http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zRHSJIz5NyA
makin me feel like Im worthless leavin me to wonder off alone in this circus these bitches are haitin with no purpose and they just want one purchase puttin me down like its workin its what they need so they keep jerkin but heres somethin new for ya'll to know Im hurtless but not heartless like kanye say..I keep my farthest cuz I know Im there number one target they cant take over my world its the largest so I keep my head above the surface..and imma be doin it for one purpose aint for no person for me only thats why Im lonely..I repeat these very same lines from somethin I wrote before..cuz Im remindin ya'll that theres nothin for ya'll to know playin these games competin whos the pro..dear "joe" messages back and fourth cuz you dont know where to go..but I aint ur guide nomore theres an end to everything trust me it'll show keep sippin yo life like u sippin on dope..dont stop like its an addiction, like the bible and the fuckin pope I stay fuckin close and just to myself Im no fuckin joke like each an every single line I ever wrote but aint the lines u sayin through yo mouth like passin notes shit I aint even heard of word that'll make you choke load'em in ur throat pass'em around like a marry-go-boat larry's hoe show step in the game..on the fuckin stage how bad you wanted to kick me off nomatter how much I prayed..and yes Im true..Im no lie I dont talk outta my ass if I want somethin trust me Ill try Ill get it and show ya'll the way to live ur life slit ur loaded throat with a knife lose ur voice chop ur fingers so you wont be able to type and trust me bitches Im to passionate about my dreams who ever fucks with it I ripp there skin like ripped jeans no longer will you be a dick please Ill rip ur insides like Im rippin sheets leave ya with a little speach get ur ears wide open so this time you'll hear I dont give a fuck about you neither ur peers so believe me for you there will never be a tear yous just worthless mawfuckas..My Worthless years..once a best friend soon a second face appeared kept me far from who I wish I kept near had me turnin on the left gear.how did I let me but now I see ur just a lil crowd of peeps
so right now its the time to say cheers its like thanks giving dinner but had enough meals how much could I eat..I just kept takin and takin and now its time to stop I aint gonna take this shit no longer Imma clear my thoughts..Fuck you no longer do I care no longer will I be there no longer will I allow you to push me off the stairs cuz Im done climbin this is only fair..
Written By Esra Chebli
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Outta My System...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WW4c-3VJNkU
4sec-1:10[ verse 1]
boy just listen..i gotta spit a couple'a words outta my system..here take a moment an think through the lyrics..I kept shit from you.an it clearly showed in my appearance..so take ur tears an smear'em..cuz i aint gon' let u go..imma keep steerin.i can tell by ur actions u dont like the shit ur hearin..i can feel through the shit yo feelin..dats why I needa take dis shit outta my system..dats why I've been tryin to keep my distance..never knew its you imma be missin..now im just dreamin its yo lips that im kissin..shut yo eyes an clip this..us flyin away as to lovin spirits..boy im sorry for interference..let me just clear this..never played.but I know..I know I did you wrong.we both know we were the perfect bond.never showed but now i know we belong..cuz nothins the same..everytime I'm with a man I mistake him with ur name..everythin seems to be so miss placed..and I seem to be missin ur face..never chaced but I'm runnin after you like im racin to first base..now kinda heard ur goin on a date..found urself a new mate,wanted you to stay..man..I cant sleep an its kinda late..its hurtin me babe..need ya back in my days..need ya goodnights..cuz everythin changed when you left my side..our love never died..man i can see it in your eyes..this love aint easy to hide..when you pass me by it aint easy..someone else lovin you its hard seeing..makes me regret the day I told you I'm leavin..you dont know this..cuz I kept all this shit in my system..
1:11-1:35[ chorus] T-PAIN
When I'm with somebody, all I think bout is you
When I'm all alone, that's all I wanna do
I miss the smiling faces in my sidekick,
Outta town visits, all the time we spent together makes it hard
to get you outta my system.
You know what you do to me (do to me)
You don't even understand (damn)
You know what you do to me (do to me)
It's so hard to get you outta my system.
1:36-2:20[ verse 2]
so if I told you I want you back, baby would you believe me like Im sayin a fact..cuz I want you so bad..
ur love is with no other man..if I said I love you would you keep holdin onto my hands..I've oviousley let go..
but I cant take it seein you with her..theres somethin I want you to know..Im bottlin these feelins in my system..and these feelins are killin me, feel like Im locked in prison and its only you that can set me free..
so sick of love songs..hell yeah..cuz all it does is remind me of how you used to hold me in your arms..tell me Im the one..we aint through we aint done..I know Im still in your heart..maybe there was a couple of problems..but there was no need to part..lets bring it back to the start..this is all in my system..
2:20-2:44[chorus] T-PAIN
When I'm with somebody, all I think bout is you
When I'm all alone, that's all I wanna do
I miss the smiling faces in my sidekick,
Outta town visits, all the time we spent together makes it hard
to get you outta my system.
You know what you do to me (do to me)
You don't even understand (damn)
You know what you do to me (do to me)
It's so hard to get you outta my system.
2:45-3:05[ verse 3]
so come..baby ride with me..keep ur hands tied to me..you is what Im trynna to see..us is what I want us to be..just throw her away cuz we both know nothins the same..all of this trapped in my system..its time to release it..my world dont accept you to be extinct..so I had to reveal this..like I told you its clearly showin in my appearance..I cant handle ur disappearance....
3:05-3:21[chorus] TPAIN
When I'm with somebody, all I think bout is you
When I'm all alone, that's all I wanna do
I miss the smiling faces in my sidekick,
Outta town visits, all the time we spent together makes it hard
to get you outta my system.
You know what you do to me (do to me)
You don't even understand (damn)
You know what you do to me (do to me)
It's so hard to get you outta my system.
3:21-3:52[verse 4]
so I hope you feel me through these words..Im crashin from these sharp turns, and yes baby it hurts its like Im on some sorta curse..if I asked you to come back in my world..would you take me as ur girl..I had to spit these outta my system..
Written By Esra Chebli [ chorus is not written by me ]
4sec-1:10[ verse 1]
boy just listen..i gotta spit a couple'a words outta my system..here take a moment an think through the lyrics..I kept shit from you.an it clearly showed in my appearance..so take ur tears an smear'em..cuz i aint gon' let u go..imma keep steerin.i can tell by ur actions u dont like the shit ur hearin..i can feel through the shit yo feelin..dats why I needa take dis shit outta my system..dats why I've been tryin to keep my distance..never knew its you imma be missin..now im just dreamin its yo lips that im kissin..shut yo eyes an clip this..us flyin away as to lovin spirits..boy im sorry for interference..let me just clear this..never played.but I know..I know I did you wrong.we both know we were the perfect bond.never showed but now i know we belong..cuz nothins the same..everytime I'm with a man I mistake him with ur name..everythin seems to be so miss placed..and I seem to be missin ur face..never chaced but I'm runnin after you like im racin to first base..now kinda heard ur goin on a date..found urself a new mate,wanted you to stay..man..I cant sleep an its kinda late..its hurtin me babe..need ya back in my days..need ya goodnights..cuz everythin changed when you left my side..our love never died..man i can see it in your eyes..this love aint easy to hide..when you pass me by it aint easy..someone else lovin you its hard seeing..makes me regret the day I told you I'm leavin..you dont know this..cuz I kept all this shit in my system..
1:11-1:35[ chorus] T-PAIN
When I'm with somebody, all I think bout is you
When I'm all alone, that's all I wanna do
I miss the smiling faces in my sidekick,
Outta town visits, all the time we spent together makes it hard
to get you outta my system.
You know what you do to me (do to me)
You don't even understand (damn)
You know what you do to me (do to me)
It's so hard to get you outta my system.
1:36-2:20[ verse 2]
so if I told you I want you back, baby would you believe me like Im sayin a fact..cuz I want you so bad..
ur love is with no other man..if I said I love you would you keep holdin onto my hands..I've oviousley let go..
but I cant take it seein you with her..theres somethin I want you to know..Im bottlin these feelins in my system..and these feelins are killin me, feel like Im locked in prison and its only you that can set me free..
so sick of love songs..hell yeah..cuz all it does is remind me of how you used to hold me in your arms..tell me Im the one..we aint through we aint done..I know Im still in your heart..maybe there was a couple of problems..but there was no need to part..lets bring it back to the start..this is all in my system..
2:20-2:44[chorus] T-PAIN
When I'm with somebody, all I think bout is you
When I'm all alone, that's all I wanna do
I miss the smiling faces in my sidekick,
Outta town visits, all the time we spent together makes it hard
to get you outta my system.
You know what you do to me (do to me)
You don't even understand (damn)
You know what you do to me (do to me)
It's so hard to get you outta my system.
2:45-3:05[ verse 3]
so come..baby ride with me..keep ur hands tied to me..you is what Im trynna to see..us is what I want us to be..just throw her away cuz we both know nothins the same..all of this trapped in my system..its time to release it..my world dont accept you to be extinct..so I had to reveal this..like I told you its clearly showin in my appearance..I cant handle ur disappearance....
3:05-3:21[chorus] TPAIN
When I'm with somebody, all I think bout is you
When I'm all alone, that's all I wanna do
I miss the smiling faces in my sidekick,
Outta town visits, all the time we spent together makes it hard
to get you outta my system.
You know what you do to me (do to me)
You don't even understand (damn)
You know what you do to me (do to me)
It's so hard to get you outta my system.
3:21-3:52[verse 4]
so I hope you feel me through these words..Im crashin from these sharp turns, and yes baby it hurts its like Im on some sorta curse..if I asked you to come back in my world..would you take me as ur girl..I had to spit these outta my system..
Written By Esra Chebli [ chorus is not written by me ]
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Let Me Hold You..Jorge & Esra
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RcNAaj8SnmY
-let me hold you..its like..its like I sold you..as if you was nothin..im sorry for what I told you..and I wasnt ur shoulder..u were right..right how my days is gonna be colder..and I aint gon' be standin taller..let me hold you..even when the rain comes paurin through..and we dont know what to do..keep my arms..my arms locked around you..with the angels that surround you..its like..Im so glad I found you..now Im wishin I could just hear the sound of you ..baby,baby..I got the crown for you..Im down for you..proud to be urs..its in just everythin u do..ur my all, pick me up everytime I fall..even if I be makin mistakes..u help me stand tall..baby I promise I'll neva make yo heart break..and..and..its neva to late..hold my hand and baby Imma stay..let me hold you..an everythin will be ok..just look at my face..an the smile..babe thats all it takes..
-Written By Esra Chebli
-http://www.youtube.com/user/ChicagosAmz
Forget these clowns, let me be the one to hold you down.Keep your crown cause i fight for your love, Give it to me if you feel like i deserve it after the end of this round.You and i, me and you,Thats two perfect nouns,Repeat it to yourself, see how perfect it sounds but girl, you already know, thats only if you.....if ya.... let me... hold you down....
