Umm..Love fails on people BUT itself

Love is selfish

Love is cruel

Love is..Stupid!

Love is nothing but useless..

so why do we use it?

For Pleasure

For Pain

Love fails in every game

oh..that's the antagonist in this story

ahhh "it will never be the same.."

forgot to mention "it's way to late"

Love have you ever told anyone your wife was Hate?

you control life you drive me insane

who the hell are you anyway?

your planted in my bones what do you hold me against

you make me afraid

but why should I fear you..

you haunt me with your trace

fuck you memories

since when do I beg for a bitch to stay?

but I'm the bitch here wait!

you got me hooked on your drugs

you take me away

you lift me up and say

this is a much healthier way you find this shit in cocaine

your the demon tellin me it's gonna be okay

manipulate me and block my own face

bring that rush through my veins

controlling my mind erasing everything in my brain

I lose my balance

and once I find you I'm shattered in pain..

Written By Esra Chebli

I can't spit my thoughts on paper

Give me some

Inspirtation



Life..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hZTVfyIsuWA&feature=related
What goes up must come down..
what goes in must come out..
theres an ending to every start
theres a goodbye in every heart
to enter you must exit
within every forever theres a message
for every breath theres a heart beat to send it
for every word theres a thought
lead me to heaven..
but not for every gate there is a lock
for every drop there is a top
not for every sentence there is a dot
to win we have to lose to take the shot
and you don't always make it
for every walk there is a struggle
and you have to accept it learn to face it
move on and battle through it painless
remember..
for every picture there is a frame
for every soul there is a name
for every foot there is a ground
for every ear there is a sound
for every you there is myself
for every me you'll have the doubts
for every promise there is a crown
for everything hidden it'll always be found
for every lie the truth will reveal
for every story there is a theme
in each chapter there is another piece
in the end we're set free..
Beyond the clouds and the highest star
I embrace my wings over this world before it's broken apart
I sink myself into this universe like any other one..

Written By Esra Chebli

"I'm looking over child alerts and spitting what ever has to come out of my system..I'm always trapped in the same position hopin somebody will listen, I'm rushin back to the past constantly waiting for a cure in my blinded vision, who cares, I find the pleasure under my wings into my image, it's never enough..I'm tied simply, in a complicating ribbon, I'm twisted out of place I don't belong here I'm nearly finished it's easy to be hidden in your world as I try to fit in.."

-Esra Chebli..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s529pVviM0c&feature=related

 She's broken trynna pull herself back together..

she told him, without him life could be so much better,

she's was frozen, thought she was frozen forever

she's finally melting, love seems to depend on the weather

He grabbed her shook her until the world kept spinning

he dropped her..let her fall as she slept sitting

thinking of what he does to her as I was singing

as she was finishing..

wrote up poems, and goodbye letters praying hoping god was listening

but he was only there to show her what she was missing

A man will never give up his happiness and hand it over to a woman

as long as he were living

this is true, because she only felt the love in his kissing

she felt it when he was hungry for more living

traditional values, a bride was left lonely

from the one she thought was her one and only

though it's the end, his true colors started showing

now shes broken

and he refuses to feel the sorrow

through his cold blood and flesh of tomorrow

hoping he'd die

with the lie she felt upon his torso

she told me she seen it in his eyes

this was done for us, all the problems in our life

thankful for what she has now that it's goodbye

hand over her promise and the locks that kept them together

gave back to her the most precious treasure

but he was nothin near that in her eyes

she let him go so fast and threw him off her level

regained her happiness until he finally settled

Love isn't a game..

but he played her like how I'm playin with these letters..

he grabbed her, held her tight, told her he'd never let her go
he slapped her, bit her, put her up for a show
he told her he loved her and made sure everybody knows
but what everybody knew thought his treatment was gold
but the shit was invisible she could no longer hold..
onto her own back..walkin against her feet and take it all
everything thing was to much to bare to much to ask for
watched as she fell right through the hole..

Written By Esra Chebli

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Frd5BgV-mzA

The clock is ticking waiting for the moment it'll finally stop,

it's windin up for the next time I try to break the watch..

