pain
when you iritate..
like how my ears feel listenin to Tpain
I don't give a fuck if you got them diamands on ur dam chain
cuz all I'm lookin for is a dam change
don't give a shit wut yo mans say..
man you's more risky then a blind date
you was expectin a fine mate..
sorry boy I ain't got time today
don't wanna go with you to this lie parade
you ain't the juice I like, sippin on...lemonade
you's wastin the energy in my gatorade
got me feelin like I'm high on prayin
gimme a kool-aid
nah for real I mean a cool-aid
look what dis fool made
cover half his face in luie-V shades
he be singin like baby huey says..
"pop lock and drop it
tonight it's gon' be some changes no acting sadity"
you make no sence
so I speak yo language and say boo you have me in mentality insanity..
actuality..you a commonality, how sadely
you understandin me?
ur love is like genetic abnormality
man I can see it like visual modality
my own hospitality
high loss in ma calories
sick of ur monaply
go play dat wit ur hommies
you gon' be the next Mr.Lonely
don't be comin back for me like the police..

Written By Esra Chebli

Da..Da..Da..Da...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ua6ulOB3MOw&feature=related

Hard to speak words of truth...

these words speak clearly of you..

I know you wonder..

how I wonder..

if he ever knew..

when he reads..

he knows..

what I'm talkin bout

the words that were hard to spit outta my mouth..

with a simple question..

led me to miss-direction

teach me a lesson..

to whom I deserve

who do you prefer?

us is what were ment to be together

it is possible to start a hole new chapter..

but is it what I want..

yes..but I'm not the perfect one..

hear me clearly through this font..

what we had..

was love

what we were..

we will never give up

I know I'll never be able to heel this scar

and I know I'm stucker then stuck

we held hands..and we're still cuffed

so don't worry..I'm still lovin you to much...

ok look...

this beat pounds...

look..

I know now..

how much you were worth..

I see how..

how things don't always work

I ain't proud..

I threw it out..

and now I'm feelin down

thought I'll never see clouds..

but here I am as they cry above me..

and I can't stop the sound

so da da da da..

tick tick tick

as I wait...

(flick)

waitin for nothin..

maybe somethin,

somethin..will happen

da,da,da,da,da

tick..tick..tick

It's now fall

woooshhhhhhhh

leaves are now flyin in the wind

I've waited years..

where to begin..?

snow flakes are big..

I'm still rubbin my chin..

I don't think I'll ever win..

win you back..and be the champion..

so...

da da da da da

tick tick tick

I hear the words...

I'm sorry for bein such a bitch...

Written By Esra Chebli

Beauty Is What She Is...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cbPOgAMgjiI

Beauty...
is what she is,
the way you look at her
shes..competitive
I can see it'll never be a win, win
checkin her up..down, turned on with her fitness
I'm so hurt with your pickyness
talkin to her..yeah I know it's not my business
but still..
I ain't the wind...
passin right by you..
tossin a smile at you..
but her gloss is what ur into
I go home feelin like I got nothin left to do..
lookin in the mirror
trynna look like her..
when I know deeply and even they say its not what I deserve
but it's so hard to back away from you..
ur the only person I love
you don't know how much I admire even a look..
I'm able to write a million poems..fill up my book
but why you gotta make it so complicated for me..
what you gave..no girl would of took..
heartbroken...
is what I officially am..
and I can't change that
cuz thats what I'll always be...
I'm done..done playin pretend
do you really love me?

-esraChebli♥

The beauty of life people don't seem to catch..
where their is always space for a second chance..
and the world out there isen't just romance
there is more to life then love
you'll realize once you take a glance...
when hurting and building these feelings within you
then burning and quilting peices from your skinned tissue
it's like exposing a thesis in a million issues
but reasearchin for ways to seperate the mixtures

Written By Esra Chebli

That Empty Part Of Me...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DbXottJJPZk&feature=related

listen to this melody in a lullabuy..
a kiss goodnight is gonna keep the tears outta my eyes
maybe I'll have a dream that will make me forget the pain in my life
read me a story book with pictures inside..
take me away to the land of paradise..
where there is no such thing called "pain"
and there is only tears of happyness
and no games
and flowers that never die..with no clouds that cry..their is no rain
the sun never goes..it becomes brighter everytime you look at the sky
no time never run outta anything..
even teddy bears sing
where butterflies grant my every wish...
but thats just dreamin..
im here and..
I ain't livin in heaven..
I don't expect to..
I accept pretendin..
If I were givin a chance to grant a wish from a gene in a bottle..
the only thing I would ask for is...
To Fill Up This Empty Part Of Me...
That Part That Never Seems To Feel Complete..