-Written By Jorge
-babe u dont need'a fight cuz u..cuz u the only one in my life..theres no crown..baby there aint a price.. grab my hands an neva let go..cuz you is wuts inside..imma be urs..and baby u can be mine..Imma hold you down when the time is right..til then imma keep u rapped in ma arms through the nights...dream wit ya..sleep wit ya..neva lie..keep u there lyin next to my side..let..let me hold you
-Written By Esra Chebli
- http://www.youtube.com/user/ChicagosAmz
-Lets try to converse on this big ass device.Baby picture the worst then read the rest of this verse,
please take my advice.if you do, i promise what you read is guna make you think twice.with you im bliss,now picture this,soon we`ll kiss,at your favorite place, ill stair in your eyes babygirl not at your waist..look,what im tryna say is that now you know how much i really care.me and you are like a perfect couple of shoes....a perfect pair.
-Written By Jorge
-babe..i see it..see it in ur eyes..i aint gonna just read..imma read between the lines..no promises..imma think
for wuts right..hold u down be ur guide..then u be mine..nah..not just for valentines..but for everyday..an imma picture u holdin me by my waist..lookin in my eyes..at that place we use to chill an look at the sky..til it was late..looked at the stars through the night..imma hold u down like we supposed to..here let me show you..
-Written By Esra Chebli
-let me hold you..its like..its like I sold you..as if you was nothin..im sorry for what I told you..and I wasnt ur shoulder..u were right..right how my days is gonna be colder..and I aint gon' be standin taller..let me hold you..even when the rain comes paurin through..and we dont know what to do..keep my arms..my arms locked around you..with the angels that surround you..its like..Im so glad I found you..now Im wishin I could just hear the sound of you ..baby,baby..I got the crown for you..Im down for you..proud to be urs..its in just everythin u do..ur my all, pick me up everytime I fall..even if I be makin mistakes..u help me stand tall..baby I promise I'll neva make yo heart break..and..and..its neva to late..hold my hand and baby Imma stay..let me hold you..an everythin will be ok..just look at my face..an the smile..babe thats all it takes..
-Written By Esra Chebli
-http://www.youtube.com/user/ChicagosAmz
Forget these clowns, let me be the one to hold you down.Keep your crown cause i fight for your love, Give it to me if you feel like i deserve it after the end of this round.You and i, me and you,Thats two perfect nouns,Repeat it to yourself, see how perfect it sounds but girl, you already know, thats only if you.....if ya.... let me... hold you down....
-Written By Jorge
-babe u dont need'a fight cuz u..cuz u the only one in my life..theres no crown..baby there aint a price.. grab my hands an neva let go..cuz you is wuts inside..imma be urs..and baby u can be mine..Imma hold you down when the time is right..til then imma keep u rapped in ma arms through the nights...dream wit ya..sleep wit ya..neva lie..keep u there lyin next to my side..let..let me hold you
-Written By Esra Chebli
- http://www.youtube.com/user/ChicagosAmz
-Lets try to converse on this big ass device.Baby picture the worst then read the rest of this verse,
please take my advice.if you do, i promise what you read is guna make you think twice.with you im bliss,now picture this,soon we`ll kiss,at your favorite place, ill stair in your eyes babygirl not at your waist..look,what im tryna say is that now you know how much i really care.me and you are like a perfect couple of shoes....a perfect pair.
-Written By Jorge
-babe..i see it..see it in ur eyes..i aint gonna just read..imma read between the lines..no promises..imma think
for wuts right..hold u down be ur guide..then u be mine..nah..not just for valentines..but for everyday..an imma picture u holdin me by my waist..lookin in my eyes..at that place we use to chill an look at the sky..til it was late..looked at the stars through the night..imma hold u down like we supposed to..here let me show you..
-Written By Esra Chebli
Check Out Jorge's youtube channel at
http://www.youtube.com/user/ChicagosAmz
this was a little callab we did on youtube
this was a little callab we did on youtube
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
They Don't Know
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DjuV9kp4F4Y
Written By Esra Chebli
yo...Im sittin at these steps lookin at my life that turned upside down..and they dont even know..Im feelin these regrets..wishin I never let no opportunity go..Im lookin at our shared yard..facin the two joined feilds..
fucked up..they dont even know..I was once that quiet little girl they taught back in elementry..soon to come my secrutary is readin my rapps man she never seen me for nearly a century..I come to visit junior school, disapointment use to be my enemy..but now written across my face like Im facin a felony..I cant face myself..
and I thought it brought me to a remedy..Im afraid..its so weird..Nobody knows..I walk into a door..and they think Im ok..maybe it's cuz I got a smile on my face but they dont know whats goin on with me today..
they aint diggin in my soul findin pain...they see the love..but there aint no trace..so they just take and take..
while I got nothin to serve..Im lookin at this girl...through the mirror she stares right at me..where both in two different worlds..but its like she trapped me..I'll never be perfect..not exactly..and I guess we get through rough times magically..ups and downs..this shit keeps happenin to me..yet to be happy rarely..man this worlds scary..nah I aint talkin bout the blood of marry..or the fuckin fantacy of a tooth fairy..Im talkin bout life..like.walkin on cracked ice..hidin around like fuckin mice..everythings a game we depend on a dice..and flip eachother around..and we only got two options..heads and tales..like we flippin a dime..now we worry about the rims on are rides..we aint facin the truth..livin in all lies..not trynna look for a subject that'll gimme easy rhymes..I spit my words between the lines..I aint lookin for someone to talk to..neither am I lookin for a hand to walk through..I find the path on my own..because its noone in this world I can trust..carryin shit on my back aint worth to hold..whats the point of addin that extra load..I've been thrown in the dust..I became weak..thin as crust..got through it, changed but took a while for me to adjust..and I just..just live with it..get over the facts..and face the truth..cuz when it comes down to it..in the end it depends on the decisions I choose..
Written By Esra Chebli
Sunday, May 16, 2010
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Depression....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uJvB0VCKVRo
Written By Esra Chebli
never know..what may occur..its a new day..its time to find a new girl..time to erase..Im up in my own world.
its time to change..because my loneliness is becoming more internal..as Im holdin grins..lettin go of my referrals..walkin blinded as my mind twirls..I cry..as I watch my immortal..but yet its eternal..I cant let go of this pain and sorrow..so I keep writin..maybe its my only way out..because its myself.myself who understands..only my shadow..its me and you now..we both are goin through fucked up shit...leave..but how,
its time to announce..goodbye..its hard to pronounce..but the pain ur givin me is killin me an ounce..is this my only way out..round of a plause..please take a bow..stop just pause..I keep my head starin down..everything turned around..its just empty, I would take the chance if they would just let me..I don't got the crown..I guess hes settling..he maybe thinks about me..Im betting..but as I wonder my tears is shedding..as this pain is spreading..I got other lovers to worry about..like my besty,who confused what life is about...I got my family who Im trynna make proud..then here I got you..ur the first goal I want to reach..don't know what to do..thought we agreed..instead argued..you leave..wasted all ur time with me..yeah..kisses I remember now you decide to set me free..let you go for a little peace..but I cant do that..ur that empty part of me..without you how will I feel complete..so once again Im writin up I cry on my bed sheet..not just to rhyme..nah..ok my eyes leak..I let time speak..as ur lies heat..you tie my feet..throw me off a cliff and let me die asleep..yeah..get high of some weed..depression sittin at the table as I eat..hard to be happy..depression my missin center peace..depressed..like Im..im..feelin weak..life knocked me down on my knees..yeah you can say that..its hard to explain..but when my only hope is to wish upon a star..aha just a myth in fantasy..noone can hear me..man im basically screamin..my eyes are bleedin..when its even hard leavin..as you read this..tell me what ur answer is..when depression has you stuck stiff..and ur just tempted to take just one sniff..just imagin in ur bed lyin still..got all these issues..and you cant do nothin to change the way you live..scared for the pain of suicide..man wutif you tried it maybe once or twice..yeah..aint no knife..poppin pills til passed out try not to wake up..dont wanna know what the next day is about..this aint just ups and downs..this is when depression turn everythin around...This is my depression..not even half of what goes on inside of me everyday..hear me out as I pray..my lord save me..I know I aint here to stay..but make my last moments worth living..cuz I cant take it as longs as I keep spinnin..My depression somebody feel me..My depression, hear me through these words clearly...I'll love you once yearly..I'll say bye dearly..I'll cry freely,I'll pray tearing..This is my depression..that I want to let go of..feel me when you read this..look deeply..cuz this is...
"Im dedicatin this strongely to you..you don't know how much you put me through..I love you..but tell me what can I do..feel me this is for you..please know who you are..search for a clue...my second..now you know who?.."Sometimes..it don't hurt to smile..but sometimes it don't hurt to be sad, we all go through ups and downs..one day you'll see how much stronger you are..I share my stage of depression..months..and years..I'm beginning to step up and face my fears..it's all fucked up..but everything's gonna be okay..
to you all out there..face your depression..because noone but you can find the way out..don't let your weakness take over you..me..and you..and everyone around us..each individual..were all on our own..
Written By Esra Chebli
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Sunday, May 9, 2010
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VQo0jzvEeJI&feature=related
Written By Esra Chebli
I got the prettyness of a jewl, I city slik around a pool..across from cali to afg where I see dem canadian troops..I got the cold shoulder..but aint as bad as hitler had on jews..Im so chilled, I keep sippin on chilled juice..I got the feels of ben frank..my own skills like harajuku..Im from my own galaxy..so I plan on marryin pluto..never got a trophee from a juno..but I keep rappin my words..while my words change like rumors..I change your mind.. like Imma fuckin brain tumor..you be invaded by me like Im the fuckin love guro..Im ur emotion.. so keep laughin cuz Im ur humor..I take risks..like harold and kumor..I dont gotta be a hero Im already super,Im spiderwoman..Im superwoman..Im batwoman..Im the fuckin sent in hugo..Im dead but I keep growin like a cuticle..Im what makes storms beautiful..I bring the happyness in a funeral..the latest comin soon to ya'll,you can tell me what to do..but I wont do it at all..I want it my way..even if the sky falls..I decide when time rolls..Im the president..the fuckin king..I dont want my nails painted in nail pilish..I want it rimmed in gold..Ill keep spendin til every bank gets demolished..Im so clean..I need everything flawless..I make it possible to grow paper..even if Im jobless..I keep it runnin smooth..while you the car rustin..I keep writin.. and you stay in the bars humpin..I work my way while you keep hustlin, my blood stay pumpin..my lungs stay runnin..even if I fog up my system..you needa stay fuckin..I can make it even if my luck slim..people lovin me like micmacs lovin it..Im the winner ya'll can suck it...all you chicks are good at is goin shoppin..make somethin good outta urself..atleast shut ur legs and lock it..others behind you who are mockin..I dont needa impress nobody fuckin around topless..
Written By Esra Chebli
Thursday, May 6, 2010
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gnKimedzuCs
Written By Esra chebli
I wanna spit these words outta my system..I just wanna make a video and clip it..I want you to take a moment and listen..visualize my expressions til I finish..see theres some people gettin into my business,
if ur one of them..then you know exactly what Im talkin about..hold up let me just continue sippin..let me explain...I got enough shit flowin through my brain..you box me in your words..and surprise others like its christmas,I aint even know wut it is..I aint christain..since you ain't hearin me..read this and please dont forget this..why you misunderstandin me..I want to vanish..yeah exactly..change my identity..somethin like spanish..
thought you was a friend of me...take me as a soul..since im always misunderstood..im leavin for good..
change everything if I could...fuck me over..i would..understand me..you should..stop takin the wrong
impression...what am i doin? show me the expression...cuz im stressin..im messin..secondly..i aint restin..
yeah..im just a soul whos intentions are good...no..no..no..i aint prayin to be understood..im just sayin..its harder walkin with just one foot...its hard\ to write when you cant read a book..without a recipe its kinda hard to cook..look through these words..I aint mean literaly..nah..visually..Take a look..just one..and try and understand me..
