If I were to wait beside the clock it won't take me anywhere, I just thought if I do something to forget about time, I find myself running back for it stuck in the same spot, how can I survive?, don't leave me wondering, don't leave me scared, I want to be confident you won't let me go in this thin air, I can't handle myself when your in my mind constantly, my love towards you makes me weak, it takes all my power leaves me with no words to speak, it's just me and my curiosity, your all I have, all I desire, all I want to be, but you don't always get the things you want from your dreams, because sometimes things are just too ideal.

Written By Esra Chebli

This is something I wrote to evanescence together again instrumental for a friend of mine. He wanted me to write something for him so he can record, it was based on his life and everything he's been through..I'm not finished it but this is it so far!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DiJeyh_9fMs&feature=related
9sec
man I don't mean to expose..behold..the life of the grown I compose to the rights of the chrome, lights in my home..light used to exist in the sun when I walked over stones, I had steal scraping through my bones you could feel enemies hiding underneath roads I walked upon..the gates that enclosed..air was so strong I overdosed, there I was kneeling..behind the bars of heavens gates..sleeping in a jail sell over seven plates..cloud nine was my aim eleven was my escape, a place, freedom never exists, I betray overdose on meth and cocaine as I embrace purity upon my face, as you trace the syllables walking across this page, stomping to each breath I spit logically, as I erase the past filled with numerous mistakes, humerus to relate, mamas back to my exchange..as she phased while I began to elevate..lonely was my only friend to hate, I can't take the anger it's the only thing that's fits in my place..if I could trace my footsteps back it's never to late, to scar myself with more memories it's hard to explain this pain..lookin at my reflection with shame but I came such a long way..and it means so much lookin at the person I've become, to finally find that person I love, hard to believe when I can't love myself as much..life is never enough, and you gotta learn to accept the one, destiny flamed from the sun, aimed from a gun, it says to be loved, but you my beloved ones think of me as the only son, blood was my ego, I turned to disguised demons dressed into people...

Written By Esra Chebli

You've came such a long way but I've waited for you, 
I'd meet you half way if I knew you weren't comin so soon
I waved flags and flashed lights who knew I'd lose,
But I can say winning your love is the hardest thing to do

-Esra Chebli

 So I wanted to try something a little different in this post and talk a about some "things" in general and clear my emotions once and for all to start clean again. I'm having a hard time keeping up with my posts because I'm not fully finishing anything, but hopefully I can set this out today. Sometimes it's hard to word your thoughts, and I see why..well it's because there's so many things you can think of at once, especially trying to explain something. During this period..I felt a brief separation and distance from people..but I take it as a normal thing in certain cases. It's hard to word how I feel about people, but I'm so stupid sometimes and forgive a little to easy..or forget to easy, which could be a good aspect as to apart of my personality, but could be take in advantage of. Another thing would be, I take people far to serious and I don't realize the "friends" that won't stick around for too long. When your in a relationship your supposed to build and discover new things together through trust and communication, but sometimes you think you are when really your just building a wall between the both of you or they are doing it to you..and no matter how hard you try to break that wall between the both of you they just keep building it..after all the trust and memories spent together. I put the people in my life to great worth, but some people just don't worth you as much or just care less about you..you are influenced by others and this is why it could effect me in negative way just by simply hurting me. In my posts I put great meaning to everything I say..but nothing is complete enough that actually explains how I feel. Some people can't and won't understand the little things that can throw me off easy..and I just came to the point where I just don't care and I'm literally not dedicating or wasting any of my words to the people who do this to me out their. When I write, my first goal is to try and put something out their that somebody can relate to and figure there is actually people who understand you and it's not always good to feel alone, but apart of me always tells me I'm better off on my own, and I can't help but wonder why people always do this to the people who care most about them..and I'm talking about loving someone in general, isn't there a friendship in every relationship?, ok, look right now is an example..I don't know how to bring up the next sentence because I just had another thought..something tells me I'm lucky to have friends, I wasn't the type of girl to grow up with a best friend so I'm used to the environment..I don't believe in best friends I only believe I'm closer to certain people then I am to others..when I go through a phase where I just want to be alone those are usually the times I stay farthest away from my closest friends because I don't want to hurt them from acting different..so I go to the people who wont notice because they don't know me well enough..and that's how I lost most of my closest friends..but that proves right their that they weren't true enough to me to be patient..but who has time for anyone these days? some people can go through things..very little things that can build up into a massive attack that can be so hard to tell someone about because it won't seem like it is much..but it is. Sometimes drama just comes to me out of nowhere, and it gets me thinking like really? I have so much more other things to worry about right now..people I haven't met in my life putting words in my mouth and action at my finger tips, but those things bothered me when I was a kid, they just can't get to me no more because so much was said about me that I can make a whole other evil me out of everything said.. I'm built with a heart and mind..I can see, I can hear..I can taste a smell, I catch onto things easy. This is going to be a very stupid thing to mention but it actually amazes me...today I got a message sent to my phone from my phone company saying my balance or whatever is about to expire, and that's basically next week which means I can't even text if I have any left. So on my plan, I have 2500 texting per month..and you know that would waste in literally ten days, that's nearly 250 messages a day, but my texting is still working surprisingly! that just proves to me how many people just cut me off...or I just simply thought I shouldn't answer to a rather stupid message..yeah things changed..a lot. oh yeah, I forgot to mention, you know some people actually stop talking to me because I look guilty at times, and I just look bad, so they take that impression and throw every aspect of my personality off, but whatever..so..am I waiting for a phone call..a text from you..a message..not anymore, I can't base my life waiting for someone to care about me..it just isn't fair towards myself anymore..Bye to the people who I'll never talk to again, talk to you soon to people who might care, and I guess I'll talk to you later my friends.