I'm trippin over it's hands as the numbers stop at the top..

and continue to drop,

numbers one through twelve ready to unlock

when will be my moment to shine..

or Finally die..the exact date and time

I wait..as the seasons go by

it's so funny how time controls our lives

and when we try to control it..

it screws up our minds

what do I do..how can I escape it

how can I retrace it

convince it to take me back and erase shit

when I keep spinnin with it

and my thinking comes outta place
an I'm hidden under it

Just like the sun being trapped by the moon,

blinding the light from seeing you,

now it's only night and I sleep to dream it through..

walking past these frightening shadows that erase these clues

stop this shit please why would you get up and leave me..

your supposed to be here not trap and deceive me

you leave my thoughts crushed and my eyes blinded bleeding,

leave me wondering why when I thought I was healing..

your blocking the path of my life while I kneel here screaming,

begging for you to give it back and quit the stealing

life gets so difficult when time only leaves us breathing

why do you think there is so much cheating?

it's 10:30pm an I'm writin this out..

it's a sickening day

you don't need to hear me out..

a boy isn't what the story's about

time is finally dead nobody needs it around..

Written By Esra Chebli

Hmm..TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT
THIS IS FOR YOU

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UAurWkWOxQE&feature=related

Hes like the mirror I stare at, I can't get to the other side..

with a wonder and a feelin..nobody can realize

like the image that can't get any clearer of what's really inside

hes like the motion of tears that runs down from my eye

hes the reason to all my possibilities when I write

with every breath and every muscle it takes to make me survive

hes the colour..he brings the nutrition in my life

without him I think I'd be damned to see the light..

alone..because I'd rather spend my loneliness with you

while you hold me stiff when these dark nights go blue

watch the sun rise together and sit in the earths shoes,

boats that rock us on top long seas while depth moves

when I battle a war I wanna fight it with you

with all the hastle and the trouble will both go through

and if I dream I want this dream to be true

because your all I dream of you don't even have a clue

seein your face energizes my heart and fits it back in place

you don't understand what I mean when I say nobody can take your place

in those thoughts I can't seem to erase

the words that break down and build up with ur name

boy ur the wonder I can't seem to trace

ur the bundle of tears I hope to drain

ur amazing that no words can phrase

what can I say when a million thoughts of you rushin through my brain

and it's something to hate

when your not next to me

and I sit here dreamin awake while you push me away

in the good times that fade..

when you made me laugh..

when you made me cry

hangin up on my face..

during the middle of the night,

can I try to get this right

let me say..your not movin on with your life..

unless I'm with you

because your my life

and nobody can take that away from me..

Written By Esra Chebli

I can't explain how much I like you and everyone can see it,

the only person who never knew was you..or should I say

never believed it..

I want to understand you and know you more..

Puzzle the pieces..

but you wont give me the chance

you just tell me to leave it..
The sound that kept me lyin awake was the voice that told me it'll be just fine..
they said there were a whole pot of fish, there's nothin really your leavin behind
so I told'em it was you I will never find..
I said to them he's different there's somethin in his eyes..
but they told me..
shit girl you must be blind..
they always ask me why,
why is it that I like him so much when he's so precise..
I tell'em bitch get out the way an I dare you to say that twice..
she then said girl take my advice..
don't be runnin back to me sayin I'm right..

ESRA CHEBLI

Writers Block

I Have one thing to say,

It's not easy to get through..

but it's worth the while

So don't wait

Check up on me

Because this son of a bitch disappeared from the palms of my hands

just as I locked my fingers in..

ESRA CHEBLI 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DBZrlI5P7Fg
Hate is a gift from love

and love is a gift from time

we find love from hate

but yet we hate to love

and yet use it to survive

but sometimes we forget what true love is really like

so we begin to hate

we begin to lie

Love becomes hidden between the lines..
Love and Hate
it's the motions of life.

Esra Chebli

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cnEmSVbFSo0&feature=related

Down a valley of hope,

up hills and down roads,

I search for clues,

around souls

I search for you

and your hands to hold..

I found time and it told me to wait

I continued to fall..

at a faster pace

the sounds guide my faith

right into a better happier place

falling straight into your arms

but you arrived to late

crushed to the ground

a hurricane blew me away

farthest from you

brought night into the day

I can't see you

my voice is gone from the words I put to waste..