Written By Esra chebli
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FVQlRtmVQ7k&feature=related
you are what made my heart stone..
what made my eyes storm
created this riot inside me..
everythings torn
fell in love
felt like a new born
treated our love like a chore
I made a mistake
I kept giving more and more....
til it was me you started to ignore..
fell against the floor
sadness overcame me like never before
my heart became to weak to fight this war..
all the damage you've caused it
all this breakage I lost it
you drained me so easily
like water down a fossit
framed us..but with out a frame it was all in my brain
dont know what caused this..
locked my heart in a cell of pain..
so you leave me to drain
you took my face and cropped it..
held my heart and dropped it
my tears..you never mopped them
my dream bubble of me and you..but you popped it
you had the key..and set me free anytime you felt like it
there was noway I could lock it
now I wanna move on..
but you took the space and blocked it
I guess I was never enough..
I leave me to get over it slowely
but til then..Imma leave my pain for you to top it..
Written By Esra Chebli
you are what made my heart stone..
what made my eyes storm
created this riot inside me..
everythings torn
fell in love
felt like a new born
treated our love like a chore
I made a mistake
I kept giving more and more....
til it was me you started to ignore..
fell against the floor
sadness overcame me like never before
my heart became to weak to fight this war..
all the damage you've caused it
all this breakage I lost it
you drained me so easily
like water down a fossit
framed us..but with out a frame it was all in my brain
dont know what caused this..
locked my heart in a cell of pain..
so you leave me to drain
you took my face and cropped it..
held my heart and dropped it
my tears..you never mopped them
my dream bubble of me and you..but you popped it
you had the key..and set me free anytime you felt like it
there was noway I could lock it
now I wanna move on..
but you took the space and blocked it
I guess I was never enough..
I leave me to get over it slowely
but til then..Imma leave my pain for you to top it..
Written By Esra Chebli
Sunday, May 2, 2010
..
my heart is beating..where walking towards eachother..Im bleeding..eyes catch..but Im blinded..Im recked..
its only you and me..now fuck the world..tell me what you feel,you cant keep runnin from the truth,you know I loved you right..gave my all..never slept Im thinkin bout you through the nights..you know peoples words never got to me noone was ever right..never believed til you actually gave me something to see..I thought you were the one..like no other,never knew this love was just for fun..til I came up to you..and you ignored me all at once..walked away crying..it still wasen't enough..whats killing me the most..is you couldn't take a moment for me..you laughed as soons as my back turned..you dont know how much it hurt..I loved you..I loved you..loved you with all my heart..wut did I do...you played it smart...Im only young I dont want to be going through something this hard,you were what put a smile on my face..when things got fucked up..lookin at you made it a better place..but soon I realized you werent here for me..were you for real..help me understand..dont leave me wondering..I dont wanna move on tumbling..so tell me..do you really care? was it all an illusion? were you really there? because you had me livin in a dream..livin a fantacy..now its a nightmare..Im trying to look for memmories..my heart is beating for you..it needs you..but it dosnt regret leaving you..each breath..Im climbing up a mountain..its hard feeling you...what was I left to do..never treated me like you were suppose to..in this maze..amazed how I walked through it blinded..I found my way out..but it was hard to find it...I love you..but I think Im going to hide it...
Written By Esra Chebli...
Remember
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bn1B_q-BS8U&feature=related
Remember those nights we use to chill..hang out...love couple..they just argue even if they dont know what its about..we all sat there and laughed..some sat on the ground..others sat on the couch..broken computer chair..so one just walked around..we talked about how we couldn't wait for them summer days..we wanted to camp out and luy awake..it never came to mind that we would ever seperate..well now we know nothin will ever be the same..we all cried..I remember when it was just boring..but then I got somethin to look forward to..life can be beautiful..they showed me..this is just one of those experinces, I got the opportunity to taste beauty just a little bit..but I thank my lord I wanted to feel this since I was little kid...oh it was so much fun..there was one who motivated me..there was another tellin me to never give up..I went to school with one..he had a best friend..they were together just about all the time..there so cute..I wanted to know them til the end..the oldest..lived his life to the fullest..I respect him for that..parents chilled..none of us talk, now its just work and payin them bills..man its so sad how nothin is like the begining..I wish I can turn back and try everything...but Imma just wait..see what god has to bring..Imma just chill..and remanace to put that smile on my face..love to the heart..love forever even if we part..keep doin your thing..I dont care to show that Im takin this hard..
Written By Esra Chebli
Remember those nights we use to chill..hang out...love couple..they just argue even if they dont know what its about..we all sat there and laughed..some sat on the ground..others sat on the couch..broken computer chair..so one just walked around..we talked about how we couldn't wait for them summer days..we wanted to camp out and luy awake..it never came to mind that we would ever seperate..well now we know nothin will ever be the same..we all cried..I remember when it was just boring..but then I got somethin to look forward to..life can be beautiful..they showed me..this is just one of those experinces, I got the opportunity to taste beauty just a little bit..but I thank my lord I wanted to feel this since I was little kid...oh it was so much fun..there was one who motivated me..there was another tellin me to never give up..I went to school with one..he had a best friend..they were together just about all the time..there so cute..I wanted to know them til the end..the oldest..lived his life to the fullest..I respect him for that..parents chilled..none of us talk, now its just work and payin them bills..man its so sad how nothin is like the begining..I wish I can turn back and try everything...but Imma just wait..see what god has to bring..Imma just chill..and remanace to put that smile on my face..love to the heart..love forever even if we part..keep doin your thing..I dont care to show that Im takin this hard..
Written By Esra Chebli
Saturday, May 1, 2010
I Don't Really Know..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y9SPdXp1V-c
I didn't want to expose the truth to myself
I didn't want you to show me enough that I'll have a doubt
I loved you..blinded..never knew what I was hurting about
so..we've created these clouds..
now your tryin to make me feel bad that I walked out
you confused me enough
ur begining to make me think I've made a mistake blinding me again
if you love someone else
but things never worked out
why did you use me to try and get over her?
how come I feel like this is what I deserved
I loved you..but I was never your girl
but you were always my man
I tried my best
gave all my strength to keep holding onto ur hands
but you turned away from me
let go
killing me
my heart not just broken..but shattered
Im depressed...
but you can careless
cuz you believe you did nothing to hurt me this bad
but I can now only see...
that you just neglected me
I was only manipulated..
I just made it clear that I was going to go
but it was you who already set me free
Written By Esra Chebli
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y9SPdXp1V-c
I didn't want to expose the truth to myself
I didn't want you to show me enough that I'll have a doubt
I loved you..blinded..never knew what I was hurting about
so..we've created these clouds..
now your tryin to make me feel bad that I walked out
you confused me enough
ur begining to make me think I've made a mistake blinding me again
if you love someone else
but things never worked out
why did you use me to try and get over her?
how come I feel like this is what I deserved
I loved you..but I was never your girl
but you were always my man
I tried my best
gave all my strength to keep holding onto ur hands
but you turned away from me
let go
killing me
my heart not just broken..but shattered
Im depressed...
but you can careless
cuz you believe you did nothing to hurt me this bad
but I can now only see...
that you just neglected me
I was only manipulated..
I just made it clear that I was going to go
but it was you who already set me free
Written By Esra Chebli
Im..
Im just like an instrument..
others play me..
I let out the tune when I cry
so I cry beautifuly.
Im just like an ant.
Im blind so I cant tell when someone is about to step on me
so once they do..
they leave me to luy there lifelessly
Im just like a wall
I stand there with a speach of no words
they break me down..and throw me away
like I did nothing but the worst
Im just like the clouds
I gather my pain
once they're all gathered I cry leaving them to drop like the rain
I am just a girl...
a girl that wants an ordinary day
that when something goes well..nothing will change
I am just a girl..
I dont want to be a pencil so I can be easily erased..
erased..by a cheesy mistake
I dont want to be that stick that can easily be breaked..
or that heart..that can be taken away
I want to be happy
like I remember I once was..
I want to cry from laughter
not just because...
I want to have an ordinary day..
atleast better then usuall
I want it to always be the same...
I dont want to blank..then next thing I know Im at my funeral..
Written By Esra Chebli
others play me..
I let out the tune when I cry
so I cry beautifuly.
Im just like an ant.
Im blind so I cant tell when someone is about to step on me
so once they do..
they leave me to luy there lifelessly
Im just like a wall
I stand there with a speach of no words
they break me down..and throw me away
like I did nothing but the worst
Im just like the clouds
I gather my pain
once they're all gathered I cry leaving them to drop like the rain
I am just a girl...
a girl that wants an ordinary day
that when something goes well..nothing will change
I am just a girl..
I dont want to be a pencil so I can be easily erased..
erased..by a cheesy mistake
I dont want to be that stick that can easily be breaked..
or that heart..that can be taken away
I want to be happy
like I remember I once was..
I want to cry from laughter
not just because...
I want to have an ordinary day..
atleast better then usuall
I want it to always be the same...
I dont want to blank..then next thing I know Im at my funeral..
Written By Esra Chebli
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
the world around me sees...
I guess Im blinded...lost between..
Im falling into the emptyness between the lines
Im suficating with no heat,
its amazing how much you do to me
the pain and misery
when Im inlove
but you just play literaly
Im holding back on this mystery..
this secret you hide..
having me live colorlessly
slowely your ripping me inside
but it looks as if I rather not last lovelessly
without you it seems to be so troublng
what we have is not true love
I can give all that I can give
but you can only take so much
if you loved me
you would feel for me at this moment
as Im typing these words
but you dont
im sure ur sleeping at 2:36am
or are you?
I dont even know
I lost so much trust in you
whats there to say
Im just depressed luying awake
tryin to figure out this puzzle with the peices all over the place
why dont i just go to sleep and quit wasting my time
maybe im just afraid to lose someone whos on my mind all the time
the person I love
and I know it wouldnt just take months..
but years to get over..
Written By Esra Chebli
I guess Im blinded...lost between..
Im falling into the emptyness between the lines
Im suficating with no heat,
its amazing how much you do to me
the pain and misery
when Im inlove
but you just play literaly
Im holding back on this mystery..
this secret you hide..
having me live colorlessly
slowely your ripping me inside
but it looks as if I rather not last lovelessly
without you it seems to be so troublng
what we have is not true love
I can give all that I can give
but you can only take so much
if you loved me
you would feel for me at this moment
as Im typing these words
but you dont
im sure ur sleeping at 2:36am
or are you?
I dont even know
I lost so much trust in you
whats there to say
Im just depressed luying awake
tryin to figure out this puzzle with the peices all over the place
why dont i just go to sleep and quit wasting my time
maybe im just afraid to lose someone whos on my mind all the time
the person I love
and I know it wouldnt just take months..
but years to get over..