-Esra Chebli

This World..Built with beauty, functioned with evil..Looks are Deceiving

I'm gonna viciously assault my religion and stand for what I want, like a savage pass it on and stand in the stars, above all of you, and have the devil right under my arm...nobody can control me as I wait for death to discharge at the echo of a guitar, this worlds so dysfunctional..functioned with evil in the heart

Written By Esra Chebli

Don't sacrifice yourself for this heavenly earth, this world is nothing you'd expect it to be,
trust in yourself and faith..give more than you take..but keep the one and only thing for yourself,
the soul living with in you, don't come across a doubt,
this world is a disease, like syphilis living under the skin you will never see,
only with tests you'd come to find what's planted in this earth seed,
we are here for reason of a slave..hell living under our feet..
run from material temptation received,
being the demon you think nobody can defeat.

I'm saving every breath I've got, but when will I be strong enough to let these words have their freedom, they just wish they'd never be stopped, but trust in my actions it shows in my appearance, it's showin a lot, my jealousy and envy stays behind this dot, is to never be spoken to a soul just leave your jaws to drop, I know a smile will slowly rise because now that I'm down you can finally take the top, even if there were no top in my world, yes I know your shocked, I'm not a pretty girl, I was always lost, I'm so dead..just leave me to cross..on that list of stocks, I never even made it on, forget the talk..the only time I was runnin through a persons mind is when I was bein watched, as I walked by never wanted to assume what they thought, I'd just stress and figure my body needed some loss as I never thought of the cause, People hate me because of who I am disregarding the person I'm not..what you see me to be is not what's hidden behind this lock..I need you to understand that..I could never believe you would be in love, my multi personality but it's me who I forgot..it's like I woke up in a different place years ahead of the clock, I'm young and mature, though my life paused, what had to occur, my life is a collage, that's why people tend to cut me off, grow out of a relationship so easy, and leave me to frost, but my heart's so warm, it boils to the point my emotions are melted away and cropped, I know everything I had but along came were the things I wish I got, nothing was ever complete on my watch..

Written By Esra Chebli

My rib cage is cracked all my demons escaped
Can you feel these walls closing in, can you hear them talking, the ground under me tells me to keep on walking, but the sky tells me be carefull don't look down as the ground is stomping, I'm stuck between myself and what I should do, I'm stuck between the clouds, the sun and the moon, I can't control this as my feet let go of my shoes I can't hold this my screams burst into fumes, my rib cage is cracked all my demons escaped, my arms wrapped in a cast, my broken wings, diattached, my feet ready to break, as they fall through a trap, my sheet ready to intake another emotion of trash, I'm stuck between liability and respect, me against I the entire city of stress, the world on my shoulder and my heart in wreck

I'm going to viciously attack myself..
Through Human nature, The Mind
I can see so many of me
that's when my eyes begin to lie
these rocks callapse over my head
in thunders Surprise..
I'm at the verge of insanity
Do I feel alright?

Written By Esra Chebli

If there were no paper

If there was no pen

If there were no words

If there was no led

Esra Chebli
This is my life

I'm suppressed in a can of Explosives

you finally threw me and had me flaming Corrosives

polluting the air leaving everybody Chokin

runnin away knowin there was an Explosion

leavin my heart impulsive blowing me up into Oceans

I could never stop crying you now left me Frozen

your cold world is now shattered into Erosion

just because you couldn't take the Devotion

I'll remember you and forget what you were Involved in

I'll never live up to you and all this Commotion.

Written By Esra Chebli

UnForgettable Earth

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FMm758L4UVU&feature=channel_video_title

These Fields, these gardens of flowers an trees, these streets for he See's, He yields, to a sign for he speaks, through natures actions as we bleed, Suffer the consequence, this grass, this air, this oxygen will prepare, nothin will come in to kill you only release out of your skin and hair Be aware, He is angry, He is hurt, His clouds are trying to hide what's in His Earth, for he promises you will burn, these flames, this sun, we left a memory for this lonely god and turned our backs on his "son", a Christian. Jesus I follow a different one, make sense and purify before sayin your done, we prey and look down I look up to you as my only one, we created monsters out of ourselves climbing on his mountains trynna defeat him, while he throws rocks on our bones we will never see him, and his tree's only make it harder and the path slower so we're cuttin them down we're makin paper hopin he'd hear us out, I hide under a roof hopin you'd find me cuffed, let me blend with the crowd there's so many of us, let me send messages for a messenger should be loved, but it's the entertainment it's the lust God forgive a must, I need the pleasure, I need to adjust, because God I'm angry, God I'm hurt, God I'm saving, every breath I've got and see what you'd catch me saying because I'm hurt I normally burn, I can hide my transparency, my Parents see, I don't even have to show you, I believe, I achieve according to your faith  it's my democracy it's my way of sayin Fuck Scientology..These Fields, These gardens of flowers and trees, These streets for he See's, but it's me, it's the strength you've given me, I won't hide from you unless you have lightening because god taught me People cannot strike me..

