it's funny how someone can hurt you so bad..
with just simple words and make you so sad..
it's funny how someone can help you stand..
like I mean on your feet
but also make you weak just by lettin go of your hand
it's funny how we depend on eachother
but yet leave one another..
it's funny how we all change
but we notice it from eachother without realisin were all the same
this world's a funny place
it's kinda like a board game..
runnin in circles..since the worlds a globe
and we think we can throw somethin away
how can we forget the past when it was just yesterday
we lived it..we can't just move on and act like it's a new day
life is an issue...with many problems in it to solve
in the end you never know what the conclusion was to resolve
how do we just keep movin on
like we still wake up to a new day
we think we've givin up, but we seem to naturaly find a new way
we use eachother
for love, for friendship, for style, for recognition, for beauty
it's just so funny
it's common sence, why get mad when you eventually give it another chance
we are creatures that adapt to anything
hot and cold
not just weather
even if we had to walk on feathers
we always gotta way
but you know what else is funny?
how goodbye is a hard word to say
but we still say it..
and we still make it
even if you thought you can't take it
look it's a miracle!
the words are written clearly infront of your face
there you go..now you know we kinda all make mistakes
no ones perfect..just live your life at the fullest.. ;)

Written By Esra Chebl

Diary...

My 2009,

I struggled..struggled to a point that I tumbled..I tried new things, met new people..and I learned for what it brings. Hangin with the wrong crowd, tryin to make everyone but me proud..puttin myself down, barrying me into the ground..I call it the worst year..the worst year for me, I learned things the hard way, and I blame it for the person I am today. This year has affected me in many ways. I became depressed and stresssed..but it's what made me start writing, what I experienced I hope to never experience again, just fights..I remember writing one of my first poems and it was about why I was chosen to live this life. when summer came..the drama starts, it's when everything started falling apart, I didn't know what was happening..til I realized me and my loved ones were begining to part..I was inlove..it was my first love or maybe a deep crush, I took many risks that I don't regret taking because I believe it was worth it for my heart to be aching..things got messed up, I kept my love for him on the down low, I wanted no one to know..but it was never kept as a secret it began to show..I got in shit..lost my advantages..lost the meaning of what trust is..seein my best friend as an enemy, never would of thought things will be like this. I felt like everything turned against me..like the world hated me..me and her were still tight, I still called her everytime I cried..but what happened after..some people got involved in her life...I wish I can share whats happening today..tell her whats new..maybe I should call..but no..I don't think she wants to talk nomore..but it's all good, I gotta learn to accept things in life, I lost many things before..but this friendship was one thing losing I cant aford..but I'm asuming it's to late, I hope she finds a better mate. I learned that if I start off on my own..I finish on my own, it's crazy for how much I've grown..all I wanted was for someone to understand, but no one will understand me as much as myself and I gotta learn to accept that to..I know I can do it...I know I can stand on my own..so now I identify me as "the unknown"....

The Diaries of Esra Chebli and life...

Diary...

My 2010,
I'm startin a new year..new pears..a new me, takin every opportunity my eyes are more wide open for me to see...but more to come when a new day appears..

The diaries of Esra Chebli and Life..

The stage lights..the spotlight be on me.

the attention... tonight the world be dancin

the music...everyone be jumpin

my heart is pumpin..today the world changes

clubbin...we got the subs an..

we all be rockin...til the mornin

we lovin..move an..chillin...an we givin..

all we got..we be sippin..with the east coast swingin

holdin..on a mic..we singin...we rappin

sayin whatever..like who cares we better

laughin...pictures takin..like the paparatzi

be like paris hilton...the big glasses we show off an...

I'm the star...in the spotlight

every news paper, pictures of the craziest hang overs

in the parkin lot there be range rovers

no limos, just trashy...we got them haters

it don't matter bout the mercedes..

we don't care if you think you be gettin them ladies

we got all we got

we put in what we have

don't think of cost

man we just spend

passed out..wakin up in some house

it be 4:30 in the evenin

we just woke up from bein partyed out

now..it's time..to..party..all night..til the mornin

we club til it be to drunk to drive

we be like brokencyde

things get dirty..

there be no lights

we wake up sorry

but we keep partying like maniacs tl we fallin!