Written By Esra Chebli
Sunday, April 25, 2010
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_llH7CF-zZ0
yo..it's like..its like it be comin and it go..finaly got the hang of dis flow..I ain't gon' be doin dis nomore..Imma be walkin out dat door..as my tears drip unda ma feet onto da floor..yo ma muscles are sore..I guess I gotta move faword and ignore..make somethin good outta dis shit..and if I eva get to taste it..I aint neva gonna let it go..neva will I eva trade it..because das me I finaly made it..everythin was takin..so many times I be makin mistakes an..I finaly learned..nomore breakin..so Imma keep my head above da surface,and Imma be doin it for one purpose..and for one purpose only aint for no person..for me only..dis ain't wut life had to show me.. this is about me..thats why Im lonely..dont gotta worry about whats bellow me..Imma keep buildin the stairs for above me...fuck the world, middle fingure to all haiters,fuck the purls...dont need no labels..or the touch of a fuckin angel..my tea dont gotta be the fresh taste of mapel..dont need the contacts to make my eyes hazel, dont need'a fool yo minds..I know Im real an all..I keep it real all the time..dont need a bird to tell ya'll that Im fly..I dont got wings..but I still try..fancy things I gotta buy..nah..that ain't my life..I don't drive..I ride..I dont cry..I sigh..I hold back on atitude,I keep the grills across my every tooth..so I collide..dont need'a boost..dont need'a guy..or some extra moose,everything is right..dont need noone to tell me what to do..so dont try to hurt me..I know how to cry..trust me Im emptied..I aint friendly..neither am I bitchy..wont have a sweet sixteen..dont care to be richy..Im just me..me is who Imma stay to be..and when the time comes when I reach my dreams..you gon' still find my mamma tuckin me in my sheets...nothin...nothin..nothin will eva change me...I can do what eva I want if I put my mind to it..without a voice I can still sing a song..I can make my own tune to it..Dont need ya'll to tell me I cant do shit,because Im the new bitch,and this new bitch is ill,I got my own skills..no skills for mathamatical equations,none for biological relations,or historical creations, I got skills of life, that ya'll dont have that are countin them bills all night..I do whats right..dont do what I believe is wrong..dont hold on to influences for long,cuz I know where they belong,and I know they be talkin shit when Im gone..these faces keep movin me along..so Im happy to bump into some..cuz all they doin is brightenin up my sun..everybody is makin it clearer for me to see..in dis way..Im just careless..the only opinion I take is from my parents..other then that Imma do whats right for me..and you aint gonna stop me even if you got problems stormin on me..I got protection from whats in me,so I keep walkin through it confidently...
Written By Esra Chebli
yo..it's like..its like it be comin and it go..finaly got the hang of dis flow..I ain't gon' be doin dis nomore..Imma be walkin out dat door..as my tears drip unda ma feet onto da floor..yo ma muscles are sore..I guess I gotta move faword and ignore..make somethin good outta dis shit..and if I eva get to taste it..I aint neva gonna let it go..neva will I eva trade it..because das me I finaly made it..everythin was takin..so many times I be makin mistakes an..I finaly learned..nomore breakin..so Imma keep my head above da surface,and Imma be doin it for one purpose..and for one purpose only aint for no person..for me only..dis ain't wut life had to show me.. this is about me..thats why Im lonely..dont gotta worry about whats bellow me..Imma keep buildin the stairs for above me...fuck the world, middle fingure to all haiters,fuck the purls...dont need no labels..or the touch of a fuckin angel..my tea dont gotta be the fresh taste of mapel..dont need the contacts to make my eyes hazel, dont need'a fool yo minds..I know Im real an all..I keep it real all the time..dont need a bird to tell ya'll that Im fly..I dont got wings..but I still try..fancy things I gotta buy..nah..that ain't my life..I don't drive..I ride..I dont cry..I sigh..I hold back on atitude,I keep the grills across my every tooth..so I collide..dont need'a boost..dont need'a guy..or some extra moose,everything is right..dont need noone to tell me what to do..so dont try to hurt me..I know how to cry..trust me Im emptied..I aint friendly..neither am I bitchy..wont have a sweet sixteen..dont care to be richy..Im just me..me is who Imma stay to be..and when the time comes when I reach my dreams..you gon' still find my mamma tuckin me in my sheets...nothin...nothin..nothin will eva change me...I can do what eva I want if I put my mind to it..without a voice I can still sing a song..I can make my own tune to it..Dont need ya'll to tell me I cant do shit,because Im the new bitch,and this new bitch is ill,I got my own skills..no skills for mathamatical equations,none for biological relations,or historical creations, I got skills of life, that ya'll dont have that are countin them bills all night..I do whats right..dont do what I believe is wrong..dont hold on to influences for long,cuz I know where they belong,and I know they be talkin shit when Im gone..these faces keep movin me along..so Im happy to bump into some..cuz all they doin is brightenin up my sun..everybody is makin it clearer for me to see..in dis way..Im just careless..the only opinion I take is from my parents..other then that Imma do whats right for me..and you aint gonna stop me even if you got problems stormin on me..I got protection from whats in me,so I keep walkin through it confidently...
Written By Esra Chebli
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Me
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ql28FpZ_8cM&feature=related
read between the lines when I explain...I know her inside out, Im with her just about everyday, accept when she forget about me..I see her when the sun come out..she adores her pride, I see her as Im trapped on the other side of the mirror..its this girl, first time I seen her..she looks different everytime..I dont know why..but of her theres so many different kinds..I can see whats inside..I can tell because when shes alone she releases the tears from that empty side..did ya'll expect this..you know sometimes she forget what respect is..I like to remind her..so when she look at me and smile I frown..she dont need to lie to herself..as I follow her as the job of a shadow..she steps on me..actin all shallow..she knows imma be set free one day..makin her soul cry I wanna sleep but she luy awake..forcin her eyes to luy without a blank..sometimes I need to get out.. especially out of her system..I can't wait til that angel comes and visits..maybe it'll allow me to go with it..but that's just how it is in her dreams...I watch the cloud above her like a t.v, she dreams about what she would love seeing...but why is she bleeding? this is gettin kinda creepy..look at this stress shes keeping uh oh she feels like leaving..no please stay here! to bad she cant hear..shes in fear..don't go it will get better let out your tears..she starts crying..its working finaly...I'm going to keep making her strong..(I love what's inside of me)
I hear coming from her mind..its nice what shes telling me..I'll help her if only she was letting me..she knows she hurt me and she was so damaging...she now realizes that she had me all along as a best friend..made the disicion to stop giving away her heart and keep sipping her brain with whats best...
Written By Chebli
read between the lines when I explain...I know her inside out, Im with her just about everyday, accept when she forget about me..I see her when the sun come out..she adores her pride, I see her as Im trapped on the other side of the mirror..its this girl, first time I seen her..she looks different everytime..I dont know why..but of her theres so many different kinds..I can see whats inside..I can tell because when shes alone she releases the tears from that empty side..did ya'll expect this..you know sometimes she forget what respect is..I like to remind her..so when she look at me and smile I frown..she dont need to lie to herself..as I follow her as the job of a shadow..she steps on me..actin all shallow..she knows imma be set free one day..makin her soul cry I wanna sleep but she luy awake..forcin her eyes to luy without a blank..sometimes I need to get out.. especially out of her system..I can't wait til that angel comes and visits..maybe it'll allow me to go with it..but that's just how it is in her dreams...I watch the cloud above her like a t.v, she dreams about what she would love seeing...but why is she bleeding? this is gettin kinda creepy..look at this stress shes keeping uh oh she feels like leaving..no please stay here! to bad she cant hear..shes in fear..don't go it will get better let out your tears..she starts crying..its working finaly...I'm going to keep making her strong..(I love what's inside of me)
I hear coming from her mind..its nice what shes telling me..I'll help her if only she was letting me..she knows she hurt me and she was so damaging...she now realizes that she had me all along as a best friend..made the disicion to stop giving away her heart and keep sipping her brain with whats best...
Written By Chebli
Friday, April 23, 2010
Aight...I know I broke your heart..
but why..
why you tryin to go back to the start..?
want revenge..
well then Imma give you the time to play me like a guitar
so here,
heres the notes, soon you'll become a star
I promise you gon' feel good tarin me apart
then after you gon' be cement..rough as tar
I'll be layin in the dirt
and you can make sure that you make everything hard
all you gotta do is flirt
and I'll be more then happy to play along
I messed with you...
now it's your turn
you better plan what you gonna do to make me burn
I promise Imma let it burn...
and become a broken hearted girl..
Written By Esra Chebli
but why..
why you tryin to go back to the start..?
want revenge..
well then Imma give you the time to play me like a guitar
so here,
heres the notes, soon you'll become a star
I promise you gon' feel good tarin me apart
then after you gon' be cement..rough as tar
I'll be layin in the dirt
and you can make sure that you make everything hard
all you gotta do is flirt
and I'll be more then happy to play along
I messed with you...
now it's your turn
you better plan what you gonna do to make me burn
I promise Imma let it burn...
and become a broken hearted girl..
Written By Esra Chebli
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Today...
Written By Esra Chebli
what an awful day..right now imma write anything and make
no sense to what I say,because nomatter how much I pray
everyday is the same..
I hate it..hate every minute Im awake..
I rather luy still and sleep
runaway from the pain
have a couple of dreams
maybe they'll go away someday
theres so much of the same game
I can close my eyes
I got the hole fucking thing memorized
what a shame..
screw everything
screw it all
already fucked over
I dont wanna continue with anything
and everything in my life
I dont give a shit
I just wanna hide
it dont seem Imma be goin anywhere
I've been patient but Im sittin in the same place
desperatley waitin
someone must be mistaken
is it just me
but Im wide awake and..
is this a nightmare
I dont even wanna think of this..
so Imma go sleep
thinkin bout noone
Im cut so deep
I dont care
it's useless to smile
I cant even explain how I feel
it's sad how I got just these words I spit on the screen
to just me myself and I
it's sickening
lost so many people
and all were the ones I really loved
we ain't togather
our hands aint physically joined
but man our hands will always be cuffed
found out a couple of people ain't bein true to me
prooved their true colors and simply fooled me
others took me the wrong way
listenin to the words but blinded like they cant see
blamin the shit they be doin wrong and make me feel like its me whos guilty
askin me if Im mad
nah...Im actually fucked
everyone screwed me over
I aint afraid to admit Im a jelouse
I kinda learned it the hard way..
like they say
keep ur enemies close and ur friends far..
all ya'll played me like a guitar..
found out a couple of people ain't bein true to me
prooved their true colors and simply fooled me
others took me the wrong way
listenin to the words but blinded like they cant see
blamin the shit they be doin wrong and make me feel like its me whos guilty
askin me if Im mad
nah...Im actually fucked
everyone screwed me over
I aint afraid to admit Im a jelouse
I kinda learned it the hard way..
like they say
keep ur enemies close and ur friends far..
all ya'll played me like a guitar..