Written By Esra Chebli

You
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xZDNJe2Obtw

Focusing on just you I can write a script
thinking of you almost everyday I'm on a trip
as I open my eyes hopin that star can grant my one and only wish
put a stop to these tears my heart is at a risk
the transfusion of love passes along leaving me sick
your the disease, and I gotta put up with all this shit
you have me weak in the strength I was so rich
you shattered me into pieces now I'm so hard to fix
with magical themes of us and the perfect prince
I don't want you, put a stop to that kiss before my eyes begin to drip
with access to my heart my weakest point is this
taking advantage of that I'm now so ripped
when I thought you picked me up but pushed me before I tripped
when I seen it coming surprises you seem to give
crushing my dreams of us, blowing a candle I thought was lit
with you on the other side of the wall we built between us
you left me with a print
a wall so weak broken down with my fist
now I see who you really are and I can't figure out who it is
everything you told me it's all flipped
moving forward with us was the mistake now I'm hit
with regret on my back and a heart chipped
breathless you left me to be, staring at the illusion in your lips
trynna find love but you always seem to get picked
trynna forget you, but forgetting is on a bit
with a memory of words thinking of it when I sit
questions if you love me and if you ever will
the passion in my writing I'm hurt through the words I spit
being tossed around it's like I'm down before I get kicked..

Written By Esra Chebli

...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6LtUQ4MIWQg&feature=related

New people and new things..though I only worry about the words you have to bring, that puts a stop to almost everything, pause what ever I'm doin and turn back and fall into that open wing, but you close a sentence off..now it's feelin almost like spring, I don't wanna grow off into somethin new..it feels like closing links, your my closest connection and I think..think time can't even push you away from a thought so powerful..the thoughts of you I drink..as the showers fall from those tears that sink..into my skin leavin eyes so pink, I can wash away tears but I can't stop them from fallin, just like I can't stop my voice from callin..out for you because nothin can stop this ink..I'll keep writing until this message comes across and until then I'd never blink..this is the last time, it's what's between these words that sing..you don't need'a hear my voice I don't want your ears to ring..out of pain from the lies you avoid through your thoughts they shrink, I'm sorry for a feelin I trapped into you..It's not strong enough that's why it's fading into clues, wonders of what's on the other side of your own heart, that your thoughts seem to divide multiple answers walkin in different shoes,
apologies over and over, don't take'em anymore and that includes..you don't have to take these words, but I'm going to force them into you, and I can promise you one thing..I'm the flower that will bloom, over your sunshine and under your showers that elude, I'll never dry off into the ground I'll always salute..look up to you, pulled me out of the concrete something I thought was impossible to do, and now I'm askin for your help as you drain into me and please don't refuse..I'll come up with a rather..better excuse, what's a black and white world I don't mean to make you feel dilute, but I'll keep talkin and talkin even if you don't understand what's bein reviewed..take it into consideration that I miss you..and when I let go of my own soul that's when I'll lose a thought of you..now realize it's your feelings I exclude, I want you here luyin next to me, I want you to see the best and worst in me, I want you to go on without me, but take my heart with you so your doubt free in this world that surrounds me..

Written By Esra Chebli

Alone Again
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rByqEapvvxE&feature=related

The lies that hide behind the truth, search of causes of a bribe I lose..in time I cry for the lies that sooth, into my mouth, beneath my teeth crushed and chewed...rushed and moved, transferred through, risking the love that blew in the times that flew..by, like why so soon? is it you..or my soul tryin to figure out what's above this roof..second guessing isn't somethin to blame in somethin new, don't say love because love is awfully cruel,before it's said..it's often the feeling that comes missin you, runnin back to somebody who says they believin you, I'm trynna give a reason in order to repair these broken pieces that prove..hidden facts of the lies that's true,in disguise of why and who, a sigh like a resting note in a prelude..time is gone, and a new minute is ahead.. it's to late to go back and redo, say those words left unsaid, save those days we meant to spend I've meant to spend with you..next to you..with nothing but the rest of you..left to dream alone with the future that gloom's..missin a touch..a smile that rushes smooth....(hook), I'm alone again and those reasons doubt with my actions, I fell over you takin onto my passions..but losing never told me it was under my satisfactions..this whole thing was like under estimating fractions...transpirating lashes that fall with gravity..evaporating time crashing into tragedy...movin through my ears and into my mind rapidly..correlating massively, pushing me off a cliff and into a trampoline(the ups and downs in life) trynna catch onto what's around me, settin lines in uncertain boundaries..and it's just how we...left what's behind and kept lonely for ahead proudly..I'm just trynna say what was left in these unspoken words..before I'm lonely again, though strong enough to face this hurt,losing a friend is what makes it worse..double the pain of bein well off as a lonely girl..(hook)

Written By Esra Chebli

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fzBPrHa96rk&feature=related

with windows wide open I let the rain rush through,with the clouds crying and radio playin an awful tune,thinkin of you an what got between us two..patiently waiting now this flower will never bloom,with all this rain and no sunshine..its the happiness between us boo,with nothin more I can do I cry from a heart so bruised,come rescue me before this great big boom..don't let the rain wash me away in sudden fumes,hug me like we used to lock our fingers in place and fuse, because of you a heart beat booms please don't set so soon..