Written By Esra Chebli..

NoOne Else...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rf_bFwroVvE

NoOne else in this world like you..
NoOne can do the things you do...
never met NoOne like me..
NoOne knew I was a phony..
when I told you how I feel...
listenin to this melody..
we became what was once the missing center peice
combined our love..
and became two into one..
started off strong..
but it doesn't always stay like the start..
now you know...
I'm two faced..
nothin but fake...
what did we really make..?
how much did you take..?
what did I give..?
why am I makin the same mistakes..?
will you ever know how much of my heart really breaks..
Nobody knows..
because I simply hide it without a trace..
we seem to argue when we miss communicate
I'm tryin my best to facilitate..
but will I make things easier if I give you ur own space?
I would come runnin back to you..
but somethin is pushin me back because the things I do..
maybe it's from all this shame..
for how much I put you through..
so I'm comin back right now..
sayin the words I never wanted you to hear comin outta my mouth
I'm sorry..
this word is trippin me out..
but..how will you know I'm sayin the truth..
do you know what I'm feelin now?
I ain't just sayin it..Imma show you how..

Written By Esra Chebli

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8hEoce0xhAw

I see the changes and struggles I go through..
everyday everynight there be one less person to talk to
hearin the same words I got you
feelin like I got nothin left to do..
but then I step into the bright side
like I don't give a fuck if things ain't goin right
to all those people who promised to stay next to me and walked outta my life
to them haiters who are pickin up on me to start a fight
to them lovers who sayin those three words to me and end up cuttin my heart in a slice
fuck ya'll
Imma keep movin my own way
if the world be turnin against me
Imma keep doin my own thang
don't got time for no dirty fag
don't need another layer of more pain
so Imma keep lookin ahead and forget them games
Follow my dream
since ya'll add the cherry
Imma add the whip cream
be my own team
I got me myself and I
and this big dream
like the world cup and a soccer team
I'm the champion in my life don't need lifting
I got outta a hole
came on my own
Imma lay in hole
when death comes and my bedroom in a grave yard
noone gonna be proud of me
but me and whats above me
I don't give a fuck how ya'll remember me
you ain't the shit in my life whos settin me free
stay outta my life and stop blockin the light I need'a see
because none of ya'll ain't doin me any good
so step out..bitch please..

Written By Esra Chebli

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8yycOceo4u0


babe you aint answerin my messages..I call but the machine come up sayin you be back in a second..are you still remanacin..? bout ur ex, I thought u was serious no pretendin, but how come I say I love you and you leavin it pendin,,actin friendly dressin all trendy, trynna get me to envy, when u know I aint up for jelousey, is it true what they told me? is that why you aint callin? fuck it..Im sick of waitin..havin me sick to my stomache..I aint no toy to play with..got this blemish..why you actin selfish..I told everyone you was the bestest..I trusted you..there was no need for testin, put my heart back..I'll lead where my chest is, I'm sure its the only best fit, breathless..I was stone..thought I was reckless..but now I see, you think you the freshest, to me you were so precious..I know I never showed it buyin you a Lexus..never to cautious, now we just a fossil, I guess your lips were to luscious, to scrumptious..love lead to infatuation, miss lead our functions..these weren't my plans never knew it would be my heart u be crunchin..the pain got worse thought you would stop munchin..gummin..gummin me like you chew gum, makin fun'a me..a fool outta me..when without you I now know it's gonna be pain free..