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
La..La..La..Talk
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OKZaASZCnBE&feature=related
Dis drama queen,
Imma whipe dis bitch's ass clean
she got nothin better to talk about
She soo cheesy
cheesier then the cheese of ma fetachinne
wantin the attention but she know I'm gettin it the moment the fellows see me
trynna act cute..Hello kitty
but Puke...jello swingy
actin cool..but we ain't livin in a ghetto city
she think she tough..yo..she as big as my pinky
throw her all the way back up her mammas thingy..
ahaha..make her feel shitty
like she tryin to make me feel actin bitchy..
she jelous cuz she know Im twinky..
twinky like the stars she be wishin on to be like me..
hard to face me with the shit she gotta say..shes typing...
talkin the shit behind her computer screen..
cuz she know Imma bust her face in Im sure she wont be liking..
shes riding..
but I'm flying..
I knock her and them behind her like dominos
shes crying..
I make every explaination logical
while shes stuttering,
I ain't flattered by her bluffing..
man I ain't listenin to the shit..no eaz-dropping
Imma have to do somethin to get her keys locking..
she keep talking..
like bla bla bla.....
her voice is an irritant to me..
just like how alcohol be an irritant to my belly..
so la la la..
Im lighten it up
make the negative energy positve..
so Imma brighten you up..
sweaten you then freeze you in my ice cream truck..
I'll whip you til ur creamy enough to put on a cake..
then place you on a plate..and have my man eat it while we be on a date..
it's ur birthday..
if ur lucky enough imma sing
but thats to bad..
because now you layin in ur death grave..
Written By Esra Chebli
Dis drama queen,
Imma whipe dis bitch's ass clean
she got nothin better to talk about
She soo cheesy
cheesier then the cheese of ma fetachinne
wantin the attention but she know I'm gettin it the moment the fellows see me
trynna act cute..Hello kitty
but Puke...jello swingy
actin cool..but we ain't livin in a ghetto city
she think she tough..yo..she as big as my pinky
throw her all the way back up her mammas thingy..
ahaha..make her feel shitty
like she tryin to make me feel actin bitchy..
she jelous cuz she know Im twinky..
twinky like the stars she be wishin on to be like me..
hard to face me with the shit she gotta say..shes typing...
talkin the shit behind her computer screen..
cuz she know Imma bust her face in Im sure she wont be liking..
shes riding..
but I'm flying..
I knock her and them behind her like dominos
shes crying..
I make every explaination logical
while shes stuttering,
I ain't flattered by her bluffing..
man I ain't listenin to the shit..no eaz-dropping
Imma have to do somethin to get her keys locking..
she keep talking..
like bla bla bla.....
her voice is an irritant to me..
just like how alcohol be an irritant to my belly..
so la la la..
Im lighten it up
make the negative energy positve..
so Imma brighten you up..
sweaten you then freeze you in my ice cream truck..
I'll whip you til ur creamy enough to put on a cake..
then place you on a plate..and have my man eat it while we be on a date..
it's ur birthday..
if ur lucky enough imma sing
but thats to bad..
because now you layin in ur death grave..
Written By Esra Chebli
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Happy Birthday
Mamma!!
I Love You...
April 20, today is mamma's Birthday..
I wrote something..but had a hard time..
the worst things to write about
is about the person you love
who is so special to you
who has an impact on you in everyway
no words can really explain..
because words say nothing but flow with the wind
I can say I love you..
but to write it.
where to begin..?
I have to scan my heart bit by bit
cuz really you a person I can't not be with
you held me in ur tummy for 9 months straight
I was born as a 6 pound baby
but you gave birth to 6
the pain you went through makes pregnency a little creepy
helped me walk
helped me talk
always had my back
told me to appreciate what I got
gave me advice
bathed me all night
stayed up as I cried
put up with it til the morning shine
you are everything to me mamma
I love you
wait I forgot..
happy Birthday is what I wanted to tell you
I hope you live til infinity!!!
Esra Chebli
Monday, April 19, 2010
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uY2_25qAc1k&feature=related
your Innocence is what I keep falling into..
while I'm blinded by ur life full of issues..
but ur heart is hard to get to..
I feel like a statue..
doin nothin..so I'm left to stare at you..
thought maybe a getaway place for two..
but you keep running away from the truth..
you know you don't love me like I do..
so why bother continue..?
you can care less either..
because u know neither..
will last together..so I don't believe her..
that little voice inside of me thats telling me to never leave you
Im tryin to convince myself..
but you keep burnin my heart and turning it into ashes bit by bit
and causing it to melt..
didn't care for the way I felt..
so why should I care when I tried to break you away from ur cell.
never opened up..
there was somethin you held..
so I'm about to give up..
can't handle bein led..
causin my emotions to shred..
is it about time I left..?
I'm still askin that even though I know I'm in a mess..
I just wanna..wanna be alone..and getaway from the stress
cuz you know it's hard even bein at home..
I need this pain to go atleast one percent less
I cried for you..infront of your two eyes and you haven't changed yet...
after her to get...
why me..?
because you knew I was weak and tangled up in a net..
my confidence was kinda low..so you knew I would fall you got everything set
look at me now..
well it's even hard to reach a simple goal..
I can't take it at all..
it's kinda pushin me away from what I love doin most..
I shrunk..when I use to stand tall..
threw me off a cliff...never caught me and left me to fall..
I can't believe all this you did..
I don't even know who I am nomore..
I feel like I wanna go back to being a kid..
and take away everything in my life that caused me to spin..
make myself understand...and stand up for what I deserve..
but never chose to live that way..
so that's why I'm here today
learned on my own..
so fell inlove with pain..
came out..nearly insane..
Written By Esra Chebli
your Innocence is what I keep falling into..
while I'm blinded by ur life full of issues..
but ur heart is hard to get to..
I feel like a statue..
doin nothin..so I'm left to stare at you..
thought maybe a getaway place for two..
but you keep running away from the truth..
you know you don't love me like I do..
so why bother continue..?
you can care less either..
because u know neither..
will last together..so I don't believe her..
that little voice inside of me thats telling me to never leave you
Im tryin to convince myself..
but you keep burnin my heart and turning it into ashes bit by bit
and causing it to melt..
didn't care for the way I felt..
so why should I care when I tried to break you away from ur cell.
never opened up..
there was somethin you held..
so I'm about to give up..
can't handle bein led..
causin my emotions to shred..
is it about time I left..?
I'm still askin that even though I know I'm in a mess..
I just wanna..wanna be alone..and getaway from the stress
cuz you know it's hard even bein at home..
I need this pain to go atleast one percent less
I cried for you..infront of your two eyes and you haven't changed yet...
after her to get...
why me..?
because you knew I was weak and tangled up in a net..
my confidence was kinda low..so you knew I would fall you got everything set
look at me now..
well it's even hard to reach a simple goal..
I can't take it at all..
it's kinda pushin me away from what I love doin most..
I shrunk..when I use to stand tall..
threw me off a cliff...never caught me and left me to fall..
I can't believe all this you did..
I don't even know who I am nomore..
I feel like I wanna go back to being a kid..
and take away everything in my life that caused me to spin..
make myself understand...and stand up for what I deserve..
but never chose to live that way..
so that's why I'm here today
learned on my own..
so fell inlove with pain..
came out..nearly insane..
Written By Esra Chebli
Sunday, April 18, 2010
My Life...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=33PQdqKpcYY
When their ain't a problem you can solve on your own..
their ain't no maury..
what would you do if it ain't ur fault an u felt sorry
like when the rain can't stop paurin..
turn the lights on to remember the sun..
but the light bring back flash memmories from the shot of the gun..
when I first realized..man my life is actually tuff
when it took just one..one to make it all fucked up
gotten older..felt so sucked up..
drivin on the road of my life with a rusted truck.
couldn't aford them fancy ones..
so it stopped me a couple of times
caused me to bust a pile of rhymes...
forgettin nearly half my lines..
there to much goin on in my mind...
so yeah..this an issue hard to find..
planted in me..from the seed planted in my mammas belly
this is livin crime...
when you in jail for nothin...
all I'm hidin is a lie...
so I'm afraid to cry..
cover my face just incase my tears expose the truth about my life
I keep holdin on a knife..
noone protect me but I...
haven't been like them others stressed to relieve there pain by gettin high..
tried holdin on to pride..
but slipped from the palms of my hands..now left with nothin
but the ashes from this burned up guide..
This is the life...or should I say never had one..
no child hood..and the crap ain't even done..
it's the wild hood...
a wild hood story..would change everythin if I could
blamed it on myself..I was to sorry..
when I found out bout the bolshit..and their was no Maury
tried to toss it..but the rain didn't stop paurin..
never happy with myself..
I know that bad for my health
so Im left with a felt..
I write up my regrets..
and leave me on to melt..
Written By Ersa Chebli
When their ain't a problem you can solve on your own..
their ain't no maury..
what would you do if it ain't ur fault an u felt sorry
like when the rain can't stop paurin..
turn the lights on to remember the sun..
but the light bring back flash memmories from the shot of the gun..
when I first realized..man my life is actually tuff
when it took just one..one to make it all fucked up
gotten older..felt so sucked up..
drivin on the road of my life with a rusted truck.
couldn't aford them fancy ones..
so it stopped me a couple of times
caused me to bust a pile of rhymes...
forgettin nearly half my lines..
there to much goin on in my mind...
so yeah..this an issue hard to find..
planted in me..from the seed planted in my mammas belly
this is livin crime...
when you in jail for nothin...
all I'm hidin is a lie...
so I'm afraid to cry..
cover my face just incase my tears expose the truth about my life
I keep holdin on a knife..
noone protect me but I...
haven't been like them others stressed to relieve there pain by gettin high..
tried holdin on to pride..
but slipped from the palms of my hands..now left with nothin
but the ashes from this burned up guide..
This is the life...or should I say never had one..
no child hood..and the crap ain't even done..
it's the wild hood...
a wild hood story..would change everythin if I could
blamed it on myself..I was to sorry..
when I found out bout the bolshit..and their was no Maury
tried to toss it..but the rain didn't stop paurin..
never happy with myself..
I know that bad for my health
so Im left with a felt..
I write up my regrets..
and leave me on to melt..
Written By Ersa Chebli
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Those Feelings..I can't Seem To Get Over
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rZfGeWa5R1E
can't believe how slowely the days have gone by..
how much my heart has cried for you to come next to my side
............................................................................................
seein you again
can't be nothin else more then a friend
ever since then.................................
nothin but pain in my life...
lets make a new begining
but when it's hard to forget the past...
we officially gave our hopes up and thought nothin will ever last
confused maybe takin things to fast
but that's not an issue..
maybe startin all over again..
because...you..know..I miss you..
I feel like a little girl who lost her favorate teddy bear
the one she use to sleep next to
cuz you were the one I even thought about while combing my hair
and now all I'm thinkin bout is all the things you do
hard to mention..
I mean a couple of things..
don't wanna make things to oviouse and cause a little tension..
I'm hoping to reach for you after I'm finished detention..
it's all because I wanted to try a little chemestry reaction..
but caused an explosion..
this isen't how we both wanted things to be
so this is my dedication to the person whos loving me..
the only one I see grabbing my hand in my dreams..
taking me away..and setting me free..
what I've noticed..
nothins been goin well..
wakin up happy..
but your not next to me
these feelings are hard to believe but still there
their hard to see...but trust me I care
I know that's even hard to believe cuz I left it to tare
when I told you I felt like you deserved a better one
how I tried explaining we can't be together..
but never made it clear because your the only one in my heart
but told me you'd stay loving me forever..
don't mean to confuse you with another thing..
but I'm just letting you know..
the oviouse answer to your question..
is I still love you..and I haven't gotten over you yet..