Written By Esra Chebli

check out 3rd street click at there myspace

http://www.myspace.com/canonizedklick

there awsome!

said at the right place
at the right time
most importantly the words waiting to come out from deep inside
sit back and think..
with a glass of water
through your thoughts you sink
are you willin to take it farther
or did you run outta ink
are you thinkin it over smarter
no mistakes
neither of us want to make
thats why I promise things will never change
the memmories from when we first met
til today
when we became our own set
there will be no games
there will be no pain
it's the time to make it our best
keepin it locked in a treasure chest
no time to play
I got the right words to say
I thought it over
and over
this is somethin I was willin to go for
just serious
I don't mean to be so curious
but I was kinda oblivious
so it was brought up
it was in me for to long
I'm glad notin between us had to stop
and now that huge weight is gone.

Written By Esra Chebli

Im not the happy girl you think I am

people rate my personality a ten

but when I look in the mirror all I see is pretend

I call myself a true friend

but nothin seems to last til' the end

I always got my shoulder to lend

I always have a message that I need to send

I still got words that need to be said

how come life is so hard to go through

theirs so much things I gotta do

who ever is reading this

what do you see when I look at you

I'm sick in this forever flue

I guess I'm still trynna find who I am

I hope I find me soon

It's like I lost who I once was

and now I'm someone new

I never missed anyone so much

I mean the real me

the inner me I lost

were my heart thats suppose to be touched

I wish by an angel

the me who's suppose to be loved

it's not the feeling like I gave my soul away

it's the feeling of a different me in every way

it's hard to see how I'm hurting today

the mirror is the only place

I can look at my face

and see how I have really changed

me is so hard to face

other then blood my body is filled with shame

the feeling of no stronger pain

how can it go away

so I keep moving in the same way

Written By Esra Chebli

GoodNight

GoToSleep

TurnOffTheLights

WhisperIntoMyEar

LookAtTheTime

SayILoveYou

ThenShutTheDoorAsYouLeaveMyBedroom

LetMeDreamOn

AndWakeUpWithYourVoice

AndNotMyMorningAlarm

LetMeFlyWithMyBrokenWings

HelpMeBelieveICanTouchTheSky

LetMeSing

TouchMyHeart

LoveItMoreThenLove

NeverBreakItApart

HoldMyHandTightLikeACuff

MakeMeSeeYourFace

HelpMeGetAwayFromMyPain

BeHereForMe

ShowYouCare

ShowMeYourThere

WhenWillTheRightOneCome

WhenYouLookAtMeStare

MakeMyHeartDrop

MakeMeLoveYou

TrustYou

MakeItWorthItWhenICryForYou

Written By Esra Chebli

Look at me now

I'm a dead rose

I was beautiful and bloomy

and now my petals are rusted and black

I want my beauty back

someone to love me

water me

give me life

I'm layin against a crack

someone tell me why

I need the suns energy

and the rains moisture

what could a rose do to fight?

were does my soal go

layin with life of nomore

I wanted to grow

and grow

and grow

the most bautiful rose

but it's to late

I wasn't watered

there was no sunlight

or protection

I was picked

and given to a humans that love lived

now they threw me away

like they threw eachother

why should I have to pay

for the hurt they had on one another

I'm gone now

I'm a dead rose

...

Written By Esra Chebli

Recess time is all we got

hurry up!!

I have a special hiding spot

my mommy packed me choclate chip cookies

we'lll eat them together in the sand box

or maybe behind the big tree with all the colorful leaves

and lay in the grass and look at the clouds in the sky

at lunch time sit beside me and I'll share my lucky charms

my sandwich of p&j is cut to the shape of a heart

I'll give you the half of one part

and will eat it together

will hold hands under the table when it's time to color

but make sure noone knows that your my lover

call me when you get home

here I'll give you number

tell your parents we have homework to do

and come over

and will share kisses and hugs until you go

hang your coat next to mine in the coat room

sit next to me when we sing the happy song

but why does the bell ring so soon

I'll see you tomorrow

you better be at school

Written By Esra Chebli

my fingers rap around a mic

it's just me and the crowd of my life

it's like to much to say that I ran outta lines

but it don't matter

I got all the time

because it's just..