Written By Esra Chebli

A little rappin goin on at youtube

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WXy5_ato5BY

http://www.youtube.com/user/cuteleb43
I..I be drivin in my whip..cool chrome..got the leather shit, rolled up windows injoyin my selfishness, beat up high..ppl lovin it, watch my car as I dip..right by them comin from da crib..the beamer benz or bently, don't know wut to pick, got them bitches jelouse wishin they havin it, all over me even if I be sagin on ma dick, I be like the fresh prince, people knowin what my trend is..wishin they had the life like the way I live,
I be in this beamer, fresh out the dealer, black shine, wit the back of the trunk got them speakers, with the seats special leather heaters, as I be drivin constantly checkin my rear view mirrors, no saftey shit, just wanted to make my own spotlight wit my high beamers..

tried somethin different wit this beat..the beamer benz or bently is rockin the streets..so Imma talk like i can aford this shit..sittin on expensive seats..I got the bucks up high..I got the chrome all over me..you got them rang rovers..but I got the heat...my car as fresh as wayne..3 peat...not the 22's..but the 24 inch wheels...body kit down low..my tires fresh from leo's...beats blast sick even wit the sound of neyo..I be drivin..but I feel like Im in the ocean..findin nemo..you be fryin when I pass by..it smell like edo...I aint any better..im one of them negros..a rich mawfucka...I put gold in my cheetos..im the hero of heros..I can drive all 3..I pass by like olla amigo!
-Written By Esra Chebli
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Written By http://www.youtube.com/user/UPP3RCUT90
Never had a Beamer Benz or bentley ... when I was was younger the fuel tank was always empty...pull up wit ur whip, lock ur doors & take ur keys don't tempt me ..coz riding an estrogen tank thats rusty ain't got no sex appeal...to drive thru the street it hurts yal don know how dat feels...like men watchin biatches runnin track in high heels... Im tellin u this muthafuckk ain't work like square wheels...but that was back in da dais when girls used to stuff tissues in they bra...Now I'm riding 22" in a imported car...make my appearance in a suburu sti wrx with 3 inch ground clearance...engine a beast exaughst attracting coppers coz it's causing noise inferearance...we can stunt all night..middle finger out the passener window when we ride makin lame fucks sick to dey tripe
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http://www.youtube.com/user/cuteleb43
-stop wit yo nagging..let me tell ya'll wut a drive...see my ride..fresh off kajiji..not a beamer benz or bently...man im tlkin bout 2000 dollar dealing...baught it from some guy named laweezee..he told me the exoust a lil leaky..thats why when my engin runnin it smell a lil cheesy..couldnt aford a honda..part time worker at arbys..man I had to wotk my ass off to get my hand on them car keys..
Written By Esra Chebli
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Written By http://www.youtube.com/user/3268right
-Fuck a beamer benz or bentley I be smashin my Chev'ee wit a bitch rollin Doe-de while i tip my Henny shit hit me like Semi she feelin on her Tities i got a nine (inch) bout to unload it til its empty, 25 then im Out then im Out its a Drought its a Drought im up to ptich im at the Mount now tell me the Amount cause i always got the Count with them yellow big birds
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http://www.youtube.com/user/cuteleb43
-yo dis is the beamer benz or bently..pick one but i pick 3 excludin my chevy..drive past you while u lyin there huggin yo teddy..depressed cuz ur ride ugly..like its ugly betty..im steady..like steady mobin u ready..hold up im bein to friendly..i think im a lil to trendy,u can smell my ride my ride so smelly..aha its belly the color so rich like the rich choclate of oh henry
Written By Esra Chebli
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Written By http://www.youtube.com/user/JerseyFatMan
-well your chocolate melt when I fly right by with a rice burner as my ride with the shiny new coat and that big blue tank got me 2 fat blunts rolled up with that dank quick like a shank between your ribs my ride so fast it shifts ya organs while you pouring that weak shit in your glass I got that RX-7 floating by your ass