Written By Esra Chebli

I Dedicate this to you

FASGSMZOMNTFAKRHRJNSAGMRG
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CniP1swmABI&feature=related

hold on to me don't let me go, wait a coupl'a hours..a coupl'a days, years the most..I'm lost into you trying to find my way out, I saunter around your bones..press against your chest so a heart beat won't..beat another time take me as a ghost, gone so long ago..first with another post, the meaning behind this ain't destined for hope..I stress this the most, I set into your throat as your words speak of me..tryin to give you a choke, lockin secrets in poems, down on heavy smoke, fog my sight and block those open roads..wait until I stand..like you crushed me now I'm a dead rose, I took you as a friend the most, but what's a friend to do..just don't, stop in a position a mistake changes so..I don't lose you because now I'm rockin on a enemies boat...the meaning behind this goes to those..blank,give my eyes a close..I don't know who you are anymore..you used to save those words for me and put your own breath on hold..lie..the stories you told I began to approach throw me down the earths cores..beat me down in the weakest wars, if I said how much it is you mean to me I'm just trynna cope..your words of mystery..let me go..like I'm history,I'm just a show..(words literally),and don't come bond your feelings to me if I fear to see..down the road when my eyes tear in need..and your not there to greed..greed all my tears and talk to me..I hate to dream..thanks for not putting me to sleep..all I think of is you..fourteen, fifteen..twenty-five actually..they just keep drifting...one by one it's practically..sayin love just disappears magically..for eternity, what's happening..you can't set a date for love to officially begin .remember theres an end to everything..I can say, if I was really hurting about you I'll find every way just so I can talk to you..make you stay..if it takes walkin with you..are you worth to prey of? I look up in shame..because later on your always pushing me away..The good people deserve the worst..because they need to learn that people have more then just a face..that's just the world..and it can be to late..because nobody is there to save you from the dirt..in the illusion of pickin you up..they push you farther into the dirt..deny..reject..with no reply..neither respect..lies..neglect...that's just the way it is..I guess we just gotta learn to accept..the world of it's kind..that's what's best, don't keep lookin behind because you never know what comes crashin ahead..

Written By Esra Chebli

The Point of no Return

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pGudqu8UF78

(22sec)
walk through the hastle and the struggles

watch the one sun set while you battle the humbles

diggin holes with deeper tunnels

fallin through it like a well with water that rumbles

Internally bleeding locked in a chain strapped and literally bundled..

your at the point of no time to look back..

at the point where ur cluttered and motions are physically trapped

like wonders..weaknesses built in the past

don't look back be ready to fall through one open crack and watch the pain begin to contract..

with my feet tied together and my hands cuffed and strapped

watch my words spit, and have your soul cut in half

dress warm because my worlds to cold so just try'an adapt

no time to relax get the feelin of bein in that.

watch my hands slip right through my pockets

with no one to hold and my words blastin like rockets

I gotta say my chest is empty for keys and lockets

so be ready or you might as well feel free and just drop it

no time to be modest..just get the world to see

who cares about bein honest because nobody will ever believe

just retrieve..retrieve these words act as if they were never seen

hide'em in a book of lines the hit horizontally

I hold life to a threat in order to survive

I leave time to depth to purify you never know when the sky comes fallin as soons as you begin to rise

so think about it remember you bein advised

is their such'a thing as a hole in the center

well a heart beat doesn't role forever it fits all together like puzzle pieces or maze to enter

life is confusing..lets you go so easily like a wing letting go of a feather

As the sun takes a stand and rises above this earth,

my hands lift up, set together leavin my eyes to burn,

down on my knees hopin for hope in return

with desperate dreams hopin to reach at it first

watch my hands slip right through my pockets

with no one to hold and my words blastin like rockets

I gotta say my chest is empty for keys and lockets

so be ready or you might as well feel free and just drop it

no time to be modest..just get the world to see

who cares about bein honest because nobody will ever believe

just retrieve..retrieve these words act as if they were never seen

hide'em in a book of lines the hit horizontally

it's like broken arms trying to reach out from the dirt

it's like holding on to time rounding up to hurt

in wounds..and scars drowning in the air that purs

in the strands of hair that fall from a crown of words

falling down..falling at the edge of the world

rolling off rocky mountains as pages flip in a journal

emotions get deep, this is the words speaking on behalf of the internals

no lookin back..at the point of no return..a cluttered brain being hacked

down distance apart holding onto all of what's left in pride

with nothing left in a world so wide

anger strengthens in the depth of time as these precious eyes begin to cry

turn away with only a sigh..