Written By Esra Chebli

"Girls...Boys?"
I don't know how to word this,
but we're always talkin about guys cheating on girls and blah blah blah..
but I'm gonna take it to the next level..and be the girl to speak up on a MANS perspective..
chicks get mad if they find their man just TALKING to another girl..
I don't know why...
apparently he's "committed" so..it's the one hoe and that's IT..
when is she ever gonna trust him?
how does she expect to trust him if shes not giving him the freedom..or space
a man gotta respect his property..
I mean...a dick can't lay loose forever,
a man won't choose to mess around with a girl whose serious..why?
well because they know what they're getting themselves into..
and when a girl wants to be serious, she gives off the impression of a sex partner and that's it..
but they don't realize that, because at that moment they're just trying to impress a relationship..
so they fall..but the guy thinks she's looking for something else..
and once he isn't giving much attention, they get hurt..
and they start to show what they're trying not to show even more, and that's how they get played..
AND it's not cute to be jealous when you love somebody..that's just F*****
it could be normal I guess but it will escalate to different levels..
girls are like fish..
when guys are fishing, if they catch a fish and don't like it they are gonna throw you back in..
DEPENDING on how much of a hard time you give him as he's trying to put you back in the water..
but girls give such a hard dam time that guys just throw'em to get them off their hands
that's like catching a fish whose biting you and flapping as your trying to put it back in the water..
I mean, I'd just throw it to dry off in the sun I don't care I just want it off my hands,
Girls tend to think about the future when it comes down to guys..
they HOPE to see a future..
they WISH for a moment to drive them towards a future..
like if a guy kisses a girl, next thing you know she's on his ass..
you like me...why'd you kiss me...are you playing me...
like it makes me sick..
face the truth girls..
WE GET ANNOYING..
we're so dam insecure self build up is impossible..
"you can never trust a guy"
"every guy is a player"
it's what we give ourselves off to be..
now I'm not sayin every girl is like this..
and every man is Innocent..
but I'm lookin at the truth nobody ever speaks of..
she starts crying to her friends because her man cheated on her..
when she's been complaining for the past five or six months about the way he's treating her..
and what I don't understand about that is when she goes turning to her friends..
they have a whole load of shit talk to get runnin
but they don't look at the fact that she should of left him in the beginning if it was so obvious..
"a guy never changes"
like why do gay guys have to be so hot?
well we scared off all the good looking ones!
I'm just joking..but it kind of gets that bad..
this is GIRL TALK
encase your wondering..
OK now boys..none of you are perfect..
and I clearly know that every once in a while you screw around even if you love somebody..
it's healthy..
but don't be in your girls face when you got the same shit goin on..
you just hide it..
there are guys who cross the line sometimes..
and same to girls..and girls don't admit that..
they'd be talkin to one guy next thing you know they're in love with somebody else
and the funny thing is you'd never see it coming..
I mean just the other day this bitch was sayin she's in love with me
and when you ask her why she did it...she says you never proved enough..
it kills me..
ok now something else just came to mind..
when a girl is dating somebody and he starts seeing another girl..
"cheating"..
and his girl finds out, and it turns out she knows the girl...
why would you give the girl shit...when your man had somethin to do with it too..
I'm always seeing these girls take their boyfriends back as if it was all the other chicks fault
sometimes..girls allow guys to play them..
imagine how much of your life time this takes up...
WHAT A WASTE.


Written By Esra Chebli

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jl06Z1Ku1yo
The world Today
People these days can't reach out to one another..I mean I tried it, what happened to friends being like lovers, People these days forget about pride and take it under the covers and push fam to the side, friends are the first and last things on our minds we put into consideration, this is a senseless ride in our destinations, of..learning how to fly in ideal motivations, we use television channels, movies , and body creations..money is what we work for, money is what we die for, live for, and happiness is to will for in recreations..we Import, blood rubbin off escorts of products transported through the province in hell war loaded off the coffins in genocidal prospects workin for a mill during conflicts, and who said we have to give a fuck in times we launchin..bombs in countries not even developed and it's a set up..to kill..murder..how do you even get up after you hurt her..what happen to respect, what happened to time..patience for less in the motions we let..move on when we got nothin left and we become stronger yet settlin for sex, money, the game, the fame selfish for wanting everything creating bigger stronger pain in the worlds innocence scattered across it's face.