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Written By http://www.youtube.com/user/3268right
-lol Bitch U must be Brazy if you think fuckin wit me Nightly or Daily Now take it 2 da throat like swallowing Babies u kant Fuck me with me like i got rabies homegrown 4rm 80's an i flow so Greatly with a thousand in the Teddy Ak made ya Steady hit u all up in ya Belly catch ya in ya in beamer benz or Bently i ant tryin to talk like low minutes on Celly thought u was Ready now lookin like confeady thats why ya shit smelly
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http://www.youtube.com/user/cuteleb43
-lol Dick U must be prayin,fuckin wit u is like fuckin wit ladies..ur words aint that big of a shit for me to swallow U crazy..yous tlkin like u got rabies..well then here imma rub u wit ma hankies..bitch I do this shit daily, like da girl version of shady, I get this shit top rating..I aint hating..u ridin on 80s wut the fuck is you drinkin
Written By Esra Chebli
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Written By http://www.youtube.com/user/3268right
-Ur rite fukn wit me is like fukin wit a Lady bkuz u kame in unprotected Now you got Hiv an u Burning then a G like me go in ya pockets an take ya Earnings an send ya Urn'en to yo mom in the Morning so she kan get to Mourning im pissing an im Pouring wit the Heat wit the Heat hotter than elijah Mornin rippin rippin threw ya Gournments You ant ready for this Torment you ant ready for this Torment Your as good as wood Dorment flick a blunt roach at you an watch it watch it get to Scorchin nigga theres yours Warnin
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http://www.youtube.com/user/cuteleb43
-u pissin an paurin wit the heat wit the heat..cuz i burned ya wit a lil speach crippled ya teeth..i get it from the air I breath u fuckin in ma world i bring the flame at yo feet, bitch dis is fuckin wit the real G..nah u cant creep me..wuts my warnin when I got u lyin here like grilled meat..oh here now i gotta use my hankies when i rubbed ur rabbies and rub them tears..while u b screamin sos rihanna come save me
Written By Esra Chebli

My Inspiration...He is.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M-yfwoJlvhc

Freedom...this freedom flag
K'naan you makin the world sing
K'naan you makin this a better place
when rappers rap bout better days
but hear your song and know everythins gonna be okay
you brought the light into the darkness
and helped those who are strugglin
someone wants to make a change
man..you stopped my tumblin
Imagin how much you mean to those who are survivors
who lost loved ones in war fires
you took over that inner feelin that told them nothin will work
and stepped in and told'em you can never run outta hope
opened the eyes of the people who care about their dope
but you created this flag..and this flag you show..
cover black hearts, into sweatened oats
pulled them into this new world
washed out the hurt and pain..
your doin somethin with your fame
trynna make change..in just positive ways..
so I make this shout out to you
and others out there I may not have a clue
you all doin good
god bless ur souls
you helpin when everythin falls
you the ones makin this rain gold
you never just made this album and it sold..
it's a special one..it helped my goals
you did more then what we asked for
enternaiment is a master
but the key to sendin word to disasters
life is gettin sadder..
but if you can put a smile on a person face in just a day
I believe you can put a smile on a million others with just wut you say
say K'naan keep wavin that flag..

Written By Esra Chebli

Hey daddy..where you been all these years?,

mamma told us you had some stuff to do back at wall street..

you missed my first class

oh daddy look here!!

do you see!!

daddy!

daddy!!

watch me do a cartwheel

when mamma told me you were comin back

I thought you looked like uncle Jack

ahaha..because he's kinda wide and fat

no..!! because that's his brother in fact!

mamma reads us beautiful bedtime stories

she sings beautiful melodies..

I feel like she tries to tell me..

like she wants to say something

daddy why weren't you here?

why didn't you atleast visit us?

"Baby girl, why all the questons?,

you ain't old enough to understand, it's big people lessons

so come on over and take my hand

I have a little story to tell you

but it's a little sad..

come along and sit on this bench..

.and I'll tell you the rest.."