Written By Esra Chebli
can't believe how slowely the days have gone by..
how much my heart has cried for you to come next to my side
............................................................................................
seein you again
can't be nothin else more then a friend
ever since then.................................
nothin but pain in my life...
lets make a new begining
but when it's hard to forget the past...
we officially gave our hopes up and thought nothin will ever last
confused maybe takin things to fast
but that's not an issue..
maybe startin all over again..
because...you..know..I miss you..
I feel like a little girl who lost her favorate teddy bear
the one she use to sleep next to
cuz you were the one I even thought about while combing my hair
and now all I'm thinkin bout is all the things you do
hard to mention..
I mean a couple of things..
don't wanna make things to oviouse and cause a little tension..
I'm hoping to reach for you after I'm finished detention..
it's all because I wanted to try a little chemestry reaction..
but caused an explosion..
this isen't how we both wanted things to be
so this is my dedication to the person whos loving me..
the only one I see grabbing my hand in my dreams..
taking me away..and setting me free..
what I've noticed..
nothins been goin well..
wakin up happy..
but your not next to me
these feelings are hard to believe but still there
their hard to see...but trust me I care
I know that's even hard to believe cuz I left it to tare
when I told you I felt like you deserved a better one
how I tried explaining we can't be together..
but never made it clear because your the only one in my heart
but told me you'd stay loving me forever..
don't mean to confuse you with another thing..
but I'm just letting you know..
the oviouse answer to your question..
is I still love you..and I haven't gotten over you yet..
Written By Esra Chebli
Friday, April 16, 2010
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Rl2NORv3P0
walk right past you..
while you keep in place like a statue..
keep yo feelins sucked in like a vacume,
cuz boy I'm about to wack you..
...ak47...
if I could I would blast you..
wreckin my seconds in my minutes of the hours of my day,
keep up with your laughter..
this love is a disaster...
to dem bitches known as the master..
but to me known as a bastard...
trynna haunt me..but you like casper..
racin to me like nascar..
but you know I'm faster,
can't even keep up with yo own games,
in this train you leading me in so many different ways..
get yo directions straight,
keep me happy as long as you stay outta my face,
here let me tie yo shoe lace..
because you ain't gonna be able to walk as long as yo feet tied together
this ain't no bag race..
but make sure yo mouth taped..
cuz you never get yo facts straight..
think you got fame..but you haven't even made it on mtv's made
pissin me off...
like you think I give a fuck
I ain't willin to step in yo house of pain
when you iritate..
like how my ears feel listenin to Tpain
I don't give a fuck if you got them diamands on ur dam chain
cuz all I'm lookin for is a dam change
don't give a shit wut yo mans say..
man you's more risky then a blind date
you was expectin a fine mate..
sorry boy I ain't got time today
don't wanna go with you to this lie parade
you ain't the juice I like, sippin on...lemonade
you's wastin the energy in my gatorade
got me feelin like I'm high on prayin
gimme a kool-aid
nah for real I mean a cool-aid
look what dis fool made
cover half his face in luie-V shades
he be singin like baby huey says..
"pop lock and drop it
tonight it's gon' be some changes no acting sadity"
you make no sence
so I speak yo language and say boo you have me in mentality insanity..
actuality..you a commonality, how sadely
you understandin me?
ur love is like genetic abnormality
man I can see it like visual modality
my own hospitality
high loss in ma calories
sick of ur monaply
go play dat wit ur hommies
you gon' be the next Mr.Lonely
don't be comin back for me like the police..
Written By Esra Chebli
walk right past you..
while you keep in place like a statue..
keep yo feelins sucked in like a vacume,
cuz boy I'm about to wack you..
...ak47...
if I could I would blast you..
wreckin my seconds in my minutes of the hours of my day,
keep up with your laughter..
this love is a disaster...
to dem bitches known as the master..
but to me known as a bastard...
trynna haunt me..but you like casper..
racin to me like nascar..
but you know I'm faster,
can't even keep up with yo own games,
in this train you leading me in so many different ways..
get yo directions straight,
keep me happy as long as you stay outta my face,
here let me tie yo shoe lace..
because you ain't gonna be able to walk as long as yo feet tied together
this ain't no bag race..
but make sure yo mouth taped..
cuz you never get yo facts straight..
think you got fame..but you haven't even made it on mtv's made
pissin me off...
like you think I give a fuck
I ain't willin to step in yo house of pain
when you iritate..
like how my ears feel listenin to Tpain
I don't give a fuck if you got them diamands on ur dam chain
cuz all I'm lookin for is a dam change
don't give a shit wut yo mans say..
man you's more risky then a blind date
you was expectin a fine mate..
sorry boy I ain't got time today
don't wanna go with you to this lie parade
you ain't the juice I like, sippin on...lemonade
you's wastin the energy in my gatorade
got me feelin like I'm high on prayin
gimme a kool-aid
nah for real I mean a cool-aid
look what dis fool made
cover half his face in luie-V shades
he be singin like baby huey says..
"pop lock and drop it
tonight it's gon' be some changes no acting sadity"
you make no sence
so I speak yo language and say boo you have me in mentality insanity..
actuality..you a commonality, how sadely
you understandin me?
ur love is like genetic abnormality
man I can see it like visual modality
my own hospitality
high loss in ma calories
sick of ur monaply
go play dat wit ur hommies
you gon' be the next Mr.Lonely
don't be comin back for me like the police..
Written By Esra Chebli
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Da..Da..Da..Da...
Hard to speak words of truth...
these words speak clearly of you..
I know you wonder..
how I wonder..
if he ever knew..
when he reads..
he knows..
what I'm talkin bout
the words that were hard to spit outta my mouth..
with a simple question..
led me to miss-direction
teach me a lesson..
to whom I deserve
who do you prefer?
us is what were ment to be together
it is possible to start a hole new chapter..
but is it what I want..
yes..but I'm not the perfect one..
hear me clearly through this font..
what we had..
was love
what we were..
we will never give up
I know I'll never be able to heel this scar
and I know I'm stucker then stuck
we held hands..and we're still cuffed
so don't worry..I'm still lovin you to much...
ok look...
this beat pounds...
look..
I know now..
how much you were worth..
I see how..
how things don't always work
I ain't proud..
I threw it out..
and now I'm feelin down
thought I'll never see clouds..
but here I am as they cry above me..
and I can't stop the sound
so da da da da..
tick tick tick
as I wait...
(flick)
waitin for nothin..
maybe somethin,
somethin..will happen
da,da,da,da,da
tick..tick..tick
It's now fall
woooshhhhhhhh
leaves are now flyin in the wind
I've waited years..
where to begin..?
snow flakes are big..
I'm still rubbin my chin..
I don't think I'll ever win..
win you back..and be the champion..
so...
da da da da da
tick tick tick
I hear the words...
I'm sorry for bein such a bitch...
Written By Esra Chebli
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Beauty Is What She Is...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cbPOgAMgjiI
Beauty...
is what she is,
the way you look at her
shes..competitive
I can see it'll never be a win, win
checkin her up..down, turned on with her fitness
I'm so hurt with your pickyness
talkin to her..yeah I know it's not my business
but still..
I ain't the wind...
passin right by you..
tossin a smile at you..
but her gloss is what ur into
I go home feelin like I got nothin left to do..
lookin in the mirror
trynna look like her..
when I know deeply and even they say its not what I deserve
but it's so hard to back away from you..
ur the only person I love
you don't know how much I admire even a look..
I'm able to write a million poems..fill up my book
but why you gotta make it so complicated for me..
what you gave..no girl would of took..
heartbroken...
is what I officially am..
and I can't change that
cuz thats what I'll always be...
I'm done..done playin pretend
do you really love me?
-esraChebli♥
Beauty...
is what she is,
the way you look at her
shes..competitive
I can see it'll never be a win, win
checkin her up..down, turned on with her fitness
I'm so hurt with your pickyness
talkin to her..yeah I know it's not my business
but still..
I ain't the wind...
passin right by you..
tossin a smile at you..
but her gloss is what ur into
I go home feelin like I got nothin left to do..
lookin in the mirror
trynna look like her..
when I know deeply and even they say its not what I deserve
but it's so hard to back away from you..
ur the only person I love
you don't know how much I admire even a look..
I'm able to write a million poems..fill up my book
but why you gotta make it so complicated for me..
what you gave..no girl would of took..
heartbroken...
is what I officially am..
and I can't change that
cuz thats what I'll always be...
I'm done..done playin pretend
do you really love me?
-esraChebli♥
Monday, April 12, 2010
The beauty of life people don't seem to catch..
where their is always space for a second chance..
and the world out there isen't just romance
there is more to life then love
you'll realize once you take a glance...
when hurting and building these feelings within you
then burning and quilting peices from your skinned tissue
it's like exposing a thesis in a million issues
but reasearchin for ways to seperate the mixtures
Written By Esra Chebli
where their is always space for a second chance..
and the world out there isen't just romance
there is more to life then love
you'll realize once you take a glance...
when hurting and building these feelings within you
then burning and quilting peices from your skinned tissue
it's like exposing a thesis in a million issues
but reasearchin for ways to seperate the mixtures
Written By Esra Chebli
Sunday, April 11, 2010
That Empty Part Of Me...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DbXottJJPZk&feature=related
listen to this melody in a lullabuy..
a kiss goodnight is gonna keep the tears outta my eyes
maybe I'll have a dream that will make me forget the pain in my life
read me a story book with pictures inside..
take me away to the land of paradise..
where there is no such thing called "pain"
and there is only tears of happyness
and no games
and flowers that never die..with no clouds that cry..their is no rain
the sun never goes..it becomes brighter everytime you look at the sky
no time never run outta anything..
even teddy bears sing
where butterflies grant my every wish...
but thats just dreamin..
im here and..
I ain't livin in heaven..
I don't expect to..
I accept pretendin..
If I were givin a chance to grant a wish from a gene in a bottle..
the only thing I would ask for is...
To Fill Up This Empty Part Of Me...
That Part That Never Seems To Feel Complete..
Written By Esra Chebli..
listen to this melody in a lullabuy..
a kiss goodnight is gonna keep the tears outta my eyes
maybe I'll have a dream that will make me forget the pain in my life
read me a story book with pictures inside..
take me away to the land of paradise..
where there is no such thing called "pain"
and there is only tears of happyness
and no games
and flowers that never die..with no clouds that cry..their is no rain
the sun never goes..it becomes brighter everytime you look at the sky
no time never run outta anything..
even teddy bears sing
where butterflies grant my every wish...
but thats just dreamin..
im here and..
I ain't livin in heaven..
I don't expect to..
I accept pretendin..
If I were givin a chance to grant a wish from a gene in a bottle..
the only thing I would ask for is...
To Fill Up This Empty Part Of Me...
That Part That Never Seems To Feel Complete..
Written By Esra Chebli..
Saturday, April 10, 2010
NoOne Else...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rf_bFwroVvE
NoOne else in this world like you..
NoOne can do the things you do...
never met NoOne like me..