me myself and I

Written By Esra Chebli

I love bein rapped in your arms
you make me better when life gets hard
I love the fact that Im your girl
missin you with every breath I take without you
believe me when I say your my world
I love when you hold my hand
I feel like I can barley stand
I've fallin for you
but even harder just thinkin bout you bein my man
I love when you look me in the eyes
I love how you make me believe I can touch the sky
I was a dead rose...and you helped me bloom
you gave me life, you were my superhero before I knew
I love everythin bout you
I love you
especially your hot looks
got me faintin by the sent of you
am I dreamin?
I'm pinchin my self this can't be real
boy...your actually really next to me
can you feel what I'm feelin?
when I see you my heart beats up to the wall of my chest
I want to be with you on the journey of my hole life
and it's for the best
this isen't just a crush I know it's more
I'll be thinkin of you even when I sleep, thats when I be havin a dream
your imposible to ignore

Written By Esra Chebli

Son To Father

Don't die
please tell the angel  to keep you alive
or i'll tell the angel to take my life
if your gone I wont sleep ...like insomania
I just won't be able to sleep through the nights...
Turnin things into reality
things ended in tragidy..
I open up the lights to feel  your face
so I can be in your sight
you hold onto your chest tight
your skin is so pale and white..
You're hurt and I'm hurting for you
I can't help to see what your going through...
I wish there was something I could do
I'm praying and hoping for death to leave you alone
Dear god help him live forever and on
I can't help but cry..
I can't even imagine how much pain your takin' inside
I'll cherish every moment that I've spent with you my father
I'm thinking of the love you have for my mother
or the times me and you have spent together
it will be only home videos on the t.v screen
or pictures..
those are the only things I'll get to see of you living
along with all the memories..
I wish you get better
but you're only gettin' worse
woke up one day to be hit with your death
I write up a letter to lay on top of your grave
I try to stay strong and brave just for my families sake
but deep down I'm really weak..
I can't even speak..
life won't be the same
who's going to be the grandfather of my kids?
or who will watch my wife and I walk down the isle when I get married?
if it's not you, then it's no one
because the person who I need by my side is buried
When I was a new born, you held me in your arms
It was my life you carried..
maybe this was meant to happen..
maybe there's a reason we should be apart
so I'll accept the way your breaking my heart
I love you dad
but I have to live with the fact that your gone
I'll always be sad
you were the only true freind I had
and now your gone
but I'll make you proud
I know your watching over me ..maybe sittin on a cloud
I'll follow your footsteps
all the way to your grave
I'll try to make you happy along the way
Here I am breathing..
Why does life have to be so misleading?
Why couldn't death take my soul so I can feel the feelin' of releif..
Life is too short and breif..

Written By Esra Chebli

Boom!

 bombs crash down

like the sound of thunder but one hundred times loud

hittin on a small town

covered in the pitch black clouds

the smoke

doors pound

from the fist of a soldier

(shot)

it's man down

torture and violence

to victoms it's timeless

more then a dozen bodies found

to them there will never be silence

no choice but to surrender

homes invaded by soldiers

army bases across the border

things gettin tenser

SOS

as they ruin there nests

peace

it's what everyone deserves

spendin millions on war

when they could be findin a cure for disease

kill but what more

oviousley it's not enough

they begin to torture

I don't gotta clue what it's like

I live in Canada a peace keeper

but I can still fight

my home country Lebanon has been through war

don't forget palestine thats still fighten to keep their home

soldiers willin to leave their family and maybe children if they got

goin across the world

to take over a families lot

is this what you were taught?

it's a shame to see what you have brought

come back from blood

"guess what hun I just killed a six year old and left'em in the mud"

thats fucked

what wrong if there was no fighten

they teach us in school that it ain't the right thing

but how come they can and I can't?

it just hurts for them to face the fact

Written By Esra Chebli

Daymmm my life ain't the same
it's unbelievable for how things changed
why do you think I'm playin games
what will it take to make you believe I ain't fake
baby this pain is killin me
how could you be so cold
why aren't you feelin me?