"when you grow up, weird things happen..

you'll discover something called love..

but you have to make sure your seat belts are fastened

because its a bumpy ride..

you see me and mamma went to school together..

we fell inlove,

so we started to date..

you see..

me and mamma made a little mistake..

that's when she got pregnant

me and mamma kept fighting because we had no money

thats when we decided to seperate

it was no joke..nothin was funny

so while I was a away..

mamma gave birth to you 30 days late

that's when they found out she had another on the way

but I became to afraid..

that's when I called uncle jack to stay

daddy was mad at himself

it was to hard for him to call

for you to ask about

when I tried I rang once..but put the phone down

but I come now

because I'll never be able to forgive myself

you've grown so big

I never even got the chance to see you as a kid

be by you while you were sick

hold you in my arms as a new born

I made mammas heart sore

that's why she don't know what I am back for

theres no point

I'm gonna hurt her more..

but I promise you I wont

that's why I wanna marry mamma and proove to her imma make it work

build this family stronger

hopefully I wont make things worse

I love her

and I love you to

but daddy gotta make up for all of this

 this a big wake up because he got kids

and they are his

so it's his job to take care of'em til the last day he lives..

Written By EsraChebli

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vc4Nl6i9tR0

you wanted to share a little somethin tried to tell me you liked me
wanted to make me your wifey
actin all...nicey
I took shit..even if you hurt me slightley
you see..theres this other chick an shes all pricey
just cuz you were her man don't be actin all mighty
see dis bitch...I mean these bitches..that your liking
this shit, you are probly now shitless from all this fighting
cuz boy you doin it for nothin
one girl after another..man ur somethin
I'm swarin all the way to my bedroom with a smile on my face
when I'm furious with you boy..ain't no lyin today
you think I never got the hang of this game ur trynna play
you fuckin dibshit I ain't got no time for this game
I ain't like yo bitches waitin to pleasure your ass
well boy when I said I loved you..well Imma go on and take that back
playin hot an cold..ain't you to old for that??
well you can go on and keep playin with them sacks
ur lucky I never left yo ass after you lied to me
admitted to it after days..man I was cryin for weeks
when I be hearin shit, and kept it inside of me
never told me nothin so you kept doin yo shit silentley..
don't be lookin in my eyes your a fuckin stupid lie!!
I fuckin hate you with all my pride
you need to go get yourself a life
oh yeah...let that bitch touch you from the front..
go on to the back
daymm someone had to tell me that...
I felt so low and still defended yo ass
well it's about time I leave yo ass..
find myself someone..and this time a REAL man
Imma now use simple words..Imma explain you
and Imma make every word worse...
you think ur hot..but ur simpley Not
have you heard that phrase..?
I added simpley to give it a better taste
hmmm..you..what's there not to hate?
everything should I say...
man your simpley fake..
I know I wear makeup and all..
but even if I were to dump my face in pounds
I don't think it'll compare to yo soul
you..have...a..Big head..
sorry boy..no offence
it don't go with yo skinny ass body
so I prefer a bigger body instead..
man das bad for you..
cuz I ain't got high standards..
it ain't no good if thats the truth..
looks aren't everythin to me..
but you didn't even have a personality
whats there to like about you?
the way you act?
or the things you do..

Written By Esra Chebli

...Decide Later...

so..you want to add me in your life again..

you want me back

but this time no pretend

you want it to be like before

or start off as just friends

I don't know..

because I don't like the way things ended

should it just be nomore..

or try to work things out like others did..

what for...

it's not like I can't be independent

but my heart is to sore..

so I choose to decide later before...

and I just stay silent..

and keep this pain cuttin within deep my core
and keep playin this violin..

Written By Esra Chebli

Lightening speed flashes through my veins
a photo of you dashes through my brain
thinking of our love my heart begins to race
as the feelin of butterflies tickle my face
images of me holdin you
the flexes in my arms are turnin blue
I see your eyes sparkle..what can I do?
when you be like an angel at center moon
just before I sleep I'm imaging..
us together laughin endlessley
this photo of you breathtaking
my shinin armer,
my shinin star
hold me close, don't keep me far
cuz you the one
the engin that runs my heart
keep me near with nothin to push us apart
puttin you in a phrase
rhymin lines with no right words to say
when words are outta place
but it fit so perfectly with you it's hard to explain
you my sugar that I need to taste
is it ok if I cut and paste..
a photo of you..
and put it in its place..