Written By Esra Chebli

Losing My Mind
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kM_n5DFwKDo&feature=related

Trynna release these trapped words..I'm the only one that can save'em
while they scream for me to come rescue it stuck in my basement
where can I go from here, as my feet swing across the pavement
hopin I can come up with the perfect lines but I can't seem to say'em
spit it out of my throat and speak this language
No one will understand, enough with this baggage
I'm goin crazy just left here prayin...
I'm my own prisoner against the guards in invisible faces
Unknown voices tellin me I can make it
pushin me the opposite direction trickin me into basics
rhymes and phases I regularly hate it
listening to the odds hopin to get some inspiration
but I can't reach the master piece stuck with all the information
stop with the bullshit I spit like the shit comin out of the anus
I'm not aimin or lookin to be famous
I'm just saying my life depends on the ages
give me some motivation
lookin back I can finally tie myself into laces
workin like a bitch like I'm trynna work for my wages
and I can barely make up for the payments
my soul is in poverty lookin for the replacements
I'm about to retire over a lifetime maintenance
to cope with the consequence of being painless
I'm aimless in between these lines I can't go back and trace it
searching desperately while I catch myself in the wrong places
as soon as I switch lanes I'm makin some serious changes
while decisions are controlled stuck in different ranges
in my dreams when I'm walkin on stages
No one can hear me I can't possibly say it.

Written By Esra Chebli

Umm..Love fails on people BUT itself

Love is selfish

Love is cruel

Love is..Stupid!

Love is nothing but useless..

so why do we use it?

For Pleasure

For Pain

Love fails in every game

oh..that's the antagonist in this story

ahhh "it will never be the same.."

forgot to mention "it's way to late"

Love have you ever told anyone your wife was Hate?

you control life you drive me insane

who the hell are you anyway?

your planted in my bones what do you hold me against

you make me afraid

but why should I fear you..

you haunt me with your trace

fuck you memories

since when do I beg for a bitch to stay?

but I'm the bitch here wait!

you got me hooked on your drugs

you take me away

you lift me up and say

this is a much healthier way you find this shit in cocaine

your the demon tellin me it's gonna be okay

manipulate me and block my own face

bring that rush through my veins

controlling my mind erasing everything in my brain

I lose my balance

and once I find you I'm shattered in pain..

Written By Esra Chebli

I can't spit my thoughts on paper

Give me some

Inspirtation



Life..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hZTVfyIsuWA&feature=related
What goes up must come down..
what goes in must come out..
theres an ending to every start
theres a goodbye in every heart
to enter you must exit
within every forever theres a message
for every breath theres a heart beat to send it
for every word theres a thought
lead me to heaven..
but not for every gate there is a lock
for every drop there is a top
not for every sentence there is a dot
to win we have to lose to take the shot
and you don't always make it
for every walk there is a struggle
and you have to accept it learn to face it
move on and battle through it painless
remember..
for every picture there is a frame
for every soul there is a name
for every foot there is a ground
for every ear there is a sound
for every you there is myself
for every me you'll have the doubts
for every promise there is a crown
for everything hidden it'll always be found
for every lie the truth will reveal
for every story there is a theme
in each chapter there is another piece
in the end we're set free..
Beyond the clouds and the highest star
I embrace my wings over this world before it's broken apart
I sink myself into this universe like any other one..

Written By Esra Chebli

"I'm looking over child alerts and spitting what ever has to come out of my system..I'm always trapped in the same position hopin somebody will listen, I'm rushin back to the past constantly waiting for a cure in my blinded vision, who cares, I find the pleasure under my wings into my image, it's never enough..I'm tied simply, in a complicating ribbon, I'm twisted out of place I don't belong here I'm nearly finished it's easy to be hidden in your world as I try to fit in.."

-Esra Chebli..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s529pVviM0c&feature=related

 She's broken trynna pull herself back together..

she told him, without him life could be so much better,

she's was frozen, thought she was frozen forever

she's finally melting, love seems to depend on the weather

He grabbed her shook her until the world kept spinning

he dropped her..let her fall as she slept sitting

thinking of what he does to her as I was singing

as she was finishing..

wrote up poems, and goodbye letters praying hoping god was listening

but he was only there to show her what she was missing

A man will never give up his happiness and hand it over to a woman

as long as he were living

this is true, because she only felt the love in his kissing

she felt it when he was hungry for more living

traditional values, a bride was left lonely

from the one she thought was her one and only

though it's the end, his true colors started showing

now shes broken

and he refuses to feel the sorrow

through his cold blood and flesh of tomorrow

hoping he'd die

with the lie she felt upon his torso

she told me she seen it in his eyes

this was done for us, all the problems in our life

thankful for what she has now that it's goodbye

hand over her promise and the locks that kept them together

gave back to her the most precious treasure

but he was nothin near that in her eyes

she let him go so fast and threw him off her level

regained her happiness until he finally settled

Love isn't a game..

but he played her like how I'm playin with these letters..

he grabbed her, held her tight, told her he'd never let her go
he slapped her, bit her, put her up for a show
he told her he loved her and made sure everybody knows
but what everybody knew thought his treatment was gold
but the shit was invisible she could no longer hold..
onto her own back..walkin against her feet and take it all
everything thing was to much to bare to much to ask for
watched as she fell right through the hole..