NoOne knew I was a phony..
when I told you how I feel...
listenin to this melody..
we became what was once the missing center peice
combined our love..
and became two into one..
started off strong..
but it doesn't always stay like the start..
now you know...
I'm two faced..
nothin but fake...
what did we really make..?
how much did you take..?
what did I give..?
why am I makin the same mistakes..?
will you ever know how much of my heart really breaks..
Nobody knows..
because I simply hide it without a trace..
we seem to argue when we miss communicate
I'm tryin my best to facilitate..
but will I make things easier if I give you ur own space?
I would come runnin back to you..
but somethin is pushin me back because the things I do..
maybe it's from all this shame..
for how much I put you through..
so I'm comin back right now..
sayin the words I never wanted you to hear comin outta my mouth
I'm sorry..
this word is trippin me out..
but..how will you know I'm sayin the truth..
do you know what I'm feelin now?
I ain't just sayin it..Imma show you how..
Written By Esra Chebli
NoOne else in this world like you..
NoOne can do the things you do...
never met NoOne like me..
NoOne knew I was a phony..
when I told you how I feel...
listenin to this melody..
we became what was once the missing center peice
combined our love..
and became two into one..
started off strong..
but it doesn't always stay like the start..
now you know...
I'm two faced..
nothin but fake...
what did we really make..?
how much did you take..?
what did I give..?
why am I makin the same mistakes..?
will you ever know how much of my heart really breaks..
Nobody knows..
because I simply hide it without a trace..
we seem to argue when we miss communicate
I'm tryin my best to facilitate..
but will I make things easier if I give you ur own space?
I would come runnin back to you..
but somethin is pushin me back because the things I do..
maybe it's from all this shame..
for how much I put you through..
so I'm comin back right now..
sayin the words I never wanted you to hear comin outta my mouth
I'm sorry..
this word is trippin me out..
but..how will you know I'm sayin the truth..
do you know what I'm feelin now?
I ain't just sayin it..Imma show you how..
Written By Esra Chebli
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8hEoce0xhAw
I see the changes and struggles I go through..
everyday everynight there be one less person to talk to
hearin the same words I got you
feelin like I got nothin left to do..
but then I step into the bright side
like I don't give a fuck if things ain't goin right
to all those people who promised to stay next to me and walked outta my life
to them haiters who are pickin up on me to start a fight
to them lovers who sayin those three words to me and end up cuttin my heart in a slice
fuck ya'll
Imma keep movin my own way
if the world be turnin against me
Imma keep doin my own thang
don't got time for no dirty fag
don't need another layer of more pain
so Imma keep lookin ahead and forget them games
Follow my dream
since ya'll add the cherry
Imma add the whip cream
be my own team
I got me myself and I
and this big dream
like the world cup and a soccer team
I'm the champion in my life don't need lifting
I got outta a hole
came on my own
Imma lay in hole
when death comes and my bedroom in a grave yard
noone gonna be proud of me
but me and whats above me
I don't give a fuck how ya'll remember me
you ain't the shit in my life whos settin me free
stay outta my life and stop blockin the light I need'a see
because none of ya'll ain't doin me any good
so step out..bitch please..
Written By Esra Chebli
I see the changes and struggles I go through..
everyday everynight there be one less person to talk to
hearin the same words I got you
feelin like I got nothin left to do..
but then I step into the bright side
like I don't give a fuck if things ain't goin right
to all those people who promised to stay next to me and walked outta my life
to them haiters who are pickin up on me to start a fight
to them lovers who sayin those three words to me and end up cuttin my heart in a slice
fuck ya'll
Imma keep movin my own way
if the world be turnin against me
Imma keep doin my own thang
don't got time for no dirty fag
don't need another layer of more pain
so Imma keep lookin ahead and forget them games
Follow my dream
since ya'll add the cherry
Imma add the whip cream
be my own team
I got me myself and I
and this big dream
like the world cup and a soccer team
I'm the champion in my life don't need lifting
I got outta a hole
came on my own
Imma lay in hole
when death comes and my bedroom in a grave yard
noone gonna be proud of me
but me and whats above me
I don't give a fuck how ya'll remember me
you ain't the shit in my life whos settin me free
stay outta my life and stop blockin the light I need'a see
because none of ya'll ain't doin me any good
so step out..bitch please..
Written By Esra Chebli
Friday, April 9, 2010
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8yycOceo4u0
babe you aint answerin my messages..I call but the machine come up sayin you be back in a second..are you still remanacin..? bout ur ex, I thought u was serious no pretendin, but how come I say I love you and you leavin it pendin,,actin friendly dressin all trendy, trynna get me to envy, when u know I aint up for jelousey, is it true what they told me? is that why you aint callin? fuck it..Im sick of waitin..havin me sick to my stomache..I aint no toy to play with..got this blemish..why you actin selfish..I told everyone you was the bestest..I trusted you..there was no need for testin, put my heart back..I'll lead where my chest is, I'm sure its the only best fit, breathless..I was stone..thought I was reckless..but now I see, you think you the freshest, to me you were so precious..I know I never showed it buyin you a Lexus..never to cautious, now we just a fossil, I guess your lips were to luscious, to scrumptious..love lead to infatuation, miss lead our functions..these weren't my plans never knew it would be my heart u be crunchin..the pain got worse thought you would stop munchin..gummin..gummin me like you chew gum, makin fun'a me..a fool outta me..when without you I now know it's gonna be pain free..
Written By Esra Chebli
babe you aint answerin my messages..I call but the machine come up sayin you be back in a second..are you still remanacin..? bout ur ex, I thought u was serious no pretendin, but how come I say I love you and you leavin it pendin,,actin friendly dressin all trendy, trynna get me to envy, when u know I aint up for jelousey, is it true what they told me? is that why you aint callin? fuck it..Im sick of waitin..havin me sick to my stomache..I aint no toy to play with..got this blemish..why you actin selfish..I told everyone you was the bestest..I trusted you..there was no need for testin, put my heart back..I'll lead where my chest is, I'm sure its the only best fit, breathless..I was stone..thought I was reckless..but now I see, you think you the freshest, to me you were so precious..I know I never showed it buyin you a Lexus..never to cautious, now we just a fossil, I guess your lips were to luscious, to scrumptious..love lead to infatuation, miss lead our functions..these weren't my plans never knew it would be my heart u be crunchin..the pain got worse thought you would stop munchin..gummin..gummin me like you chew gum, makin fun'a me..a fool outta me..when without you I now know it's gonna be pain free..
Written By Esra Chebli
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
A little rappin goin on at youtube
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WXy5_ato5BY
http://www.youtube.com/user/cuteleb43
I..I be drivin in my whip..cool chrome..got the leather shit, rolled up windows injoyin my selfishness, beat up high..ppl lovin it, watch my car as I dip..right by them comin from da crib..the beamer benz or bently, don't know wut to pick, got them bitches jelouse wishin they havin it, all over me even if I be sagin on ma dick, I be like the fresh prince, people knowin what my trend is..wishin they had the life like the way I live,
I be in this beamer, fresh out the dealer, black shine, wit the back of the trunk got them speakers, with the seats special leather heaters, as I be drivin constantly checkin my rear view mirrors, no saftey shit, just wanted to make my own spotlight wit my high beamers..
tried somethin different wit this beat..the beamer benz or bently is rockin the streets..so Imma talk like i can aford this shit..sittin on expensive seats..I got the bucks up high..I got the chrome all over me..you got them rang rovers..but I got the heat...my car as fresh as wayne..3 peat...not the 22's..but the 24 inch wheels...body kit down low..my tires fresh from leo's...beats blast sick even wit the sound of neyo..I be drivin..but I feel like Im in the ocean..findin nemo..you be fryin when I pass by..it smell like edo...I aint any better..im one of them negros..a rich mawfucka...I put gold in my cheetos..im the hero of heros..I can drive all 3..I pass by like olla amigo!
-Written By Esra Chebli
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Written By http://www.youtube.com/user/UPP3RCUT90
Never had a Beamer Benz or bentley ... when I was was younger the fuel tank was always empty...pull up wit ur whip, lock ur doors & take ur keys don't tempt me ..coz riding an estrogen tank thats rusty ain't got no sex appeal...to drive thru the street it hurts yal don know how dat feels...like men watchin biatches runnin track in high heels... Im tellin u this muthafuckk ain't work like square wheels...but that was back in da dais when girls used to stuff tissues in they bra...Now I'm riding 22" in a imported car...make my appearance in a suburu sti wrx with 3 inch ground clearance...engine a beast exaughst attracting coppers coz it's causing noise inferearance...we can stunt all night..middle finger out the passener window when we ride makin lame fucks sick to dey tripe
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http://www.youtube.com/user/cuteleb43
-stop wit yo nagging..let me tell ya'll wut a drive...see my ride..fresh off kajiji..not a beamer benz or bently...man im tlkin bout 2000 dollar dealing...baught it from some guy named laweezee..he told me the exoust a lil leaky..thats why when my engin runnin it smell a lil cheesy..couldnt aford a honda..part time worker at arbys..man I had to wotk my ass off to get my hand on them car keys..
Written By Esra Chebli
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Written By http://www.youtube.com/user/3268right
-Fuck a beamer benz or bentley I be smashin my Chev'ee wit a bitch rollin Doe-de while i tip my Henny shit hit me like Semi she feelin on her Tities i got a nine (inch) bout to unload it til its empty, 25 then im Out then im Out its a Drought its a Drought im up to ptich im at the Mount now tell me the Amount cause i always got the Count with them yellow big birds
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http://www.youtube.com/user/cuteleb43
-yo dis is the beamer benz or bently..pick one but i pick 3 excludin my chevy..drive past you while u lyin there huggin yo teddy..depressed cuz ur ride ugly..like its ugly betty..im steady..like steady mobin u ready..hold up im bein to friendly..i think im a lil to trendy,u can smell my ride my ride so smelly..aha its belly the color so rich like the rich choclate of oh henry
Written By Esra Chebli
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Written By http://www.youtube.com/user/JerseyFatMan
-well your chocolate melt when I fly right by with a rice burner as my ride with the shiny new coat and that big blue tank got me 2 fat blunts rolled up with that dank quick like a shank between your ribs my ride so fast it shifts ya organs while you pouring that weak shit in your glass I got that RX-7 floating by your ass
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Written By http://www.youtube.com/user/3268right
-lol Bitch U must be Brazy if you think fuckin wit me Nightly or Daily Now take it 2 da throat like swallowing Babies u kant Fuck me with me like i got rabies homegrown 4rm 80's an i flow so Greatly with a thousand in the Teddy Ak made ya Steady hit u all up in ya Belly catch ya in ya in beamer benz or Bently i ant tryin to talk like low minutes on Celly thought u was Ready now lookin like confeady thats why ya shit smelly
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http://www.youtube.com/user/cuteleb43
-lol Dick U must be prayin,fuckin wit u is like fuckin wit ladies..ur words aint that big of a shit for me to swallow U crazy..yous tlkin like u got rabies..well then here imma rub u wit ma hankies..bitch I do this shit daily, like da girl version of shady, I get this shit top rating..I aint hating..u ridin on 80s wut the fuck is you drinkin
Written By Esra Chebli
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Written By http://www.youtube.com/user/3268right
-Ur rite fukn wit me is like fukin wit a Lady bkuz u kame in unprotected Now you got Hiv an u Burning then a G like me go in ya pockets an take ya Earnings an send ya Urn'en to yo mom in the Morning so she kan get to Mourning im pissing an im Pouring wit the Heat wit the Heat hotter than elijah Mornin rippin rippin threw ya Gournments You ant ready for this Torment you ant ready for this Torment Your as good as wood Dorment flick a blunt roach at you an watch it watch it get to Scorchin nigga theres yours Warnin
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http://www.youtube.com/user/cuteleb43
-u pissin an paurin wit the heat wit the heat..cuz i burned ya wit a lil speach crippled ya teeth..i get it from the air I breath u fuckin in ma world i bring the flame at yo feet, bitch dis is fuckin wit the real G..nah u cant creep me..wuts my warnin when I got u lyin here like grilled meat..oh here now i gotta use my hankies when i rubbed ur rabbies and rub them tears..while u b screamin sos rihanna come save me
Written By Esra Chebli
http://www.youtube.com/user/cuteleb43
I..I be drivin in my whip..cool chrome..got the leather shit, rolled up windows injoyin my selfishness, beat up high..ppl lovin it, watch my car as I dip..right by them comin from da crib..the beamer benz or bently, don't know wut to pick, got them bitches jelouse wishin they havin it, all over me even if I be sagin on ma dick, I be like the fresh prince, people knowin what my trend is..wishin they had the life like the way I live,
I be in this beamer, fresh out the dealer, black shine, wit the back of the trunk got them speakers, with the seats special leather heaters, as I be drivin constantly checkin my rear view mirrors, no saftey shit, just wanted to make my own spotlight wit my high beamers..