Written By Esra Chebli

Why,

I couldn't stop the words from comin outta my system

I'm sorry but I can't handle it when your so distant

you told me I played you like an instrument

then you walked outta my life in an instant

baby your words hurt

and your actions did the rest of the work

what will it take for you to listen

never knew things will come to the worst

don't tell me your finished

it's going to be hard to accept what I was told

but it will be harder to know you ain't forgiving

take my hand and hold

give it pressure and never let go

and our love will never be forbidden

Written By Esra Chebli

lOVE BIRDS

MOVE IN THEIR OWN

DIRECTION

eleven months down the drain

your love has gotten you two insane

remember when you didn't even know eachothers name

what happened to your love for everything to be delayed

are those the words that both of you needed to say

you don't know what you got til' it's gone

now your both cryin after you realized what you lost

everything thrown away

both of you thinkin the same way

sayin that nothin will ever change

how do you know that it will stay the same

look in his eyes

look in hers

and tell eachother it will never work

say I don't love you no more without taking a pause

because you both know what your letting go

something so precious

I know you know

walked away leaving your teardrops behind

wonderin how you will go on with life

your both begining to regret the fight

it wasn't worth it to say those hurtful words

look how we ended the night

one last time in the arms

broken hearts

GoodBye

you two angels cry

Written By Esra Chebli

 

R.I.P 

rest in peace Micheal Jackson 

how did this all happen?

the king of pop endin so tragic

when his music be like magic

entertain us with his dancin

the moonwalk

to me he's a chanpion

to him black and white there was no difference

he even made a song of why we have to live this

hatin him for his actions

Micheal a petifile?

somebody tell me what that is

the game made a song about him

featurin others

the world of entertainment ain't the same

everything so different

we all miss him

grew up with child abuse

and now he's a legend

rest in peace..

Written By Esra Chebli

Is looks all that matters?

the mirror dosn't lie..

he is what made my heart shatter

what is it you don't like?

is it my hair or my eyes?

is my nose to big

or is it my awful smile?

I know I can't aford the things she has

but still I think I have something any girl would want to have

she has the latest trends in fashion

and I have the fashion that would atleast reach his satisfactions

her perfect smile

her perfect eyes

her perfect home

her perfect life

but why are you so into her?

what is it about her that makes you so sure?

I could be a perfect lover

she is just an ordinary girl

her money on your mind

and you on my mind all the time

I gave all the signs

what will it take for you to realize

you don't even have a clue

right now I'm sitting here crying for you

and your sittin with her keepin her company

I don't even know what to do

she got everything I dont have

so I guess with you I'll never get the chance

Written By Esra Chebli

IRockMySelfToSleep...

I rock myself to sleep

rocka my baby.

but no song for me

layin in my bed my eyes tear

as I flash through my dreams

movin along in a nightmare

rock an rock an rock

back an forth

the sound of tick tock

go to sleep

I have a little lullabye for you to hear

you ain't no baby in my eyes

so rock yourself to sleep with no kiss goodnight

half awake half the night

half the time all it be is

cry an cry an cry

noone could see I turned off the lights

be sure you have a tissue right next to you

because I won't be here by your side givin it a whipe

cryin solo

on a lonely street

no..I'm in my room to go to sleep

cry an cry

no need to whipe your tears

keep cryin theres no need to fear

it's gettin late

I'm still wide awake

were is my song?

it's to dark I'm afraid

I rock myself like a baby in a creb

when mamma use to sing

go to sleep my little baby and give a kiss in the end

but were you at now?

on your bed cryin yourself to sleep

I know how it be mamma

I can hear you scream

I know you be wide awake all night

and blame it on the sound of the t.v

you rocked me til' I fell asleep

now Imma rock you til' your last tear

no need to be sad mamma I'm here

don't fear Imma sing you a lallabye til your last tear

I'll sing to you and end it with a kiss goodnight

mamma Imma be the tissue for your runny eyes

I'm the kid who you raised

I grew up and now I'm here to sing

"mamma don't you cry, mamma I'm right here,

mamma dont you try, mamma Imma stay to whipe your last tear

I'll sing you a lullabye like you sang for me

Imma end it with a kiss goodnight for your sweet dreams

mamma don't you cry I'm still here

just shhhh and go to sleep

I'll rub your back and tuck you in your sheets

so mamma please don't barry yourself with your tears"

Imma hug you tight and play with you

just like you did to me

imma sing to you

mamma I'm still here

theres no need to tear

it's the only thing I never want to see

it's time to get some sleep

rock an rock an rock

I rock myself to sleep

it's your turn

who will be here to whipe your tears?

tick tock

back an forth

who will rock you to sleep?