Written By Esra Chebli

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Frd5BgV-mzA

The clock is ticking waiting for the moment it'll finally stop,

it's windin up for the next time I try to break the watch..

I'm trippin over it's hands as the numbers stop at the top..

and continue to drop,

numbers one through twelve ready to unlock

when will be my moment to shine..

or Finally die..the exact date and time

I wait..as the seasons go by

it's so funny how time controls our lives

and when we try to control it..

it screws up our minds

what do I do..how can I escape it

how can I retrace it

convince it to take me back and erase shit

when I keep spinnin with it

and my thinking comes outta place
an I'm hidden under it

Just like the sun being trapped by the moon,

blinding the light from seeing you,

now it's only night and I sleep to dream it through..

walking past these frightening shadows that erase these clues

stop this shit please why would you get up and leave me..

your supposed to be here not trap and deceive me

you leave my thoughts crushed and my eyes blinded bleeding,

leave me wondering why when I thought I was healing..

your blocking the path of my life while I kneel here screaming,

begging for you to give it back and quit the stealing

life gets so difficult when time only leaves us breathing

why do you think there is so much cheating?

it's 10:30pm an I'm writin this out..

it's a sickening day

you don't need to hear me out..

a boy isn't what the story's about

time is finally dead nobody needs it around..

Written By Esra Chebli

Hmm..TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT
THIS IS FOR YOU

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UAurWkWOxQE&feature=related

Hes like the mirror I stare at, I can't get to the other side..

with a wonder and a feelin..nobody can realize

like the image that can't get any clearer of what's really inside

hes like the motion of tears that runs down from my eye

hes the reason to all my possibilities when I write

with every breath and every muscle it takes to make me survive

hes the colour..he brings the nutrition in my life

without him I think I'd be damned to see the light..

alone..because I'd rather spend my loneliness with you

while you hold me stiff when these dark nights go blue

watch the sun rise together and sit in the earths shoes,

boats that rock us on top long seas while depth moves

when I battle a war I wanna fight it with you

with all the hastle and the trouble will both go through

and if I dream I want this dream to be true

because your all I dream of you don't even have a clue

seein your face energizes my heart and fits it back in place

you don't understand what I mean when I say nobody can take your place

in those thoughts I can't seem to erase

the words that break down and build up with ur name

boy ur the wonder I can't seem to trace

ur the bundle of tears I hope to drain

ur amazing that no words can phrase

what can I say when a million thoughts of you rushin through my brain

and it's something to hate

when your not next to me

and I sit here dreamin awake while you push me away

in the good times that fade..

when you made me laugh..

when you made me cry

hangin up on my face..

during the middle of the night,

can I try to get this right

let me say..your not movin on with your life..

unless I'm with you

because your my life

and nobody can take that away from me..

Written By Esra Chebli

I can't explain how much I like you and everyone can see it,

the only person who never knew was you..or should I say

never believed it..

I want to understand you and know you more..

Puzzle the pieces..

but you wont give me the chance

you just tell me to leave it..
The sound that kept me lyin awake was the voice that told me it'll be just fine..
they said there were a whole pot of fish, there's nothin really your leavin behind
so I told'em it was you I will never find..
I said to them he's different there's somethin in his eyes..
but they told me..
shit girl you must be blind..
they always ask me why,
why is it that I like him so much when he's so precise..
I tell'em bitch get out the way an I dare you to say that twice..
she then said girl take my advice..
don't be runnin back to me sayin I'm right..

ESRA CHEBLI

Writers Block

I Have one thing to say,

It's not easy to get through..

but it's worth the while

So don't wait

Check up on me

Because this son of a bitch disappeared from the palms of my hands

just as I locked my fingers in..

ESRA CHEBLI 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DBZrlI5P7Fg
Hate is a gift from love

and love is a gift from time

we find love from hate

but yet we hate to love

and yet use it to survive

but sometimes we forget what true love is really like

so we begin to hate

we begin to lie

Love becomes hidden between the lines..
Love and Hate
it's the motions of life.

Esra Chebli

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cnEmSVbFSo0&feature=related

Down a valley of hope,

up hills and down roads,

I search for clues,

around souls

I search for you

and your hands to hold..

I found time and it told me to wait

I continued to fall..

at a faster pace

the sounds guide my faith

right into a better happier place

falling straight into your arms

but you arrived to late

crushed to the ground

a hurricane blew me away

farthest from you

brought night into the day

I can't see you

my voice is gone from the words I put to waste..