Written By Esra Chebli

Fall for your Type

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r6ISOCundVM

(verse 1) 14sec-55sec

Love ain't somethin you can control..and nothin you can define

Into the simplest ways..into the simplest lies

drops a heart beat..strengthens like a base line

at the same time..I'm bustin out the same rhymes for the same kind

his face..somethin like traced eyes

phrased in my mind I'm goin for the same type

I phased twice..nothin can even take over this hate in the insides

I sware I can't get through to you..my days, I love the way you make mine

with only you just rollin through my mind..

it's only you that gets me through the hours in the amount of time

with the doubts and the founds of what hides

tell me what it's about, what these sounds guide..

(drake&Jamie fox)chorus 55sec-1:38

I swear I always fall for your type, yeah (for your type)

tell me why I always fall for your type (for your type)

I just can’t explain this sh-t at all (fall for your type)

I just can’t explain this sh-t at all (fall for your type)

(I believe in people like you)

(verse 2)1:38-2:05

they say take the time to chill and relax

but with you it's nearly impossible to do that

with my mind rollin clips of you and heart beatin so fast

you bring the energy in my life, an just to be exact

words on a line don't need'a state the facts

one of a kind ain't somethin you could just pass

you leave me breathless with no air I can catch at

restless on dreams I hope to reach at least a grasp

I hate to say goodbye..anyway I forgot when I said hello last

(drake&Jamie fox)chorus 2:05-2:33

I swear I always fall for your type, yeah (for your type)

tell me why I always fall for your type (for your type)

I just can’t explain this sh-t at all (fall for your type)

I just can’t explain this sh-t at all (fall for your type)

(verse 3)2:35-3:29

we always end our conversations the same way

without a kiss and with no hug and another mistake

I tend to talk and forget what I was going to say

you say its my grammar but it's really because of your face

with all that scattered shit goin on in my brain

sorry to act like an idiot..but I know you can relate

what we are..you can't be replaced

that's what makes us..the perfect mates

don't be thinkin the things I tell you is plain fake

my eyes seem to bond on people like you it's always the same

and if you ain't feelin me with this one..I'll just go ahead and back space

rephrase..copy and paste somethin you'd feel more..and maybe taste

your like a soldier I solute to you..all you have to do is wait

they say take the time to chill and relax

but to me that's simply pain..this love fell from above like this sprinkling rain

and if this sprinkling rain has us hidin under umbrellas..I'll make the space

I'll warm you up until the sun comes to waste.

(drake&Jamie fox)chorus 3:29-4:13

I swear I always fall for your type, yeah (for your type)

tell me why I always fall for your type (for your type)

I just can’t explain this sh-t at all (fall for your type)

I just can’t explain this sh-t at all (fall for your type)

(I believe in people like you)

Written By Esra Chebli

(chorus-drake&Jamie fox not written by me)

Here I am about to spit another line..

another verse to converse on the shit that's inside

givin all I got to serve but all I got to provide,

hang in there for a while, let the bol-shit slide..

only for now cuz I promise you'll see a smile..

all it takes is openin your eyes and walkin another mile,

pain is hurtless after a while like the burns after a fire..

Written By Esra Chebli

The way it was
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=88-vZ9vaRgg&feature=related



We used to lock our secrets and turn the page

we used to drop the seasons and go by the date..

 and walk on the peices and find a new way..

you used to stop the rain when it began to pour,

you used to save the words for me and put your own breath on hold

we used to talk and now it's like I don't know you anymore

we would walk the battle together and win the war..

It used to be only the year that proved us apart
it used to be the guys that broke each others hearts
behind each other I thought we'd always march
but your off the road with a brand new start


it used to be the love I would embrace
not the tears that slide down my face
it used to be you I would cry of not the words you say


It used to be your arms that I would fall into
now your to far away
it's now your soul I try to break through
using distance to stay..

we used to hold hands out of love not hate
we used to draw and erase the simplest mistakes



Now it's like I lay alone and tell myself this is the last time
now it's like I lay alone hopin you'd at least apologize
Hopefully you stick to those words that I couldn't seem to fight
and stick to my side until the day I die

You know my every breath
my every move
even what I think of without sharin my thoughts to you

you knew exactly what I kept
and why I fought to
you felt the anger and the exact things I was going through
said you'll be here and walked in the same shoes..