Written By Esra Chebli

When things end with no conclusion

I guess this love was just an illusion

I'm sorry for makin things so confusin

I made you feel like I took your heart and used it

but when I actually felt somethin for you boy..

but took your heart and abused it

when I be thinkin of you through the hole night

when we end our convo with no goodnight

it be always me that start the fight

I see where you comin from

I see why you wanna leave my side

I see you like no other guy

when you make me happy

but I feel shy..

you tell me it's hard to speak when lookin in my eyes

I feel the same way

but to you it's just a lie

listen to the words people speak

please don't let them play with your mind

and begin to look at me differently

these phases, these changes towards me

don't relate to me..baby I'm sorry..

I'll take them to consideration,

even while the rain pouring

I don't expect you to catch me while I be falling

but I'm prepared for how you wanna end this story

I'm strong enough to get throught it

even if I might be seein ur face every morning

Written By Esra Chebli..

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iKuM1brIUDk

(this instrumental by 2pac called "starin throught my rear view mirror" went very

well with the poem I began writing.)

They be screamin, fighten, shouten

there voices get loud an..

we be climbin up this mountain

bang!

slam that door shut

as mamma starts to cry

as he tells her to shut up

he don't wanna try

she just wanna leave everythin behind

sleepin in seperate rooms through the night

got children on the side

do they realize there reckin there lives

me myself and I

I'm a child

I dont wanna grow up liven this life

I cover my face

I write along..

rely on my pears to be here while they be gone

through these years

scard memmories

this photo album burned

cuz you know..I got no gallery

my life..my failery

when school be turnin on me

marks droppin low from the stress that fallows me

counclers be askin me questons tellin me they're here

when no one understands

no ones trusting..

as my worlds rusting

these doors shutting

my walls tumbling..

shut the fuck up

stop your arguing..

*when it comes to reality..their is very less smiling,

you know..you'll find stress piling, no matter how

old you are or young, you could be goin through..

a lot of shit..

Nomatter the timing..don't expect to be sittin on

your ass assumin the way life is thinkin it be simple

Without experiencing..

whipe that smile off your face.

you don't know that it's miss placed

cuz when the time comes..

you'll find it completley out of shape..*

Written By Esra Chebli

missin you..

lookin in ur eyes..

holdin me tight..

missin you..

like..I'm...I'm missin ur vibe

when I think of our happyness through the night

when you ain't here..when I need you here by my side

missin your goodnight..

baby come back in my sight

when I be missin your touch...like I be missin your smile

we ain't talkin for a while..

so even if I had to walk bare feet towards you..I will

even if it'll take miles..

my heart beats as I be pressin these dials

hard to call you up

this pressure on my back piles..

missin you...

I'm..I'm..missin your love

when you use to tell me baby I'm missin your touch

I kept you warm like a winter glove

like you kept me close when I felt like givin up

while everythin reminds me of you

every step you walked I be steppin with you

feel me baby..feel the pain I'm goin through

this feelin be like december in june

whipe this snow away

because I be frozen with the thought of you

I miss you so much..

miss me the way I do

bring back the summer

or baby these flowers will never bloom..

Written By Esra Chebli

I waited for you
trusted you
loved you..
held you
brought happyness when I was with you
missed you
cared for you
forgave you
never played you
risked everything for you..
but now I'm lyin here
whipin my sleeve across my cheak
when you told me to never cry
it's the only thing you never want to see
my heart bleeds
with worster pain then you acted like it was for you to see a tear
I gave up everything
followed and fell for the things you would say to me
and now sleepless nights
trynna help myself out
turnin to my good side
I say to myself I can beat this fight
losin you is hard
but thats just life
when I don't want to accept you outta my life
my emotions depend on you
but that can't be right
everythings bright when everything seems to be fine
but after the strike..
it's hard to see when you turned off the lights
you don't love me the way I do
yeah...thats how I feel when I'm with you
when you got these other chicks on the side
what I see
how I feel
forget all the shit I hear about you
when you tell me I'm wrong..
it's kinda hard to believe
when I thought I felt love bein rapped in your arms
maybe I am wrong..
wrong about you bein faithful and makin me strong..

Love you..