Written By Esra Chebli

You
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xZDNJe2Obtw

Focusing on just you I can write a script
thinking of you almost everyday I'm on a trip
as I open my eyes hopin that star can grant my one and only wish
put a stop to these tears my heart is at a risk
the transfusion of love passes along leaving me sick
your the disease, and I gotta put up with all this shit
you have me weak in the strength I was so rich
you shattered me into pieces now I'm so hard to fix
with magical themes of us and the perfect prince
I don't want you, put a stop to that kiss before my eyes begin to drip
with access to my heart my weakest point is this
taking advantage of that I'm now so ripped
when I thought you picked me up but pushed me before I tripped
when I seen it coming surprises you seem to give
crushing my dreams of us, blowing a candle I thought was lit
with you on the other side of the wall we built between us
you left me with a print
a wall so weak broken down with my fist
now I see who you really are and I can't figure out who it is
everything you told me it's all flipped
moving forward with us was the mistake now I'm hit
with regret on my back and a heart chipped
breathless you left me to be, staring at the illusion in your lips
trynna find love but you always seem to get picked
trynna forget you, but forgetting is on a bit
with a memory of words thinking of it when I sit
questions if you love me and if you ever will
the passion in my writing I'm hurt through the words I spit
being tossed around it's like I'm down before I get kicked..

Written By Esra Chebli

...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6LtUQ4MIWQg&feature=related

New people and new things..though I only worry about the words you have to bring, that puts a stop to almost everything, pause what ever I'm doin and turn back and fall into that open wing, but you close a sentence off..now it's feelin almost like spring, I don't wanna grow off into somethin new..it feels like closing links, your my closest connection and I think..think time can't even push you away from a thought so powerful..the thoughts of you I drink..as the showers fall from those tears that sink..into my skin leavin eyes so pink, I can wash away tears but I can't stop them from fallin, just like I can't stop my voice from callin..out for you because nothin can stop this ink..I'll keep writing until this message comes across and until then I'd never blink..this is the last time, it's what's between these words that sing..you don't need'a hear my voice I don't want your ears to ring..out of pain from the lies you avoid through your thoughts they shrink, I'm sorry for a feelin I trapped into you..It's not strong enough that's why it's fading into clues, wonders of what's on the other side of your own heart, that your thoughts seem to divide multiple answers walkin in different shoes,
apologies over and over, don't take'em anymore and that includes..you don't have to take these words, but I'm going to force them into you, and I can promise you one thing..I'm the flower that will bloom, over your sunshine and under your showers that elude, I'll never dry off into the ground I'll always salute..look up to you, pulled me out of the concrete something I thought was impossible to do, and now I'm askin for your help as you drain into me and please don't refuse..I'll come up with a rather..better excuse, what's a black and white world I don't mean to make you feel dilute, but I'll keep talkin and talkin even if you don't understand what's bein reviewed..take it into consideration that I miss you..and when I let go of my own soul that's when I'll lose a thought of you..now realize it's your feelings I exclude, I want you here luyin next to me, I want you to see the best and worst in me, I want you to go on without me, but take my heart with you so your doubt free in this world that surrounds me..

Written By Esra Chebli

Alone Again
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rByqEapvvxE&feature=related

The lies that hide behind the truth, search of causes of a bribe I lose..in time I cry for the lies that sooth, into my mouth, beneath my teeth crushed and chewed...rushed and moved, transferred through, risking the love that blew in the times that flew..by, like why so soon? is it you..or my soul tryin to figure out what's above this roof..second guessing isn't somethin to blame in somethin new, don't say love because love is awfully cruel,before it's said..it's often the feeling that comes missin you, runnin back to somebody who says they believin you, I'm trynna give a reason in order to repair these broken pieces that prove..hidden facts of the lies that's true,in disguise of why and who, a sigh like a resting note in a prelude..time is gone, and a new minute is ahead.. it's to late to go back and redo, say those words left unsaid, save those days we meant to spend I've meant to spend with you..next to you..with nothing but the rest of you..left to dream alone with the future that gloom's..missin a touch..a smile that rushes smooth....(hook), I'm alone again and those reasons doubt with my actions, I fell over you takin onto my passions..but losing never told me it was under my satisfactions..this whole thing was like under estimating fractions...transpirating lashes that fall with gravity..evaporating time crashing into tragedy...movin through my ears and into my mind rapidly..correlating massively, pushing me off a cliff and into a trampoline(the ups and downs in life) trynna catch onto what's around me, settin lines in uncertain boundaries..and it's just how we...left what's behind and kept lonely for ahead proudly..I'm just trynna say what was left in these unspoken words..before I'm lonely again, though strong enough to face this hurt,losing a friend is what makes it worse..double the pain of bein well off as a lonely girl..(hook)

Written By Esra Chebli

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fzBPrHa96rk&feature=related

with windows wide open I let the rain rush through,with the clouds crying and radio playin an awful tune,thinkin of you an what got between us two..patiently waiting now this flower will never bloom,with all this rain and no sunshine..its the happiness between us boo,with nothin more I can do I cry from a heart so bruised,come rescue me before this great big boom..don't let the rain wash me away in sudden fumes,hug me like we used to lock our fingers in place and fuse, because of you a heart beat booms please don't set so soon..