As soons as I shut my eyes there you were running from me
here I am playing hide an seek..
guess who..and guess why
I can't reach..

quit playing games and talk to me
throw those shoes off and walk on me
stomp your feet stop speaking to me anonymously..

Written By Esra Chebli

What it is
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nhwwQ86OEG0
So unexpected..this life I reflected onto these lines that had me pretendin..through time that recked it in these emotions I hoped to strengthen, away from true love that had me destined..

closer to distance away from the nearest connections..

trynna find clearer words in a caption though so little is present
it can't be messin..
messin with my head because lookin into your eyes is like starin into heaven
dreamin about you never fell into something so pleasant
a nightmare is near impossible
to me your way to precious
I'd never scare you away or push you at the farthest where depth ends
I'll keep you close even if the connections dead
because I'll still be thinkin of you as my brain sends signals while my head spins
your right there in my heart though you leave me breathless
I'll wait for you..I don't care if the world is put to an end
you can leave me pendin..
because I'll pend as longs as it takes until you get off my mind
and leave me to rest a bit..
but that's all I wanna do
you don't know it when I simply send a kiss..
I already begin to miss you once I hang up and wish..
wish you only knew..
that you are my everything and it's..
it's just so ridiculous,
I can just speak more of you as I continue this..
your just so reckless
I can't throw you away your like jewels in a necklace
whatever I said I always meant it..
this love is huge..it's tremendous,
I can even see it in my reflection
my eyes call out for you..your words sink into me like an injection
your taking over me like an infection
but fill my system up with all this affection
I'm feelin it so much with you..and theres nowhere I'd be able to get it..


Written By Esra Chebli

Caught By You

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YvRglJwtGIM&feature=channel

If I shut my eyes and dream about you, is that enough?

I just wonder..what will it take to prove just love

if I can't say it in words..or show it in lust

hurt and burn from ashes to dust

something so beautiful falling apart in no scent of luck

If I could say how much it is you mean to me how will you ever trust?

your words follow through to me my hands are cuffed..

locked into yours..I can't keep this on the hush..

you make me smile..you make me laugh better yet when things get rough

wanting to lay next to you..though I lay alone thinking of us

wonderin what it would be like, its usually not this tough

I'm focusing on just you..I'm speechless,

I wish I can put you in the place of the pillow that I hug

and just keep you rapped around me so I know your not on the run

it's only you who push these tears outta my eyes just like starin straight at the sun,

I'm pretty strong..I wish you knew it's not just...

something I can simply push to the side while my heart's on a rush

all I'm thinkin of is you..I feel like I'm smoking a blunt

way outta my mind,

I'm feeling down..you lift me up,

that's why I'd rather spend my time with you because I get that feeling of freedom from being stuck

I hope you can see it..because I like you so much

I see you the best, and I know it gets better I'm not looking at what it was

you deserve the greatest measures, and that perfect one..

I found the perfect you..I'm officially done

your my champion..you won my love..

Written By Esra Chebli

One Meaning
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=arsxJdC9cJE

I got so much to say, from my friends to my knees when I kneel down and prey, so much goin on that I can't focus on one and put it into a phrase, to those who don't look at me the same who wont accept me and just throw me away, I've made mistakes and you can go ahead and hate..cuz I aint, the best there ain't nothin to be ashamed..of cuz I ain't the worst and I know ya'll can relate and put this into a verse, you got your ways and I'm not mad at the world for puttin itself first, there's tears slippin off my eyes and runnin down my face, there's fears that I can go ahead and hide and I guarantee it's somethin you can never trace..
it's somethin I'd rather cry on then showin a smile that's really fake it's worth the while so instead I'll wait, I need my space anyway I got nothin to rush I ain't countin down the dates I got my faith, that's all I need with some water to keep the oxygen circulating in my brain..I believen my self I don't need a couple'a teachers to rate my grades or some friends expecting more to take, I'm full of love and I ain't puttin it to waste that's all I got with loads of trust in the bank..I'm just not, risking it..I'm even dreamin through the days, sleepin through the nights wonderin what it's like in somebody elses place, if you can revise..I truly miss the way we used to play..I wish I knew then what was comin my way so I can at least prepare for this corruption today..violent struggles that trapped me in a cage..with a key to break me away and a map leading me out this maze, I ain't all that good at games..but I play'em well..though theres things I can't erase, I don't forget the ones I've crushed..and those who fade because right then and there I'm in instant pain, I cherish memories and the saying of "it's never to late",I got all these questions I create I know I got no use to make there are those I could never replace and those who I'll love until my dying day..so just encase, you know your part of that hit me up as soons as I get the chance to get a hold of time to waste..you know who you are my friend who seems to betray..