Written By Esra Chebli

                            

 Yet Empty..but still so much goin on in my head

                                                         

Will you care to be my wife?

yes I will..and I promise to stay with you til' the end of time

Will you be here when I need you by my side?

yes I will..and I promise I will already be next to you to show you the guide

Will you ever tell a lie?

no..I promise that it will never have to be the reason if we fight

Will I always find you right next to me at night?

yes you will..I promise my arms will stay wrapped around you til' the morning light

I love you

I love you too

So now will you wrap this ring around your finger?

yes I will..and I promise taking it off will be like committing a sin

Take my hand

and share with me a kiss

I will lock it on to your lips

I promise to never lay them against another

Me to

can we share a moment for our dance?

Yes we can

but if I step on your feet give me another chance..

Yes I will

and another chance I will always give.

By Esra Chebli

Beep, Beep

I be ridin in a GT

with the subs bouncin up high from the CD

my head be bouncin to the ceilin

chrome everythin

nah..I'm just dreamin

normal home down north

ain't expensive

I live down by a school yard.

gotta dodge mini

you know..my parents got it from a used store

with the economy up high

and the recession in

all it be is no work

trynna give in

livin in a small world

everyday is the beginin

I ain't tellin a hood story bout a young girl

drugs, ghetto hood shit

I ain't got no experiences

I ain't never even been merked

my life ain't delirious

I'm just the tool of my own world

screwin myself over

the small things got me so

every sentence got me usin and or..

normal shit people don't see

ordinary

ain't extraordinary

I just play along with the beat

makin a mill

that ain't my skill

gettin them bills

but that's only me when I be standin on till

I ain't the type to be walkin down streets

makin fights trynna be like the UFC

I was the type of kid that sits lonely under a tree

coutin ants, multiplyin all there feet

the kid were there was never a extra seat

an open door I always preferred to just take a peak

I'm so hood

is what I prefer not to be

because I prefer to just be me

and me is who I prefer people to see

or else I know I be cryin on my bed sheet.

the fancy things in life I don't need

because I got everything that gets me stronger to believe.

Written By Esra Chebli

Rob Jamal Writes-

Rob Jamal Writes produces music but also has tracks which will be on his mixtape comin out very soon, right now he is going through a couple of problems (internet, time, work) but is still tryin his very best to keep his things goin. Disregarding those difficulties, Rob is glued to his music and does not let nothing keep him from doin his stuff. Rob is inspired by his music, and has inspired me. I opened up my hidden talent to him, I started off writing poems, but now I write lyrics and this is something I never thought anyone would care for, until he taught me that it dosn't matter if noone cares, it's how much I care. I want to give a huge shout out to him!! because I know that I wouldn't be here today if it weren't for his encouragment, and he is doin an awsome job acheiving his dream! and I know forsure it will be all worth it in the end for the effort he's putting in this.

                     

How?
Dont be cryin on my shoulder

baby your lyin to your girl

when I be cryin lookin through our folder

back and forth

from when you stepped into my world

we grew apart as we grew older

baby you was always the only one

baby you was the one who said you was done

baby you said I was the only one when you was just havin fun

baby you was the one I thought brought the sun

what happened to our friendship?

what happened to our love?

everything went so wrong

I thought I was loved

but you was just up for the lust

you hurt me

and now im stuck

I cant believe I fell for you

man I'm so struck

lookin in my eyes when you verbalize your lies

wishin I turn back in time to throw you outta my life

you acted like everything was right

made me believe everything is fine

you lied in the tears you've cried

even the sun when it shined

I'm tied

even after the fight

I still got light

but this light aint as bright

it aint the same

somethin missin that I need to find

I still gotta seek for were it hides

Written By Esra Chebli

I'll start with the letter "A" 

and end with the letter "Z"

but that's only for the letters in the alphabets..

with you

I'll start with the letter "I"

and end with a letter "U"

I start all by myself

then continue on with U

I then put the letters,

L,O,V,E

together

and put it between I and U

I keep U

and add an "S"

to make US

so I glue it on to continue with the rest

I lay "P" next to "S"

and "A" next to "R"

then plug in "K"

to add a little S,P,A,R,K

now I'm left with

B,C,D,F,G,H,J,M,N,Q,T,W,X,Y,Z

but could be placed anywhere because no words could explain.

Written By Esra Chebli