Written By Esra Chebli

I Dedicate this to you

FASGSMZOMNTFAKRHRJNSAGMRG
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CniP1swmABI&feature=related

hold on to me don't let me go, wait a coupl'a hours..a coupl'a days, years the most..I'm lost into you trying to find my way out, I saunter around your bones..press against your chest so a heart beat won't..beat another time take me as a ghost, gone so long ago..first with another post, the meaning behind this ain't destined for hope..I stress this the most, I set into your throat as your words speak of me..tryin to give you a choke, lockin secrets in poems, down on heavy smoke, fog my sight and block those open roads..wait until I stand..like you crushed me now I'm a dead rose, I took you as a friend the most, but what's a friend to do..just don't, stop in a position a mistake changes so..I don't lose you because now I'm rockin on a enemies boat...the meaning behind this goes to those..blank,give my eyes a close..I don't know who you are anymore..you used to save those words for me and put your own breath on hold..lie..the stories you told I began to approach throw me down the earths cores..beat me down in the weakest wars, if I said how much it is you mean to me I'm just trynna cope..your words of mystery..let me go..like I'm history,I'm just a show..(words literally),and don't come bond your feelings to me if I fear to see..down the road when my eyes tear in need..and your not there to greed..greed all my tears and talk to me..I hate to dream..thanks for not putting me to sleep..all I think of is you..fourteen, fifteen..twenty-five actually..they just keep drifting...one by one it's practically..sayin love just disappears magically..for eternity, what's happening..you can't set a date for love to officially begin .remember theres an end to everything..I can say, if I was really hurting about you I'll find every way just so I can talk to you..make you stay..if it takes walkin with you..are you worth to prey of? I look up in shame..because later on your always pushing me away..The good people deserve the worst..because they need to learn that people have more then just a face..that's just the world..and it can be to late..because nobody is there to save you from the dirt..in the illusion of pickin you up..they push you farther into the dirt..deny..reject..with no reply..neither respect..lies..neglect...that's just the way it is..I guess we just gotta learn to accept..the world of it's kind..that's what's best, don't keep lookin behind because you never know what comes crashin ahead..

Written By Esra Chebli

The Point of no Return

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pGudqu8UF78

(22sec)
walk through the hastle and the struggles

watch the one sun set while you battle the humbles

diggin holes with deeper tunnels

fallin through it like a well with water that rumbles

Internally bleeding locked in a chain strapped and literally bundled..

your at the point of no time to look back..

at the point where ur cluttered and motions are physically trapped

like wonders..weaknesses built in the past

don't look back be ready to fall through one open crack and watch the pain begin to contract..

with my feet tied together and my hands cuffed and strapped

watch my words spit, and have your soul cut in half

dress warm because my worlds to cold so just try'an adapt

no time to relax get the feelin of bein in that.

watch my hands slip right through my pockets

with no one to hold and my words blastin like rockets

I gotta say my chest is empty for keys and lockets

so be ready or you might as well feel free and just drop it

no time to be modest..just get the world to see

who cares about bein honest because nobody will ever believe

just retrieve..retrieve these words act as if they were never seen

hide'em in a book of lines the hit horizontally

I hold life to a threat in order to survive

I leave time to depth to purify you never know when the sky comes fallin as soons as you begin to rise

so think about it remember you bein advised

is their such'a thing as a hole in the center

well a heart beat doesn't role forever it fits all together like puzzle pieces or maze to enter

life is confusing..lets you go so easily like a wing letting go of a feather

As the sun takes a stand and rises above this earth,

my hands lift up, set together leavin my eyes to burn,

down on my knees hopin for hope in return

with desperate dreams hopin to reach at it first

watch my hands slip right through my pockets

with no one to hold and my words blastin like rockets

I gotta say my chest is empty for keys and lockets

so be ready or you might as well feel free and just drop it

no time to be modest..just get the world to see

who cares about bein honest because nobody will ever believe

just retrieve..retrieve these words act as if they were never seen

hide'em in a book of lines the hit horizontally

it's like broken arms trying to reach out from the dirt

it's like holding on to time rounding up to hurt

in wounds..and scars drowning in the air that purs

in the strands of hair that fall from a crown of words

falling down..falling at the edge of the world

rolling off rocky mountains as pages flip in a journal

emotions get deep, this is the words speaking on behalf of the internals

no lookin back..at the point of no return..a cluttered brain being hacked

down distance apart holding onto all of what's left in pride

with nothing left in a world so wide

anger strengthens in the depth of time as these precious eyes begin to cry

turn away with only a sigh..

Written By Esra Chebli

Fall for your Type

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r6ISOCundVM

(verse 1) 14sec-55sec

Love ain't somethin you can control..and nothin you can define

Into the simplest ways..into the simplest lies

drops a heart beat..strengthens like a base line

at the same time..I'm bustin out the same rhymes for the same kind

his face..somethin like traced eyes

phrased in my mind I'm goin for the same type

I phased twice..nothin can even take over this hate in the insides

I sware I can't get through to you..my days, I love the way you make mine

with only you just rollin through my mind..

it's only you that gets me through the hours in the amount of time

with the doubts and the founds of what hides

tell me what it's about, what these sounds guide..