-Written By Esra Chebli

At what point?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nWAyN01r8Zs

Another one, another two

am I really losing you?

fourteen..fifteen

that's quite a few

they just keep drifting away like the moon..

lightened up my world..

now it's just me and who?

a reflection..a shadow why leaving so soon?

can I fix anything up?

are you not amused?

my jokes..my laughter

is my voice outta tune?

are my sentences like trapped in fumes

when that spark only came from you

it was like an electric balance between us two..

why question myself trynna find anything I can do,

to save the both of us when were obviously through

when theres no mistakes I can fix and never redo

or a person to replace I thought you knew..

I can't wait for you is there anything I need to construe?

man all I wish is we'd at least pursue.

pursue our happiness and believe it's true

because I believened you

and saw hope in just goodbye without at view..

bustin this shit up in rhymes trynna get to you

but nobody can hear me I'm fallin in a loop
spinning and spinning

that I can't put a stop to
wishing and giving
lost..
I'm at the point where I'm wishin everything could just stop
and the world could stop turning like that stick around the clock
rollin so fast it's throwin me off the top
quit lookin at the watch it's screwin up my thoughts
wanting to be away from the world and what it's got
this stress and anger got me trippin at the spot
my friends I'm endin at the dot..
tangled up in a knot
what can I say am I makin sense in this font?
hear me out world from those clouds to these rocks
quit throwin me back and fourtth your hurting me as I drop
trynna figure out what this is and what its not
searchin for clues playin detective runnin from the cops
the feeling where my brain's about to pop
it's like no matter what I do I keep gettin mocked
by myself
doin the same thing over and over do I deserve any props?
it's like I'm not accomplishing anything as these words bond..
I can write for so long and still ask myself what it is I'm doin wrong..
but it's so difficult when you cant seem to find the cons..
the motions of moving on
letting go when your really trying to hold on
I've been trying for so long
but things get so hard
come to think of it this walk is goin way to far..

Written By Esra Chebli

To me your a friend..

not an enemy..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FKyNS2y0twI

How come when I need most help

the ones who seem to be farthest are most near..

How come when I look to my side your never there

and when I look around me everybody else is here..

How come it is that every time I fallow your advice

I fall into the arms of someone I never thought cared about me..

it is you my friend..who seems to envy

backstab..hurt..and push me away from enemies

my friend are you afraid that I face the truth?

because I noticed now a days my fashions a little trendy

am I blinded by you my friend?

because I can finally see your being a little to friendly

when I trusted you with my life and now it's so hard catching..

my friend..are you trynna flip my mind around

by giving me a shoulder for me to lean?

my friend..it is you who knows what makes me most weak

it is you who took away what I needed to keep

it is you who told me to never believe..

believe that life can get hard and throw me off my feet

did you say it to shut me up when I was hurt?

you said it's okay don't worry please..

you never made me cry..instead you wiped my tears.

why? the truth is what you were in most fear..

of..
now you say losing me..

my friend how come so many different faces begin to appear
one minute your gone the next minute your yappin through my ears..
you said keep everybody at distant
though I'm glad I chose to keep talkin to my peers..
my friend you mean nothing
your another relationship that comes to an end..
there is not relation with my enemies..
I'm gonna leave you to drain with the past
because I finally found the missing center peice.

Written By Esra Chebli

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xlnzFocfBmc

I don't want to write about you,

but I can't hold it in..