Written By Esra Chebli

with the start of depression of no hugs

when all I needed is love

til oneday I got exposed to drugs

took a sniff..

til every sniff was never enough

got this addict..

til this addict became way to much

I can't live without it

when in the beginin I doubt it

thought I was strong

just one sip ain't wrong

and now Imma drug attict

took me to rehab

but rehab act like static

these drugs were magic

but they said my drug use was massive

and now I'm layin here

I gotta have it

with the temptation

this high sensation

but yet crashin into my life is tragic

hurtin my mamma

man I can't forget her reaction

when she told me

why this the only thing that reach my satisfaction

when now all I be is on my own

 child care came and took me away from my home

so I guess I gotta pay for the consequences of my actions

hope I get well and walk outta here laughin.

Written By Esra Chebli

Runaway Love instrumental (Ludacris ft Mary J)http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dWhxcgXTdlY
-Just began lyrics tonight only got verse one finished.
will be updated..

(verse #1) 25sec-1:05
These thoughts be scary when they be comin by
wanna runaway from home
start a hole new life
things aren't gonna be the same...
leavin everythin behind
but it's time to work things out
take the pain away from my life.
poppin pills, maybe drug use
or runnin from a relationship with physical abuse
I'm holdin myself down with the right thing to do
so I runaway in my own world and thats where I find you..
where I once seeked for love and affection..
where I once bled out of emotional depression..
and now when I find someone just right
when I be blind from a completley fine pupil in my eye..
how nobody listen or see the pain that I'm sippin
losin everythin but it just don't finish
what is left for me to do?
I guess runnin away is the only thing that came through..

Written By Esra Chebli

In The Mind Of Whom..?

"Shes so young...it's time to have some fun,
when she fall so easily when all I want is to feel on her buns,
when she be just 15...it's time to play with her intellectually,
haha she even go against her family..
when she think I'm serious, she full of insanity.."

-How does he really think?...for a colldge boy is it sick?
when we look at our parents and the age difference..
depends on the envirnment he grew up in..
way back home
so I can't really understand him
what did I get outtta all this..?
well now I can tell when a guy begins to bol-shit..

Written By Esra Chebli

Walked in seperate ways..

but ended up in the same place..

...in the land of mirrors..

me and my second face...

Written By Esra Chebli

beat be movin along as I be writin this song

heat risin to the top as I be fighten to give it my best shot

e-chebbz the name I give myself ain't a secret for long

I'm willin to erase every face that is willin to move me outta place

I'm willin to give my all even if it takes my soul

I'll hold on tight

if it peels my skin to the last layer of meat

Imma keep on hodin

til I get pulled off my feet

Written By Esra Chebli

Ring Ring, the phone go off four in the mornin, wuts happenin I'm sleepin
I tumble over their you are sayin your leavin,when you surprise me with ur cheatin
while you leavin me for another and I'm lyin here bleedin,
don't know how to get ridd'a the pain that I'm feelin
whats this I'm seein!?
a letter of my letter you promised to keep it..
fuck this..fuck it, cryin tears cryin buckets,
there be no way to unlock these lockets when my hands be glued in my pockets.

Written By Esra Chebli

school is packin me with homwork..barely got time for anythin

need a passin mark, so no stress..I gotta worry about other problems I'm livin

Written By Esra Chebli

maybe if I touch a star
or just let it fall..
to me
let it come down
let the world see
my personality
my soul who makes me
who I am
what I breathe
as the makings of a chebli
to e-chebbz
the name I be givin myself for a living
my hobby
what I injoy most
what I consider my toppings
what makes me happy
don't be pullin me away from it
cuz nothin can stop me
I don't care if you look at me as a tommy
cuz I'm no boy
maybe I just copy

Written By Esra Chebli

I'm afraid I might miss you
maybe miss you just a little to much
when I don't want to just miss you that much
cuz just maybe I love you more then love
and even when looking in yor eyes I can't get enough
wutif I stay loving you forever
and the thought of you just wont leave my mnd
how will I deal if your not here nxt to my side
but when I even miss you when your right next to me
when your gone imagin what it'll be like...

Written By Esra Chebli