(drake&Jamie fox)chorus 55sec-1:38

I swear I always fall for your type, yeah (for your type)

tell me why I always fall for your type (for your type)

I just can’t explain this sh-t at all (fall for your type)

I just can’t explain this sh-t at all (fall for your type)

(I believe in people like you)

(verse 2)1:38-2:05

they say take the time to chill and relax

but with you it's nearly impossible to do that

with my mind rollin clips of you and heart beatin so fast

you bring the energy in my life, an just to be exact

words on a line don't need'a state the facts

one of a kind ain't somethin you could just pass

you leave me breathless with no air I can catch at

restless on dreams I hope to reach at least a grasp

I hate to say goodbye..anyway I forgot when I said hello last

(drake&Jamie fox)chorus 2:05-2:33

I swear I always fall for your type, yeah (for your type)

tell me why I always fall for your type (for your type)

I just can’t explain this sh-t at all (fall for your type)

I just can’t explain this sh-t at all (fall for your type)

(verse 3)2:35-3:29

we always end our conversations the same way

without a kiss and with no hug and another mistake

I tend to talk and forget what I was going to say

you say its my grammar but it's really because of your face

with all that scattered shit goin on in my brain

sorry to act like an idiot..but I know you can relate

what we are..you can't be replaced

that's what makes us..the perfect mates

don't be thinkin the things I tell you is plain fake

my eyes seem to bond on people like you it's always the same

and if you ain't feelin me with this one..I'll just go ahead and back space

rephrase..copy and paste somethin you'd feel more..and maybe taste

your like a soldier I solute to you..all you have to do is wait

they say take the time to chill and relax

but to me that's simply pain..this love fell from above like this sprinkling rain

and if this sprinkling rain has us hidin under umbrellas..I'll make the space

I'll warm you up until the sun comes to waste.

(drake&Jamie fox)chorus 3:29-4:13

I swear I always fall for your type, yeah (for your type)

tell me why I always fall for your type (for your type)

I just can’t explain this sh-t at all (fall for your type)

I just can’t explain this sh-t at all (fall for your type)

(I believe in people like you)

Written By Esra Chebli

(chorus-drake&Jamie fox not written by me)

Here I am about to spit another line..

another verse to converse on the shit that's inside

givin all I got to serve but all I got to provide,

hang in there for a while, let the bol-shit slide..

only for now cuz I promise you'll see a smile..

all it takes is openin your eyes and walkin another mile,

pain is hurtless after a while like the burns after a fire..

Written By Esra Chebli

The way it was
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=88-vZ9vaRgg&feature=related



We used to lock our secrets and turn the page

we used to drop the seasons and go by the date..

 and walk on the peices and find a new way..

you used to stop the rain when it began to pour,

you used to save the words for me and put your own breath on hold

we used to talk and now it's like I don't know you anymore

we would walk the battle together and win the war..

It used to be only the year that proved us apart
it used to be the guys that broke each others hearts
behind each other I thought we'd always march
but your off the road with a brand new start


it used to be the love I would embrace
not the tears that slide down my face
it used to be you I would cry of not the words you say


It used to be your arms that I would fall into
now your to far away
it's now your soul I try to break through
using distance to stay..

we used to hold hands out of love not hate
we used to draw and erase the simplest mistakes



Now it's like I lay alone and tell myself this is the last time
now it's like I lay alone hopin you'd at least apologize
Hopefully you stick to those words that I couldn't seem to fight
and stick to my side until the day I die

You know my every breath
my every move
even what I think of without sharin my thoughts to you

you knew exactly what I kept
and why I fought to
you felt the anger and the exact things I was going through
said you'll be here and walked in the same shoes..


As soons as I shut my eyes there you were running from me
here I am playing hide an seek..
guess who..and guess why
I can't reach..

quit playing games and talk to me
throw those shoes off and walk on me
stomp your feet stop speaking to me anonymously..

Written By Esra Chebli

What it is
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nhwwQ86OEG0
So unexpected..this life I reflected onto these lines that had me pretendin..through time that recked it in these emotions I hoped to strengthen, away from true love that had me destined..

closer to distance away from the nearest connections..

trynna find clearer words in a caption though so little is present
it can't be messin..
messin with my head because lookin into your eyes is like starin into heaven
dreamin about you never fell into something so pleasant
a nightmare is near impossible
to me your way to precious
I'd never scare you away or push you at the farthest where depth ends
I'll keep you close even if the connections dead
because I'll still be thinkin of you as my brain sends signals while my head spins
your right there in my heart though you leave me breathless
I'll wait for you..I don't care if the world is put to an end
you can leave me pendin..
because I'll pend as longs as it takes until you get off my mind
and leave me to rest a bit..
but that's all I wanna do
you don't know it when I simply send a kiss..
I already begin to miss you once I hang up and wish..
wish you only knew..
that you are my everything and it's..
it's just so ridiculous,
I can just speak more of you as I continue this..
your just so reckless
I can't throw you away your like jewels in a necklace
whatever I said I always meant it..
this love is huge..it's tremendous,
I can even see it in my reflection
my eyes call out for you..your words sink into me like an injection
your taking over me like an infection
but fill my system up with all this affection
I'm feelin it so much with you..and theres nowhere I'd be able to get it..


Written By Esra Chebli