I'm filled with excitement and anger..

all I want is to be with him,

I disguise this secret so well but my blood is rushin thin

I think he can hear my heart beat pound as his voice lingers across my skin

and you wonder what my smile's about my heart's about to spill

all I'm askin is for you is to fill it in,these incomplete spaces hold my chin

just as I say hello I stare wonderin if I could ever be his

because he's not just a boy, to me he's a prince

but I know I'm no princess..though I wish

because I know he'll notice me in beauty's way, not just when I trip

and instead of saying "I love you" give that sentence a flip

call me up and tell me you'll never let go, blow me away like the wind

instead I'm dreamin fallin like off a cliff

and my mind is tellin me this is all a trick

and my heart is tellin me I'm broken give me a fix

it's him you could never be with

it's me you could never see it in

I'm sorry but it's something you gotta cope with

I'm so sick..I'm so sick

I need a lift..I want you to give me that lift

from those arms to those lips

til' that last day he ever gave me a kiss

this moment..where this sentence begins

I've fallin..though hooked on like a pin,

I love you..here I am saying it

I'm on a twist..

please answer this..

will I ever get over you? that's my question now

well I have to find a way some how..

I tried everything..my heart continues to pound

only because of you..and it's only getting loud

I'm hiding beneath these clouds

my angel I'm callin out for you please come down

stop hiding come on out

the past comes rushin back..can you hear the sound

foot steps echo the sound that surrounds

hard to let go..don't want to hurt myself as I drop to the ground

I could just wait and sit around

pay for the pain it's self

fade with a single beats sound

erase an empty page with doubts

lose a thought while being proud

keep lookin up when my head should fall down

wish upon a star that's even hiding behind a cloud

allow everything to be stopped

self control was supposed to be found

I could hold onto time

but time never came sittin against a couch

my mind is rushin I'm runnin out

words can't explain

and I can't tell what the actions about

trust in myself is just not allowed

I assume the exact opposite

from what's behind the shadows that surround...

I choose to stick with you..

"How can I start off this letter..I know this wont make things any better but everything reminds me of you..

why can't we be together...this weather is pretty lonely ironic hey? never knew forever was never, walked half a mile..already gone that's pretty clever while my mind roles the memories..However, I don't enjoy that play back because I miss you.. and it's time you come and get her because things are gettin a little tenser my heart is cut in half right through the center and I can't help but control this temper its to hard I think it's about time I surrender.."

what do you think of this?..I was writing to you

I never finished

because all this confusion began to intrude..

"I try to look for some one to blame..try to turn my words around showin my second face,trapped in the darkness trynna find a way, I can't see where I'm goin I'm blinded from such a drastic change..and I flip pages back,hopin to find my way out this trap,but nothin can replace this pain..I try to let it go but it just ain't the same, trynna fight with my every strength, but my weakness beats me down with the worlds weight..with just one last try before it's to late,didn't they say it was never to late..that was before time was added in the race, now I can't catch my breath I feel insane..trynna walk away..hold onto you..regain my faith, as I keep wanting you.."

-Written By Esra Chebli

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xTkVMYAsdf0&list=PLBA17B4C22EFF5317&index=18&playnext=2
you can say your not alone..

but why do you hesitate to pick up the phone,

wouldn't you rather be at home

because really you just rather get away from your zone,

or maybe from life but I bet there is no escape because its just you and what's inside..

you can't say your not alone,

because what you have nobody will ever know,

I mean either way you keep your emotions on the low..

there's two of you..

a shadow don't try and mock me..

I'm speakin to the unknown..a mystery,

don't try lookin, what for?

historic events or a future response it's on the core..

my life can't beat this world I'm sinkin on shore..

my head drops to the floor,

protect your eyes from the rain when it begins to pour..

until you see signs of the sun..

look to the side your head is sittin next to a gun..

don't rely,

 because better yet he's on the run..

there is no right,

better yet there is no wrong,

it's just so long..

farewell your workin towards the end,

your livin no fairytale

your already in jail waitin for bale,

set yourself free from this misery

follow upon this trail, nobody is with me..

independence is what I chose ..

this life got me thinking

I got such a long way to go

and there's still my broken heart that needs fixing,

I set boundaries with no limits..

these words are sinking

your eyes begin to blur watch as my soul escapes

as I continue printing..

an empty page..
trynna phrase a sentence with the simplest words I can say
please give me the space
I'm trynna figure out what's this I'm beginning to face
I just desperately wait
hoping time will arrive before it's to late
lead me the way, lead me the way
leave me to pray hoping for change
I can't be in this cage
I am so afraid
hold my temper down take me off the stage
I don't wanna show anymore
this smile is fake
I've already walked more then a mile of pain
please leave these eyes to drain
because I'm about to burst
I need to fly away..
I know that I'm alone

Written By Esra Chebli