tried somethin different wit this beat..the beamer benz or bently is rockin the streets..so Imma talk like i can aford this shit..sittin on expensive seats..I got the bucks up high..I got the chrome all over me..you got them rang rovers..but I got the heat...my car as fresh as wayne..3 peat...not the 22's..but the 24 inch wheels...body kit down low..my tires fresh from leo's...beats blast sick even wit the sound of neyo..I be drivin..but I feel like Im in the ocean..findin nemo..you be fryin when I pass by..it smell like edo...I aint any better..im one of them negros..a rich mawfucka...I put gold in my cheetos..im the hero of heros..I can drive all 3..I pass by like olla amigo!
-Written By Esra Chebli
..................................................................................................................................................................
Written By http://www.youtube.com/user/UPP3RCUT90
Never had a Beamer Benz or bentley ... when I was was younger the fuel tank was always empty...pull up wit ur whip, lock ur doors & take ur keys don't tempt me ..coz riding an estrogen tank thats rusty ain't got no sex appeal...to drive thru the street it hurts yal don know how dat feels...like men watchin biatches runnin track in high heels... Im tellin u this muthafuckk ain't work like square wheels...but that was back in da dais when girls used to stuff tissues in they bra...Now I'm riding 22" in a imported car...make my appearance in a suburu sti wrx with 3 inch ground clearance...engine a beast exaughst attracting coppers coz it's causing noise inferearance...we can stunt all night..middle finger out the passener window when we ride makin lame fucks sick to dey tripe
..............................................................................................................................................................
http://www.youtube.com/user/cuteleb43
-stop wit yo nagging..let me tell ya'll wut a drive...see my ride..fresh off kajiji..not a beamer benz or bently...man im tlkin bout 2000 dollar dealing...baught it from some guy named laweezee..he told me the exoust a lil leaky..thats why when my engin runnin it smell a lil cheesy..couldnt aford a honda..part time worker at arbys..man I had to wotk my ass off to get my hand on them car keys..
Written By Esra Chebli
...............................................................................................................................................................
Written By http://www.youtube.com/user/3268right
-Fuck a beamer benz or bentley I be smashin my Chev'ee wit a bitch rollin Doe-de while i tip my Henny shit hit me like Semi she feelin on her Tities i got a nine (inch) bout to unload it til its empty, 25 then im Out then im Out its a Drought its a Drought im up to ptich im at the Mount now tell me the Amount cause i always got the Count with them yellow big birds
.............................................................................................................................................................
http://www.youtube.com/user/cuteleb43
-yo dis is the beamer benz or bently..pick one but i pick 3 excludin my chevy..drive past you while u lyin there huggin yo teddy..depressed cuz ur ride ugly..like its ugly betty..im steady..like steady mobin u ready..hold up im bein to friendly..i think im a lil to trendy,u can smell my ride my ride so smelly..aha its belly the color so rich like the rich choclate of oh henry
Written By Esra Chebli
..............................................................................................................................................................
Written By http://www.youtube.com/user/JerseyFatMan
-well your chocolate melt when I fly right by with a rice burner as my ride with the shiny new coat and that big blue tank got me 2 fat blunts rolled up with that dank quick like a shank between your ribs my ride so fast it shifts ya organs while you pouring that weak shit in your glass I got that RX-7 floating by your ass
................................................................................................................................................................
Written By http://www.youtube.com/user/3268right
-lol Bitch U must be Brazy if you think fuckin wit me Nightly or Daily Now take it 2 da throat like swallowing Babies u kant Fuck me with me like i got rabies homegrown 4rm 80's an i flow so Greatly with a thousand in the Teddy Ak made ya Steady hit u all up in ya Belly catch ya in ya in beamer benz or Bently i ant tryin to talk like low minutes on Celly thought u was Ready now lookin like confeady thats why ya shit smelly
.................................................................................................................................................................
http://www.youtube.com/user/cuteleb43
-lol Dick U must be prayin,fuckin wit u is like fuckin wit ladies..ur words aint that big of a shit for me to swallow U crazy..yous tlkin like u got rabies..well then here imma rub u wit ma hankies..bitch I do this shit daily, like da girl version of shady, I get this shit top rating..I aint hating..u ridin on 80s wut the fuck is you drinkin
Written By Esra Chebli
..................................................................................................................................................................
Written By http://www.youtube.com/user/3268right
-Ur rite fukn wit me is like fukin wit a Lady bkuz u kame in unprotected Now you got Hiv an u Burning then a G like me go in ya pockets an take ya Earnings an send ya Urn'en to yo mom in the Morning so she kan get to Mourning im pissing an im Pouring wit the Heat wit the Heat hotter than elijah Mornin rippin rippin threw ya Gournments You ant ready for this Torment you ant ready for this Torment Your as good as wood Dorment flick a blunt roach at you an watch it watch it get to Scorchin nigga theres yours Warnin
...................................................................................................................................................................
http://www.youtube.com/user/cuteleb43
-u pissin an paurin wit the heat wit the heat..cuz i burned ya wit a lil speach crippled ya teeth..i get it from the air I breath u fuckin in ma world i bring the flame at yo feet, bitch dis is fuckin wit the real G..nah u cant creep me..wuts my warnin when I got u lyin here like grilled meat..oh here now i gotta use my hankies when i rubbed ur rabbies and rub them tears..while u b screamin sos rihanna come save me
Written By Esra Chebli
Friday, April 2, 2010
My Inspiration...He is.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M-yfwoJlvhc
Freedom...this freedom flag
K'naan you makin the world sing
K'naan you makin this a better place
when rappers rap bout better days
but hear your song and know everythins gonna be okay
you brought the light into the darkness
and helped those who are strugglin
someone wants to make a change
man..you stopped my tumblin
Imagin how much you mean to those who are survivors
who lost loved ones in war fires
you took over that inner feelin that told them nothin will work
and stepped in and told'em you can never run outta hope
opened the eyes of the people who care about their dope
but you created this flag..and this flag you show..
cover black hearts, into sweatened oats
pulled them into this new world
washed out the hurt and pain..
your doin somethin with your fame
trynna make change..in just positive ways..
so I make this shout out to you
and others out there I may not have a clue
you all doin good
god bless ur souls
you helpin when everythin falls
you the ones makin this rain gold
you never just made this album and it sold..
it's a special one..it helped my goals
you did more then what we asked for
enternaiment is a master
but the key to sendin word to disasters
life is gettin sadder..
but if you can put a smile on a person face in just a day
I believe you can put a smile on a million others with just wut you say
say K'naan keep wavin that flag..
Written By Esra Chebli
Freedom...this freedom flag
K'naan you makin the world sing
K'naan you makin this a better place
when rappers rap bout better days
but hear your song and know everythins gonna be okay
you brought the light into the darkness
and helped those who are strugglin
someone wants to make a change
man..you stopped my tumblin
Imagin how much you mean to those who are survivors
who lost loved ones in war fires
you took over that inner feelin that told them nothin will work
and stepped in and told'em you can never run outta hope
opened the eyes of the people who care about their dope
but you created this flag..and this flag you show..
cover black hearts, into sweatened oats
pulled them into this new world
washed out the hurt and pain..
your doin somethin with your fame
trynna make change..in just positive ways..
so I make this shout out to you
and others out there I may not have a clue
you all doin good
god bless ur souls
you helpin when everythin falls
you the ones makin this rain gold
you never just made this album and it sold..
it's a special one..it helped my goals
you did more then what we asked for
enternaiment is a master
but the key to sendin word to disasters
life is gettin sadder..
but if you can put a smile on a person face in just a day
I believe you can put a smile on a million others with just wut you say
say K'naan keep wavin that flag..
Written By Esra Chebli
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Hey daddy..where you been all these years?,
mamma told us you had some stuff to do back at wall street..
you missed my first class
oh daddy look here!!
do you see!!
daddy!
daddy!!
watch me do a cartwheel
when mamma told me you were comin back
I thought you looked like uncle Jack
ahaha..because he's kinda wide and fat
no..!! because that's his brother in fact!
mamma reads us beautiful bedtime stories
she sings beautiful melodies..
I feel like she tries to tell me..
like she wants to say something
daddy why weren't you here?
why didn't you atleast visit us?
"Baby girl, why all the questons?,
you ain't old enough to understand, it's big people lessons
so come on over and take my hand
I have a little story to tell you
but it's a little sad..
come along and sit on this bench..
.and I'll tell you the rest.."
"when you grow up, weird things happen..
you'll discover something called love..
but you have to make sure your seat belts are fastened
because its a bumpy ride..
you see me and mamma went to school together..
we fell inlove,
so we started to date..
you see..
me and mamma made a little mistake..
that's when she got pregnant
me and mamma kept fighting because we had no money
thats when we decided to seperate
it was no joke..nothin was funny
so while I was a away..
mamma gave birth to you 30 days late
that's when they found out she had another on the way
but I became to afraid..
that's when I called uncle jack to stay
daddy was mad at himself
it was to hard for him to call
for you to ask about
when I tried I rang once..but put the phone down
but I come now
because I'll never be able to forgive myself
you've grown so big
I never even got the chance to see you as a kid
be by you while you were sick
hold you in my arms as a new born
I made mammas heart sore
that's why she don't know what I am back for
theres no point
I'm gonna hurt her more..
but I promise you I wont
that's why I wanna marry mamma and proove to her imma make it work
build this family stronger
hopefully I wont make things worse
I love her
and I love you to
but daddy gotta make up for all of this
this a big wake up because he got kids
and they are his
so it's his job to take care of'em til the last day he lives..
Written By EsraChebli
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